Feeling pretty bad.

[RachelZ]

Please could anyone pray...feeling pretty rubbish and I'm frustrated about it cos it's the start of hubby's holiday and I would so love to be able to enjoy time with him, the little one and the dog. Feel pretty depressed...don't know if it's a reaction to all the OCD stuff or what but whatever is causing it it sucks! My psychiatrist suggested a small increase in meds but I'm worried about it affecting our son who's still feeding. He said it would still be a low dose and in fairness he's right but I still worry. I hate feeling like this...it's hard to get the oomph to try and fight it and I just feel so sad that things can nosedive like this...it happens again and again that I'll feel better and then it all goes pear shaped! It's hard to know what God thinks about it all. Sorry to be so negative but if you do get a chance to say a wee prayer a dose of wisdom would be helpful...like how do I treat this and what are God's thoughts about it all...cheers...take care, Rachel

 

[Princess Of Yahweh]

God Bless!!!

 

[RachelZ]

Thank you...and thank you for your scripture...I know it wasn't specifically for me as it's automatically there but it's the verses that were read out at our wedding and it's a good reminder to be commited to love even when I feel cruddy. Take care and thanks ever so much for your reply...Rachel

 

[Jayangel81]

Praying for you

 

[gracealone]

Hi Rachel,
I'm so sorry you're feeling so rotten. It's very tough and it takes grit to just keep going when you feel like that. The increase in meds... just do it, OK? I know you have some health concerns too that could be adding to the depression. If there is any way at all for you to get out and walk for a bit, even though you don't feel like it, it can help. I'm praying for you. Remember that God's love for us isn't based on who we are but who He is. "Though we fall we are not utterly cast down - for the Lord holds us with His hand." It's important to remember that, yes, we fall but always within His hand, never out of it.
Don't give up or give in.. this too shall pass.
Mitzi

 

[ObsessedButBlessed]

Hi Rachel! Sorry you're not feeling too well. I noticed you said you are getting anxious about your hubby being on holiday. That used to be a HUGE trigger for my OCD (probably still is somewhat) - all it took was one horrible OCD vacation for me to associate all vacation time as a time that my OCD would flare up, because I kept checking to see if my OCD was there, and after checking so many times, of course it showed up!

The important thing is to keep doing what you're doing, don't shy away from spending time with your hubby and dog and kiddo, go out and do some fun things, do your best to enjoy life with your husband in spite of the awfulness of OCD!

 

[WhiteWillow]

I'll most definately pray for you Rachel,God bless and provide the best answers right now.

 

[RachelZ]

Thank you so much Gracealone, Sad and white willow...sorry I've only just been able to reply! I really did appreciate your reponses and your prayers.

Thanks Mikzi, I haven't ruled out the medication yet but thought I should do the responible thing first and see if not drinking helps. That sounds like I drink loads...I don't but I kinda thought well maybe even a glass or two might be too much at the mo. I have to say I am feeling better than I was...whether it's the prayers, lack of alcohol, I would have improved anyway or a combination I don't know but I'm just hoping it continues and improves too. Hope you've settled in well...you must be about to be a Grandma again soon aren't you? How exciting!

Thanks Sad...yes I know where you're coming from about worrying about spending time together cos of how you might feel and react...I think when I posted though it was more that I was frustrated that I was feeling pretty low and it would stop me having a good holiday. How are you getting on with the ERP? Well I hope.

Thanks for your prayers WhiteWillow...I really appreciate you responding and praying...hope you're doing OK...take care all and hope and pray you're having lots of OCD free moments...Rachel

 

[midair7231]

I will be praying for you. I'm going through something similar right now, so I know how you feel. I have my wedding coming up in a week and I fear that I will feel bad the day of the wedding and ruin everything.

I recently read an article and I don't know if any of you have read it but I will post a link to it. It has really helped me to understand what ROCD is all about. The article is by Dr. Steven Phillipson and it is titled I Think It Moved. The ROCD stuff is a little more than half way down.

Hang in there it will get better!

 

[wiggsfly]

I'll keep you in my prayers. My own OCD has been flairing up for the last two months or so. It is rough!

 

[RachelZ]

Hi Midair and Wiggsfly...I am so sorry I haven't replied to your responses before...my hubby has been on holiday so we've been busy doing either nice stuff or housey stuff so getting on-line much and being able to reply hasn't been so easy.

I really hope your wedding either goes or went well...hope you're feeling peaceful about things! Yes Dr. Phillipson's articles are really good aren't they! Thanks for your prayers.

Thanks to you too Wigsfly...hope and pray you are feeling a bit better...it's hideous when the OCD starts raging but I pray you'll have loads of times when you can know that whatever your brain and body are doing, you can feel more certain that it's the OCD and somehow be able to rise above it. Tha's what I hope for me...well obviously a complete cure would be good but at least more certainty in the bad times that it is OCD would be good.

I've been feeling better and had a lovely holiday with my hubby...and a really nice wedding anniversary. He's back to work today...really hope that doesn't send me down again. It's silly but even now I can feel the feelings and doubts of "was it really a lovely holiday?" One thing I did note this morning was that I stopped myself doing a counting compulsion and the feelings I got were similar to ones I get when I doubt things re. my hubby. When I'm struggling with the ROCD, I think things like "well if it was all OK then I wouldn't be feeling like this!" But seeing how something as trivial as counting can lead to such feelings helps me see that whatever else is going on my thinking and reacting at such times is OCD so can't be trusted as a true indication of how things really are. Sorry...I don't mean that others who get counting compulsions have a trivial form of OCD...most definitely not...but just that I could see that what I was doing with the counting meant nothing yet led to feelings weaker yet similar to those surrounsing my relationship. Hope thgat makes sense...please remind me of what I've just written when I'm next going off on one...

Many thanks again to you all for your prayers and responses...hope you're all doing OK...take care, Rachel