Feeling overwhelmed

[texannurse]

Hi everyone. I didn't really know where to post this, but since when I am on I am usually in this forum . . . here goes.

I feel so overwhelmed. On the outside my life seems fine but on the inside I am dying. I am in so much inner turmoil and shame and anxiety and all that junk. I am a cutter, bipolar, obsessive, a sinner, and tons of other negative stuff. I hate this. I hate feeling this way.

I have a therapist who I have known for years. But I can't tell him all this. He is too proud of me - of where he thinks I am doing so well. And to be honest, I am scared to do well. I am scared of being alone. I am scared of letting all the junk go. I am just scared and overwhelmed and tired of it all.

Sorry to just dump. I just couldn't keep it in any longer.
TN

 

[startingxthexjourney]

i totally agree. I will be praying for you. I know exactly how you feel. i know God cares for us and will help us through everything, but i am so overwhelmed. I will pray things get better for you, and please PM me if you want to. seriously, don't think i'm just saying that. i know exactly how you feel.

ME

 

[Soulwings]

Hey beautiful......

It amazes me how we click SO MUCH. Every time that you feel something, it turns out that I'm feeling the same thing. We got diagnosed bipolar at nearly the same time, we're on some of the same meds, we like the same things, etc., etc. But as of now... I'm feeling overwhelmed too. And today in counseling Lori asked me if I'm willing to give up some of the crap that I say about myself. I had to say no, because I don't believe in the positive side of things.

I don't think that you should be scared of letting him know that you're not doing well. Like I said in misscaffeiney's thread... that's not being fair to you or to him. He's there to help you, and you're not letting him. (Sorry if that was rather a slap in the face.)

You shouldn't feel hate or shame about what you're going through. Everyone struggles in life. It's just that our particular cross happen to be mental illness(es). You're strong. I'm strong. ME is strong. The people in this forum are strong. We'll all pull through. We've got God on our side, and I believe with all of my heart that while mental illnesses are indeed illnesses, Satan attacks us at our weakest spots. He's tricksy like that. And that's where the major struggles and slipups and falls come into play.

And... we're all sinners. No sin is greater or lesser in God's eyes. No exception rule here, m'dear. So try not to let that depress you. The only thing we can do is focus on Christ and imitate Him as best as we can. We'll fall in doing so, but we've just got to get up and keep going and focus on the steps we're making to improve our lives for the better.

And that isn't dumping. That's asking for help and support... and I'm proud of you for posting. I don't think that I would be strong enough to.

Hang in there. Things will get better. I know that's an oft-used phrase, and probably overused, but things WILL get better. I just don't know when. Hehe. Cling to hope and cling to your ideals. Strive for reaching small goals. Focus on making baby steps. That's all we can do when things are rough.

I hope that helped some. As always, I'm here for you.

* Arnold gives Tn a huge bear squishisnugglehug.

 

[Nobility]

Aww hun...

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I honestly was going to see the same sorta thing!

And pretty please... Please tell your counselor about how you are feeling. That's what he's there for, and I imagine, he'll feel so proud of you for having the guts to ACTUALLY say it!

I'm praying