Feeling Lost

[Psalm83:18]

Dear New Friends,

I just wanted to reach out and introduce myself. I want to start by saying that the past three years have been amazing. I have experienced a very close walk with God. After an intense study of the Bible some years ago, I began to study with Jehovah’s Witnesses. I am not looking to dispute my faith with anyone as I truly believe we try our absolute hardest to live by what the Bible says. I understand that others may feel differently. I, myself, was baptized during the pandemic.

Over the past year I noticed I was having some impulsivity issues in certain areas of my life but nothing too major. I shopped a little more than I should but have been able to pay my bills without much worry. About 5 months ago I started having sexually compulsive/ obsessive thoughts. Some days are better than others. A primary care physician believes I have bipolar disorder. I am currently in the process of seeing a psychiatrist for confirmation- I’m a new patient so it will be a little while before I actually see one.

I just feel very lost in terms of my thinking. My beliefs and the disorder are very much at odds (cognitive dissonance might be the term) and I’m just wondering if there are other Christians out there who have struggled like this and overcome the feelings that came along with the disorder/ diagnosis. I’m in a very lonely place and looking for others who can relate.

 

[Jonaitis]

Carl Jung's integration of the shadow.

You must let those thoughts be. Your resistance is the reason they exist.

I use to have intrusive thoughts years ago, but I learned that these thoughts are not my own. It is the subconscious information flowing through your head, just like a dream. You must let them exist, and accept the passing of them through your mind. In other words, be indifferent to them.

 

[Psalm83:18]

That’s just it. I don’t know what to do with them. The images just never seem to cease for long. Especially, at night when I try to sleep or at night when I’m working. How long did yours take to finally pass?

 

[Jonaitis]

That’s just it. I don’t know what to do with them. The images just never seem to cease for long. Especially, at night when I try to sleep or at night when I’m working. How long did yours take to finally pass?

It takes practice. Every time an unpleasant thought arises, you must let go of resisting it. Observe it the way you observe a movie. Let it be and then move on. It may be something sexual, blasphemous, outright ridiculous, whatever it may be you must give it the right to come and leave as it pleases. Eventually, over time you will notice it less until it completely disappears.

It took me several months, actually.

 

[Jonaitis]

Don't disagree with it. That is a form of resistance. It is indifference toward it that frees you, that "I don't care" attitude (at least from my experience).

 

[musicalpilgrim]

Fill your mind with the Words of the Lord and this will replace the unwanted stuff. memorize a verse from the Bible and use it to sleep on.
May the Lord bless you richly as you seek more of him in your life.

 

[Psalm83:18]

Thank you both for your encouragement

 

[Brihaha]

Welcome to CF. We all feel lost occasionally. I finished reading the bible during the pandemic. God blessed me with more faith. I too struggled with intrusive or sinful thoughts. I found that by reading my bible and praying with faith God hears my prayers and takes away certain urges. You have to develop your faith to believe God can and will help you transform your life. If He sees you trying your best He will help ease your burdens. None of us is perfect, yet if we try God will certainly comfort us. I will pray you get a diagnosis and find peace again.

 

[sunshineforJesus]

Hi and welcome here.

 

[Joined2krist]

Hi and welcome. The enemy is very experienced in lies and tricks, the only way out is to know the Truth, and it will set you free. Welcome!

 

[Christoph Maria]

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[Michie]

Welcome to CF! I hope you find it helpful.

 

[GracefulWarrior]

Hi and Welcome to the CF!

Our mind is a battlefield that Satan takes advantage of, IF we're not armored up from the top of our head to the bottom of our feet! We have to STOP "letting" the enemy prance and dance around in our head and kick those thoughts outta there ASAP! Don't mess around with entertaining the devil by NOT resisting these UNgodly thoughts and urges, etc....The Bible says to RESIST the devil, NOT entertain him by letting him come and go in your mind as he pleases! Listen to some praise and worship music before bedtime, AND throughout the day too! Flood your thoughts with MORE of GOD and less of self...

James 4:7 (NLT)
So humble yourselves before God. RESIST the devil, and he will flee from you.

Question just came to me...Have you ever invited God's Holy Spirit into your heart and life?

 

[Anthony2019]

Hello and welcome. I hope you will enjoy the discussions here!

 

[Kobolt]

Every bad habit that needs to be broken has a starting point and the Battlefield is within this starting point. It's just like a rocket, the shaky part is the start, the launching of it. When it have reached Space, there's no more resistance. same thing with bad habits, resist the first weeks, make a decision and stay firm on that decision. After some time, you can rest and sit tight and feel happy about your wise decisions. Good luck and God bless!

 

[BlazingStarBlossoms]

Hello and welcome to you. I really hope you can be set completely free from such intrusive thoughts by leaning more and more on God.

 

[ruth dickey]

Thank you both for your encouragement

they make it hard, , but like this lady said, , open, the bible and or ask god to give you a , scripture, or phaalms, , ect, and memorize it, the lords prayer, is, the starter, , also, if, if you are very lucky and have an older working tape recorder, with the king james bible , the whole on cassette, you can listen, at night time, , to try to get thoughts on his worrds, or a cd player with the same, but ive also found, where online audio website, , where it reads the scriptures to you, , possible maybe to get, on your smartphone, not sure, but that way you can have it, kinda nearby to listen to, just as your gettin ready to doze off.,, i know on the home computer they have a free online website, for the audio , , god bless you, ,

 

[Lost Witness]

Welcome to CF, Sister. I'd Second the Suggestion of a King James Bible. Mark 9:48 is a Great place to start

 

[GracefulWarrior]

I use the Biblegateway.com for my Daily Scripture notifications and the different translations for bible studies, such as the NASB, NIV, NLT, etc....And you can use the audio reader to read the Bible to you too.