Feeling Like Nothing

[Steven Wood]

Most Of the time I can go weeks on end without getting a phone call, message, or visit, from another person. I have no personal relationships with anyone. It has even come to my attention recently that I matter so little to even my own siblings that people that they have known for quite some time didn't even know I existed. It has been like this all my life. No friends have ever dropped in to see how I was, I've been divorced twice, I've only broken up with one person in my life, No one calls on my birthday, no calls on holidays, As a matter of fact My first wife left myself and my 3 children, had nothing to do with us for 4 years, stole my children after marrying a wealthy man and winning the kids, she died years later and the 2 youngest decided to stay with the man and have nothing to do with me with no calls from them. Though I'm a man and a sinner, I've had more than my share of mistakes, I don't treat people wrong, I don't ignore people or cheat.I truly feel like nothing. It's not like I feel hated, I know that I could die and no one would ever know. Nobody ever has me on their mind or thinks about me and it hurts and I don't know what I did to deserve it. To know that I am never so much as a fleeting though in anyone's mind is a painful feeling. Can anyone tell me If this is God's plan? I know that God doesn't want you to have anyone before him and in the end days satan will tempt you by putting you loved ones before you so I keep thinking it might be easier for me if I just didn't have any but it really does hurt to not be loved or thought of by anyone ever and to be all alone. It says in Genesis man isn't meant to be alone but yet I am.

 

[orangeness365]

Here are some passages about loneliness, about how God is there for you if nobody else is. It's hard being an outcast.
Psalm 68:5-6, Isaiah 49:15, Psalm 27:10, Matthew 28:20, John 14:18, Hebrews 13:5-6, Psalm 142:1-5, Proverbs 19:7, Hebrews 13:5-6,

 

[Tempura]

Oh man, I'm sorry about that.

I don't believe God's plan is to make anyone miserable for misery's sake. I do believe that some of us are being let to fall down, so that we could know God better and how much we need Him. Also for other people - when they see that someone has nothing but still lives in faith, it's makes a great impression. I applaud you for still treating people right, even if you aren't treated right. It's inspiring, and I only hope that one day someone will show you love.

Said a prayer for you.

 

[Poster0]

Most Of the time I can go weeks on end without getting a phone call, message, or visit, from another person. I have no personal relationships with anyone. It has even come to my attention recently that I matter so little to even my own siblings that people that they have known for quite some time didn't even know I existed. It has been like this all my life. No friends have ever dropped in to see how I was, I've been divorced twice, I've only broken up with one person in my life, No one calls on my birthday, no calls on holidays, As a matter of fact My first wife left myself and my 3 children, had nothing to do with us for 4 years, stole my children after marrying a wealthy man and winning the kids, she died years later and the 2 youngest decided to stay with the man and have nothing to do with me with no calls from them. Though I'm a man and a sinner, I've had more than my share of mistakes, I don't treat people wrong, I don't ignore people or cheat.I truly feel like nothing. It's not like I feel hated, I know that I could die and no one would ever know. Nobody ever has me on their mind or thinks about me and it hurts and I don't know what I did to deserve it. To know that I am never so much as a fleeting though in anyone's mind is a painful feeling. Can anyone tell me If this is God's plan? I know that God doesn't want you to have anyone before him and in the end days satan will tempt you by putting you loved ones before you so I keep thinking it might be easier for me if I just didn't have any but it really does hurt to not be loved or thought of by anyone ever and to be all alone. It says in Genesis man isn't meant to be alone but yet I am.

Genesis says that its not good for man to be alone. The apostle Paul never married but he had a lot of brothers and sisters in Christ, and he had the Lord, so he wasn't alone. You have us brother.