- Mar 27, 2017
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I have been feeling depressed because of the torture I endured. When I feel this way I watch one of my hero's video, Dianna Ortiz, who survived horrific torture in Guatemala. I admire her so much. She strengthens me. She is also a believer in Jesus Christ, she is a Catholic. I have been feeling depressed sadly. I feel like I was pushed too far in my torture. I feel very weak and broken. I wish Jesus would come and take me to heaven. I cant get over how cruel the woman who tortured me was. I know she wanted me to kill myself when I got free. She said she felt I should kill myself. I refuse to kill myself, even though I feel suicidal a lot. I know the woman did not care about me. When I watch Dianna Ortiz's video I feel that is how I want to be. She still is close to God and she still is alive, despite her horrendous torture. She is broken but she still lives life day by day. Watching her testimony or reading her book is a great comfort to me. I pray I can be as strong as her.