Gosh, everybody, I'm sorry for asking for so many prayer requests, but there's so much that I want to get over. Praise God that everything that I've been going through recently has passed, but now I'm going through a fear/disappointment situation. It's like every time I encounter the reality of the rapture and its closeness, I'm either filled with fear or dissapointment. I've always wanted to have long years on this earth, ma....well I won't get all into that AGAIN!! (sorry) The thing is that I know that I shouldn't be feeling like this, because I'm God's child, and should be eagerly awaiting Christ's return, but whenever this dissapointment comes..... I don't know... I see a lot of people saying how they're anxiously awaiting Christ's return, and I envy them because they've got to experienece a lot of things that I want to but haven't yet, and I feel guilty because of a lot of times I want Him to wait until I experience things here on earth.
I've been pushing this under the rug for awhile and pretending like I don't really feel this, but since the past few weeks, I've been learning to deal with everything the moment that it presents itself so that I'll have unrightousness removed from me. This is something hard, though. I'd like to say this is my last time for awhile, but I don't know how true that'll be.


