hey guys , this is not my first post here my first one was about the unpardonable sin that scared me a lot . Since I was a kid I was extremely afraid of the concept of Hell and punishment forever , my mom used to tell me I would not sleep when I heard about it or death in general because I would be scared. I'm still scared when people preach about hell more than about the love of God and I even find it irritating to me when people preach fear and not love. I myself sometimes have a lot of questions about the concept of Hell in general , but it faded away with time when I turned to Christ. However, my fear came back after my OCD started manifesting on the unpardonable sin , a lot of doubts and fear and guilt stick with me its been a while now and I'm extremely afraid that God would punish me for thoughts or things i might have said by accident or while not paying attention for ever in Hell . No matter how much reassurance i get that God knows my heart and loves me and will of course forgive me if i don't want them and since I'm concerned but there is always in the back of my mind this what if and what if and I'm never certain of Heaven and this specific type of uncertainty is too much for me knowing that i might be suffering forever. This affected me and my life quite a lot since it forced me to avoid triggers , my prayers became lesser since I'm more focused on doubts and anxiety than God and its robbing the peace that Christ gave me when i turned to him and this is increasing the doubts and fears so advice would be highly appreciated guys thank you