Hello, I just want to vent out some problems that I am having. Has anybody else experienced family members talking bad about them? I feel stuck in life.
All I hear is You [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] ass b#tch Ill kick you out this f#ckin house. Stupid B#tch, Broke B#tchYou loser!....... Thats all I heard this morning from a person Im suppose to trust. Why does my mother act this way? Im sorry for using this vulgar language. I rarely curse.
Im 30 years old and a female. Im not married and I have no kids. Im attractive, in shape, and I take good care of my body. Im drug and alcohol free. Im very nice, intelligent, good morals, and values. I have a graduate degree, but I am unemployed and desperately seeking work. I live with my mother in a home that I helped pay for, the house is paid for and I spent my life savings to help her get the house this year. I gave her $20,000. I wish that I didnt give her my hard earned money, but I was trying to help. Ive helped her whole entire life. Ive taken care of her child, bought her groceries, clothes, gifts, Ive done all of her college assignments, research papers, etc. She tells people that I am very irresponsible and that I do nothing. But the fact is that Im extremely responsible, helpful, and resourceful to her. If I had a job, I probably would pay all of her bills.
I was a good kid and teenager. Never got into trouble. I wasnt allowed to play outside until I was 15! I had no freedom, and could only talk to kids at the Christian school that I attended. My father is a great person, but he couldnt take the negativity and arguing, so he left and has been estranged from her for 17 years. She talks bad about my father because he left her, and she tried to poison me against him. But I love my dad, and I returned to him because hes great and he loves me! My mother hates me for not turning on my dad. He always paid her a large sum of money in child support He went above and beyond to take care of me and my sister. My mother never had to work, and the bills were paid for until he got sick 2 years ago. She has only worked 2 years in her 54 years on earth. She always is bragging about how she achieved so much in life, and then says that I have nothing .no man, no job, no home ..She tells me that im a loser.
Sometimes my mother is nice and fun and I spent lots of time with her. I get fooled to believing that she is a good person. Then she unpredictably switches off and become cruel mean, and hateful. She tells me that Im not her daughter, that she cant stand me, she doesnt like me .She calls me names and tells me I look like a animal. Im 119 pounds and she calls me fat. When she is mad she teases me about my dark skin complexion and tells me Im burnt. Why does she say things like that? I think Im beautiful. Why would she want to lower myself esteem? Why is she so hostile, I havent done anything wrong?
Ive always tried to be her friend and to care for her. She has never dated after my father and doesnt have a social life. So I try to support her.
Ive never done anything to her; I am very respectful and nice to her. So about 2 times a month I spend a few hours crying. Im balling with tears right now. She hurts me badly when I least expect it. Then she turns around and becomes nice again. I fall for it every time. My dads sick and in hospital I feels so sad and sick and hopeless.
Sometimes I feel that my mother wants to get into a physical fight with me. Today I can tell that she wants to hit me because she threw sometime at me.
So I just search for jobs all day long, and pray that one day I can move to a peaceful environment that is free of harmful words, negativity, and hate. I know my life will be a better quality and more stable when Im free of her. One day I hope to be a mother .I will love my kids so much. Lots of hugs and kisses. I will drive them crazy from hugging them.
Im a Christian, Ive live my life the right way with good morals, good intentions, integrity. I have a relationship with God, talk to him all day long. What am I missing here? I am extremely strong and resilient. I dont understand why my life has been filled with so much turmoil. What am i doing wrong?
What kind of advice can you give to me? I feel stuck. I dont have many friends or family members, so I dont have anyone to talk to about my life. Whats my problem?
All I hear is You [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] ass b#tch Ill kick you out this f#ckin house. Stupid B#tch, Broke B#tchYou loser!....... Thats all I heard this morning from a person Im suppose to trust. Why does my mother act this way? Im sorry for using this vulgar language. I rarely curse.
Im 30 years old and a female. Im not married and I have no kids. Im attractive, in shape, and I take good care of my body. Im drug and alcohol free. Im very nice, intelligent, good morals, and values. I have a graduate degree, but I am unemployed and desperately seeking work. I live with my mother in a home that I helped pay for, the house is paid for and I spent my life savings to help her get the house this year. I gave her $20,000. I wish that I didnt give her my hard earned money, but I was trying to help. Ive helped her whole entire life. Ive taken care of her child, bought her groceries, clothes, gifts, Ive done all of her college assignments, research papers, etc. She tells people that I am very irresponsible and that I do nothing. But the fact is that Im extremely responsible, helpful, and resourceful to her. If I had a job, I probably would pay all of her bills.
I was a good kid and teenager. Never got into trouble. I wasnt allowed to play outside until I was 15! I had no freedom, and could only talk to kids at the Christian school that I attended. My father is a great person, but he couldnt take the negativity and arguing, so he left and has been estranged from her for 17 years. She talks bad about my father because he left her, and she tried to poison me against him. But I love my dad, and I returned to him because hes great and he loves me! My mother hates me for not turning on my dad. He always paid her a large sum of money in child support He went above and beyond to take care of me and my sister. My mother never had to work, and the bills were paid for until he got sick 2 years ago. She has only worked 2 years in her 54 years on earth. She always is bragging about how she achieved so much in life, and then says that I have nothing .no man, no job, no home ..She tells me that im a loser.
Sometimes my mother is nice and fun and I spent lots of time with her. I get fooled to believing that she is a good person. Then she unpredictably switches off and become cruel mean, and hateful. She tells me that Im not her daughter, that she cant stand me, she doesnt like me .She calls me names and tells me I look like a animal. Im 119 pounds and she calls me fat. When she is mad she teases me about my dark skin complexion and tells me Im burnt. Why does she say things like that? I think Im beautiful. Why would she want to lower myself esteem? Why is she so hostile, I havent done anything wrong?
Ive always tried to be her friend and to care for her. She has never dated after my father and doesnt have a social life. So I try to support her.
Ive never done anything to her; I am very respectful and nice to her. So about 2 times a month I spend a few hours crying. Im balling with tears right now. She hurts me badly when I least expect it. Then she turns around and becomes nice again. I fall for it every time. My dads sick and in hospital I feels so sad and sick and hopeless.
Sometimes I feel that my mother wants to get into a physical fight with me. Today I can tell that she wants to hit me because she threw sometime at me.
So I just search for jobs all day long, and pray that one day I can move to a peaceful environment that is free of harmful words, negativity, and hate. I know my life will be a better quality and more stable when Im free of her. One day I hope to be a mother .I will love my kids so much. Lots of hugs and kisses. I will drive them crazy from hugging them.
Im a Christian, Ive live my life the right way with good morals, good intentions, integrity. I have a relationship with God, talk to him all day long. What am I missing here? I am extremely strong and resilient. I dont understand why my life has been filled with so much turmoil. What am i doing wrong?
What kind of advice can you give to me? I feel stuck. I dont have many friends or family members, so I dont have anyone to talk to about my life. Whats my problem?
