Facing some upcoming trouble.....

[stacii]

So I found out today that I will be needing a C-section.

I am TERRIFIED of developing some sort of post partum depression or worsening OCD after the baby comes, and know that C-Section increases the risk. (the surgery itself doesn't scare me in the slightest) I'm sort of obsessing about it now, and it's freaking me out. Here is my though process.

I am at an increased risk for developing a post partum mood disorder.
I can't stop thinking about developing a post partum mood disorder.
Since I can't stop thinking about it, I am definitely going to get it.

This is so so dumb. I actually think that I am going to think myself into it. I have a great network of support from my family, friends and medical team, so even if I do get it, it's not like the world is over...I know that it's temporary and I know that it can be treated just like my depression and OCD have been treated in the past...but in my ridiculous little mind life as I know it is over. All I want to do is enjoy the last two weeks of my pregnancy and stop worrying about something I probably won't even get because I'm already being treated for it!

AHHH! This disorder is complete nonsense.

Whew - and to think when I started this thread all I wanted to do was ask people to pray for me...

I feel much much better after writing down all of those emotions...

 

[stacii]

PS - I have survived a high risk pregnancy that included hospitalization and strict bed rest without a hint of worsening depression/anxiety. Even those who aren't predisposed find themselves depressed when faced with that....so I really should have nothing at all to worry about...e

 

[hlu2]

You will be in my prayers. My God place a hedge of protection over you during this time.

 

[seajoy]

stacii, I found that after my pregnancy it was a little easier to handle my ocd. (I had not been diagnosed with ocd at that point). I did not have post-partum depression either.
That was about 23yrs ago. I can't believe I remember that far back.

 

[Jayangel81]

Im sorry you have to get this done.. personally i hate surgery, scared to death. I remember i went for eye surgery they tried to mask me and i freaked out lol (think i ended up kicking the docters and stuff)

I will keep you in my prayers

brother in Christ

 

[stacii]

Sea Joy - that's encouraging to hear. Everyone has been telling me that they think I'm going to be much better after the pregnancy too. I just need to stay calm...and I know that..sometimes it is easier said than done.