Extreme Struggle, Help Please

[gloriousday2006]

I could really use more prayers. I am dealing with intense religious OCD and severe depersonalization. Last night I looked in the mirror and didn't even feel like it was me and my arms didn't feel like mine either. Extreme emotion numbing.

I am in a battle in my mind frequently. When things get real bad I get more depersonalization. I want to serve the Lord Jesus Christ. I want honor and glorify Him in all that do.

Has anyone gotten to this state of depersonalization due to extreme OCD?

Please, please pray for me. Pray for strength. Pray for this to go away. Pray for a soft, compassionate heart that loves the way Christ loves. Please pray that I can be a worker bringing in His harvest. Please pray for healing.

Thank you guys in advance...it means so much.

 

[mozo41]

you can not flee what you can not see ...

 

[brinny]

Praying for you (((hug)))

 

[God is good]

I could really use more prayers. I am dealing with intense religious OCD and severe depersonalization. Last night I looked in the mirror and didn't even feel like it was me and my arms didn't feel like mine either. Extreme emotion numbing.

I am in a battle in my mind frequently. When things get real bad I get more depersonalization. I want to serve the Lord Jesus Christ. I want honor and glorify Him in all that day.

Has anyone gotten to this state of depersonalization due to extreme OCD?

Please, please pray for me. Pray for strength. Pray for this to go away. Pray for a soft, compassionate heart that loves the way Christ loves. Please pray that I can be a worker bringing in His harvest. Please pray for healing.

Thank you guys in advance...it means so much.

I want you to know that you're not alone and that God loves you. I am struggling too with this ocd but remember, God "will work all things good for those of us that love Him". You can message me anytime and I will try to help you. God loves us very much and Jesus is Lord.

 

[gloriousday2006]

I want you to know that you're not alone and that God loves you. I am struggling too with this ocd but remember, God "will work all things good for those of us that love Him". You can message me anytime and I will try to help you. God loves us very much and Jesus is Lord.

I really appreciate your post. It means so much...it helps tremendously to know that I am not alone. This is a tough battle. I know God is greater than all.

 

[God is good]

I really appreciate your post. It means so much...it helps tremendously to know that I am not alone. This is a tough battle. I know God is greater than all.

Your welcome, God is greater than everything and He loves you so much. Jesus loves you and I believe that Jesus Christ is our Lord and Savior and I believe that as long as we trust Him and God for our salvation and our lives, we will be okay. God loves you and have a good night and Jesus is Lord.

 

[Mari17]

I've forgotten, do you have a therapist? It sounds like you might need the help that one could provide. If not, do you know of strategies for overcoming depersonalization? I've never experienced depersonalization myself so I'm afraid I can't help much there. But if the root cause is anxiety, it seems like attacking the anxiety itself might be a good place to start. What are you doing to battle the OCD? Are you actively trying to fight it right now? Or is it controlling your mind?

 

[DeerGlow]

I could really use more prayers. I am dealing with intense religious OCD and severe depersonalization. Last night I looked in the mirror and didn't even feel like it was me and my arms didn't feel like mine either. Extreme emotion numbing.

I am in a battle in my mind frequently. When things get real bad I get more depersonalization. I want to serve the Lord Jesus Christ. I want honor and glorify Him in all that do.

Has anyone gotten to this state of depersonalization due to extreme OCD?

Please, please pray for me. Pray for strength. Pray for this to go away. Pray for a soft, compassionate heart that loves the way Christ loves. Please pray that I can be a worker bringing in His harvest. Please pray for healing.

Thank you guys in advance...it means so much.

 

[gloriousday2006]

I've forgotten, do you have a therapist? It sounds like you might need the help that one could provide. If not, do you know of strategies for overcoming depersonalization? I've never experienced depersonalization myself so I'm afraid I can't help much there. But if the root cause is anxiety, it seems like attacking the anxiety itself might be a good place to start. What are you doing to battle the OCD? Are you actively trying to fight it right now? Or is it controlling your mind?

I did, but I have stopped going. I thought it was getting better, but it seems to be back full force with horrible thoughts. I am trying to not let it consume me. It is very difficult with combination of the depersonalization and emotion numbing. I don't even feel like myself. I know we can overcome anything through Christ. Jesus is Lord.

 

[Catherineanne]

Lord, have mercy.

 

[gloriousday2006]

I get so scared when I can't feel emotions. It is like I have block on me. I usually feel everything. I do want to serve the Lord above all.

 

[Mari17]

I did, but I have stopped going. I thought it was getting better, but it seems to be back full force with horrible thoughts. I am trying to not let it consume me. It is very difficult with combination of the depersonalization and emotion numbing. I don't even feel like myself. I know we can overcome anything through Christ. Jesus is Lord.

What is your strategy for dealing with the horrible thoughts? Are you using ERP and/or ignoring them? My suggestion to you would be to actively fight these thoughts as OCD, and to focus on doing what you need to do to fight OCD, without focusing as much on what you feel/don't feel. I can basically only speak from my experience, but I know that when I'm in an obsession I have to only focus on the next step, what I need to do to fight OCD, because my mind is a jumbled mess and I can't see the truth about my situation. I have to keep allowing/ignoring the thoughts, without giving them any attention, trying to argue them away, etc. and force myself to go about my daily life even if I feel terrible. Basically, your brain WANTS you to react to the intrusive thoughts and to freak out about them, but if you can just push your way through them, over and over and over, it starts sending your brain the signal that you aren't going to be afraid of those thoughts, and your brain stops sending as many. It's weird how it works but OCD is kind of sneaky like that. It will only send us the horrible thoughts as long as it knows we are going to freak out about them. Once we stop being afraid, it stops sending the thoughts. Also, I know depersonalization is scary and like I said I can't speak from experience about it, but my guess is that once you are able to shift your focus from the intrusive thoughts/depersonalization, your emotions will naturally return to you. All you can do is be faithful in fighting OCD the way you know you need to. You really have no other choice. Keep making the healthy choices, the OCD-fighting choices, one after another after another, regardless of how you feel/don't feel. Keep living your life and making God-honoring choices with your life, regardless of how you feel/don't feel. And by all means, if you need to get medication and/or professional help again, do so. I know how horrible these struggles can be, so I pray that you will have the courage to fight victoriously and overcome this. Keep reaching out for help and encouragement as needed!

 

[teresa]

Most definitely, try and see if one of the chaplians is available to talk with you privately as well as get some counsel and prayer here at cf.

 

[lamb7]

I could really use more prayers. I am dealing with intense religious OCD and severe depersonalization. Last night I looked in the mirror and didn't even feel like it was me and my arms didn't feel like mine either. Extreme emotion numbing.

I am in a battle in my mind frequently. When things get real bad I get more depersonalization. I want to serve the Lord Jesus Christ. I want honor and glorify Him in all that do.

Has anyone gotten to this state of depersonalization due to extreme OCD?

Please, please pray for me. Pray for strength. Pray for this to go away. Pray for a soft, compassionate heart that loves the way Christ loves. Please pray that I can be a worker bringing in His harvest. Please pray for healing.

Thank you guys in advance...it means so much.

YES it is the worst! Praying for you friend! I hate HATE the depersonalization that comes with this. You are not alone. It will wax ans wane, be better some days or worse others. Feel free to convo me anytime ♡ I dont come on all the time so if I ever dont answer do not worry.

 

[David1987]

I could really use more prayers. I am dealing with intense religious OCD and severe depersonalization. Last night I looked in the mirror and didn't even feel like it was me and my arms didn't feel like mine either. Extreme emotion numbing.

I am in a battle in my mind frequently. When things get real bad I get more depersonalization. I want to serve the Lord Jesus Christ. I want honor and glorify Him in all that do.

Has anyone gotten to this state of depersonalization due to extreme OCD?

Please, please pray for me. Pray for strength. Pray for this to go away. Pray for a soft, compassionate heart that loves the way Christ loves. Please pray that I can be a worker bringing in His harvest. Please pray for healing.

Thank you guys in advance...it means so much.

I just prayed for you as well glorious...