Eventuality

[Umber]

I'm doing it again tomorrow, because the longer I go the worse I feel. it's been about 2 months.
Thang is, I am running out of space, and apparantly cutting over past scars is a bad thing to do.
Also it no longer hurts. Not sure if it is nerve damage or de-sensetivity. I dissasociate when I cut now.

Eurgh. Why do I need to say this? ¬_¬

 

[HolyOne87]

Maybe you need something more than just stopping altogether. Maybe some sort of medication, just to get rid of that feeling of pain when you dont cut for long periods of time. Thats not good that you have so many scars. I bet you are a wonderful and wise person.
I shall pray to God that you will heal and that God will be there through those times when you dont cut and feel bad.May God bring you happiness during those sorrowful times.
It will take time, but I have faith that you can heal.

 

[berry2000]

Umber it's okay to talk about your struggles. In fact it is the first step towards making positive change. I know how you feel planning when you are going to do it so that it doesn't build up for too long. 2 months is a long time. That is something to be proud of. Seems like you cut a little like I used to...well planned in advance not too spontanteous. I read that means when you are ready it might be easier for you to cut because you already show a lot of self control (not as impulsive as some others are). Probably it is not nerve damage but desensitivity AND well sometimes if you dissociate you don't feel anything anyway.

Are you in counseling? Is there any trusted adult you could confide it. ONce you break the silence in real life then you don't have to battle self harm alone. Everybody who self harms needs real life support of one sort or another.

Praying for you friend.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Hey Umber
I know I PMed you earlier, but how's everything going today?