empty and numb

[kicker]

Hey everyone, hope yall are doing good. I am very anxious right now because I am so numb towards everything. I feel nothing of the HS in my life. There is nothing but a miserable feeling that I am rejecting the only one who can bring joy. I envy others who have joy. I have asked Christ to save me hundreds (maybe thousands) of times yet I still feel like I'm on the outside looking in. I feel faithless most of the time as if I really don't want God but yet I constantly cry to Him wanting Him to help me. How can I be sure I am saved when I feel like I am tired of God and all this stuff. I'm just plain miserable and scared that I can't ever be saved and happy

 

[visionary]

Put your finger on Rev 3:20 and ask for a personal audience with Him. Then study scripture to prepare yourself to meet Him. Find out how other in scripture met Him, what did they see, what did they feel, what did they hear, and what did God say to them. Have one goal in mind... Meeting Him. Prayerfully ask Him to lead you in this study... just you and Him... have a scribbler handy, the bible and a concordance.. .and do some serious one on one study on how to seek Him... Seek ye first the Kingdom of God,... seek and ye shall find... search and ask and it shall be given you. study to show one's approved... repent for the kingdom of God is at hand.

 

[Jayangel81]

Hey everyone, hope yall are doing good. I am very anxious right now because I am so numb towards everything. I feel nothing of the HS in my life. There is nothing but a miserable feeling that I am rejecting the only one who can bring joy. I envy others who have joy. I have asked Christ to save me hundreds (maybe thousands) of times yet I still feel like I'm on the outside looking in. I feel faithless most of the time as if I really don't want God but yet I constantly cry to Him wanting Him to help me. How can I be sure I am saved when I feel like I am tired of God and all this stuff. I'm just plain miserable and scared that I can't ever be saved and happy

Why do you listen to your feelings. We need to stop looking for God inside our feelings and look for Him in HIS WORD

How can I be sure I am saved when I feel like I am tired of God and all this stuff.

You will never be sure if you are saved if you continue to base your desires,relationship with Christ and salvation according to your feelings.

I cannot stress this enough, you will never.

But you can be sure if you trust in His Word

How has your bible time with God been as of late kicker?

 

[kicker]

I haven't spent much time in it lately. I spend just enough to be able to preach a message and sometimes not enough to do that. I am being tormented with thoughts and feelings that I don't believe what I preach. I am trying to make myself believe more or better but I know I can't do that, it has to come from God. How do I make myself trust Him when all I do is doubt. I believe the Bible but its as if my heart is turned off to it for some reason. I fear that maybe I'm giving up on believing and having faith but yet I want it because I will never be happy without Christ.

 

[RobertZ]

Why was my post here deleted?

 

[Everlasting33]

I think I may have suggested this book earlier but it has really encouraged growth with my OCD tendencies and my judgmental side. It really empathizes letting go of the inner critic.

"Soul without Shame"

http://www.amazon.com/Soul-without-...bs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1235859584&sr=8-1

 

[Jayangel81]

Why was my post here deleted?

I will send you a PM one sec. (no i didnt delete it)

 

[Jayangel81]

I haven't spent much time in it lately. I spend just enough to be able to preach a message and sometimes not enough to do that.

Kicker you need to get a foundation in God's Word. You have to. There is no exception

How are you to bring the darkness to Light if you are not equipped?

How will you wear the Armor of God if you do not put it on?

We spoke about being in God's Word, please, I urge you brother pick up your bible and read it with the LORD.

I am trying to make myself believe more or better but I know I can't do that, it has to come from God. How do I make myself trust Him when all I do is doubt.

Get rooted in His Word You need DEEP roots, not ones that will be burnt up.

I believe the Bible but its as if my heart is turned off to it for some reason. I fear that maybe I'm giving up on believing and having faith but yet I want it because I will never be happy without Christ.

But you have to understand that God wants you to spend time with Him and His Words as well as pray for the saints (we are saints) REGUARDLESS of our feelings and motivations. Let God handle that, He made the heart, He knows how to change it.

Believe that He can and will.

 

[pjspara]

kicker,

i suggest going to get the book How He loves ME by wayne jacobson... or get the audio version ,, i listen to it in my car.... i think it will help you , it has me....or the Jesus i never knew by phillip Yancey is good too.... or the ragamuffin gospel by brennan manning.... im just saying i KNOW how you feel and i have listened to these in my car w while driving and praying, .... i think they would help youo.. and of course as jayangel says.... spending more time in the wORD... but these audio books really heped me see another side of JEsus that i didnt grow up with.....another one when i doubt my beliefs is the case for christ by lee strobel... you may have read all these but they are awesome.... since reading my study bible alot more, and listening to these books on tape, i have much less doubt and feel i have moved forward some in my understanding..... im not there, dont now if i ever will be 100% there, but i will not ever give up......and i pray you dont either.....


pj