Emotional support...

[standingby]

Hi, I just joined this forum, so I am new here.

I have a problem with depression!  Most of my life I have had a real self-esteem problem (I was sexually molested as a child, had a very controlling mother, and a 27 year marriage where I was treated like a doormat and then 'tossed out' like garbage). 

After my divorce, I went into a severe depression and basically wanted to 'get it over with' because I felt 'worthless'.  I have went through thearpy, taken medications, etc. and still wake up some days so depressed that I cannot hardly function.  This has caused physical problems that hinder me from living life the way I really want to. 

I have been trying to find Christian friends who will encourage me and 'lift me up' in prayer during these stressful times.  Life is hard enough without this burden.

I love to study the Bible, indepth, to discover the many treasures that are hidden within it.  I love the Lord with all my heart, soul, and mind...but I can't 'get out' and fellowship with others at this time in my life which is a real bummer.

Anyway, I just want to say "Hi!"...

 

 

 

[standingby]

'Hi' was not all I needed to say. I cannot overcome this 'feeling' of 'hopelessness'...I feel a desperate anxiety that something is 'wrong'...I have been praying...and crying...and I need prayers from others. I 'feel' so out of place and lonely...I don't know what to do but ask for prayer. I'm sorry.....

 

[GodOwnsMe]

hey welcome to the boards !!
eh I dunno how often I've been posting this on here but it's still a huge encouragement to me.... last time I was at this cool youth-service they suggested that if you doubt God loves you read uh Romans 8/31 and the following everyday/morning (wow gotta do that again !! ) well I got this one in my bible & it's awesome 2

God has positive answers for all the negative things we say to ourselves.
You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)
You say:"I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say:"Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 13:34)
You say: " I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II.Corinthians 12:9 & Psalms 91:15)
You say:"I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:6)
You say: " I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (Phillipians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: " Its not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Romans 8:28)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I FORGIVE YOU (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't make it"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Phillipians 4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear(II Timothy 1:7)
You say: " I am always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
You say: "I don't have enough faith"
God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith (Romans 12:3)
You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom (I. Corinthians 1:30)
You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

I sometimes wake up feeling pretty blah aswell.... what I used to do sometimes was getting some cool worship CD, jumping out of the bed & start dancing. I know you don't always feel like that but mhh it's good

keep trusting & God Bless you sista
Karen

 

[GodOwnsMe]

aww I'll be praying for ya !!

 

[GodOwnsMe]

lol I just copied your avatar sorry

 

[Mr.Cheese]

*hug*
nice to have you!
There's lots of cool people here.
You're not alone with depression. A lot of us struggle with it as well.

 

[LittleLauraLost]

Hi, welcome to the forum you will find lots of support here. I suffered from very severe depression for years and have felt and gone through all of the things you have except divorce. It was awful and so I really feel for you. Are you living on your own? Is it because of the anxiety that you can't get out? I know how alone you must feel, try to remember Jesus is with you let him hold you. You will come through this I thought I never would but I have been free of the depression for 6 months now but I still have to take antidepressants and Lithium for at least another year.
It took a long time to get the way you are and so it figures it will take a while for you to mend.
I'll tell you from my story it will either encourage you or get on your nerves.
I was sexually abused as a child it tormented me and pictures flashed into my head especially when my depression was bad.
My Mother was controlling until recently. I had a few disasterous friendships during my illness which ended in tears mainly because of peoples ignorance of depression. I was made to feel useless because I wasn't clever at school and left without any qualifications. I had such a low opinion of myself I had no self esteem at all. When I got really desperate I self-harmed or attempted suicide.

All through my illness God was with me I took comfort from knowing that I wondered why he didn't heal me.
My favourite Bible verse is Romans 8:28 and I clung to that all the way through because God worked for good because today I am confident, I know I am a worthwhile person. I have studied at college and now at 50 I am at university studying for a degree. An even bigger achievement I have forgiven my abuser, something I thought I'd never do bur it has made such a difference. My Mum is now my best friend and I see the way she is in a different light. I know I am not useless and I have come out of the depression a richer person.

I hope I haven't waffled too much but this will happen to you in time let God guide you give it all to him. That's a big hug to say I am here for you I am praying for you. Hang in there, just by getting thoughts down in print it can help, I don't know if you've found that.

Another verse I found helpful is Isaiah 41;10.
God Bless You,
I shall be praying for you,
Love Laura.

 

[LittleLauraLost]

Hi, welcome to the forum you will find lots of support here. I suffered from very severe depression for years and have felt and gone through all of the things you have except divorce. It was awful and so I really feel for you. Are you living on your own? Is it because of the anxiety that you can't get out? I know how alone you must feel, try to remember Jesus is with you let him hold you. You will come through this I thought I never would but I have been free of the depression for 6 months now but I still have to take antidepressants and Lithium for at least another year.
It took a long time to get the way you are and so it figures it will take a while for you to mend.
I'll tell you from my story it will either encourage you or get on your nerves.
I was sexually abused as a child it tormented me and pictures flashed into my head especially when my depression was bad.
My Mother was controlling until recently. I had a few disasterous friendships during my illness which ended in tears mainly because of peoples ignorance of depression. I was made to feel useless because I wasn't clever at school and left without any qualifications. I had such a low opinion of myself I had no self esteem at all. When I got really desperate I self-harmed or attempted suicide.

All through my illness God was with me I took comfort from knowing that I wondered why he didn't heal me.
My favourite Bible verse is Romans 8:28 and I clung to that all the way through because God worked for good because today I am confident, I know I am a worthwhile person. I have studied at college and now at 50 I am at university studying for a degree. An even bigger achievement I have forgiven my abuser, something I thought I'd never do bur it has made such a difference. My Mum is now my best friend and I see the way she is in a different light. I know I am not useless and I have come out of the depression a richer person.

I hope I haven't waffled too much but this will happen to you in time let God guide you give it all to him. That's a big hug to say I am here for you I am praying for you. Hang in there, just by getting thoughts down in print it can help, I don't know if you've found that.

Another verse I found helpful is Isaiah 41;10.
God Bless You,
I shall be praying for you,
Love Laura.

 

[LittleLauraLost]

WHOOPS! SORRY

Laura

 

[Hopeful]

hehe

hi standingby

 

[OracleX]

Welcome to CF!

You will find many here will to pray for you. I will pray for you too.

 

[standingby]

I hope you all know 'how much' I appreciate your support.

Yes it did help to talk it out. I appreciate your love and prayers.

I feel so much better this evening. Sometimes I think the devil just watches for me to start feeling happy and then Zap.......Maybe I need to start praying when I get happy for the Lord to protect me from these attacks!!! (smiling now)

 

[Mr.Cheese]

I live to see a smile on the face of my sisters.

 

[LittleLauraLost]

Hi, I feel so happy that you are feeling better keep on talking when you need to. The devil has a great time when we are in despair but he must be so mad
when we get support and prayer and we pick up enough to defeat him.
I praise God that you got the support you needed. I'm still praying for you.
God Bless you,
Love Laura

 

[Smilin]

Greetings Standingby;
And welcome to the forum..
You have my prayers....

 

[pinPoint]

God is there watching over there. Look I'll be honest. You just can't seat there and let the stuff eat you up. Get up and start walking!!!! Get up each morning, read bible, pray, and do something fun everyday. Go to the mall, ride bikes, walk, play with kids, something to get you going. Forgive all who have wronged you and forget about what they did to you because if you rethink about it then depression follows you. YOU HAVE TO FIGHT! quoting from what you said, ~~"but I can't 'get out' and fellowship with others at this time in my life which is a real bummer."~~ <<<=== this might actually get you going. Having friends, going to fellowship, hanging out and doing christian related things. please, Im sure you can try harder than that. If you're still alive then their is still that fire lite in your heart. Turn it into a wildfire! Let it burn! Sing out loud! -- dont care if you're neighbors think you're nuts. , go get the whole collection of veggie tales and watch it -- that will get a laugh out, run to relieve yourself, and to tell you the truth... you don't need therapy, medication, or whatever that stuff the society tells you. Run to Jesus and He will get you going. pray.. pray.. and more praying, go to the malls, walk by kids stores and check out stuff, go the park, take a bus, meet ppl and mingle a little and soon enough you'll forget everything about depression. Thats just my thoughts. i'll be praying for you and everyone in CF or in the world. Good Day.

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[standingby]

I really do appreciate the advice, concern and prayers of everyone.&nbsp;&nbsp; But, I am just in a position where I seriously don't know what to do....

I have absolutely nothing...except a few pieces of furniture, etc.

I have no home, no car, no job, and no money...

I was really trying to get my life together after my divorce and breakdown.&nbsp; I got an apartment, job and car, and everything was going ok until I hurt my back.&nbsp; Needless to say, I lost my job, then my apartment, then the trans went out in the car...so now no car and no money to fix it.&nbsp;&nbsp;

I am currently living with my son and his family, but since he has been deployed, his wife and their children are going to be moving in with her mother and father until he gets back.&nbsp;

This leaves me in a real bind because I have no where that I can go.&nbsp; Most of my family does not have room for me, and I would feel really 'in the way' if I were to move in with any of them.&nbsp; They are struggling with their own life and problems anyway, they do not need an extra 'burden'.

I try not to 'feel sorry for myself' and really try to 'think' and consider options, but I just don't know where to go; where to even start.

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[Didymus]

when you say family do you mean children or siblings ? maybe you should just go to one of them and say i need a place to stay until i get on my feet how about it ? and go to each one. They may not be aware of the situation.
and dont think of yourself as a burden. you might be just what they need. maybe you could help with the keds while they work so they wouldn t have to pay child care ?

 

[standingby]

That is the reason that I am living with my son at the moment...to help!
But situations and circumstances have changed...

My family and friends know about my situation, and although they do offer a place to stay (on the couch for a while), they are struggling with their own difficulties. Many of them do not 'need' my help.

I am not really saying (well, maybe it did sound like it) that no one cares...because they do! They are just not in a position to offer much more than love (which I think means a lot!).

I know that the Lord will see me through...He always has! I am just stressing on my situation right now.

 

[GodOwnsMe]

God's right at time, keep trusting & as hard as it is, God has it hands open for your sorrows all the time .. !! God Bless you sis