Ok from the time i was 16 to 18 i had a really extreme eating disorder, i'm not sure if i was considered bullemic or anorexic because i would eat sometimes, but it would only be like a couple of crackers and then i'd do about 500 crunches and go and throw them up. I met someone at 18 and he helped me along with God of course to stop. We got married when i was 19 and when i was 20 we had a daughter. While i was pregnant i got toxemia and gained over 100 lbs, and have had a very hard time losing it. Here recently i have been very tempted to start making mayself vomit again, and have actually on occasion. I've been losing weight on my own by drinking nothing but water, exsercizing, and eating healthy. I'm about 2-3 sizes away from my target size. I don't go by weight, because instead of living on the scale i'm terrified of the scale. Anyhow i guess what i'm trying to say in all of this is to just pray for me that God gives me the strength not to "cheat", and continue to lose weight in a healthy way even though it may take longer. Thnx for letting me vent and God bless everyone.