I'm feeling as spiritually dry as an old dessicated leaf that falls apart at the lightest touch.
The past 2 years have been one continuous trial since losing my 30 year graphic design career. (Now I'm doing straight commission roof sales - of all things - which is weirder than I know how to deal with and I'm lousy at it.) Today I have only 15 dollars that I will have to put in my gas tank tomorrow so that I can try to find a roof to sell. No gas means no work. No money means no food. Worse yet, and I wonder if anyone else has ever felt this way, I even wish I had the $68 tithe back that I gave God last Sunday (that is just so, so wrong) ... last Sunday I had no idea I was going to run out of money this badly.
I spent gas money I didn't have to travel to Scottsbluff Nebraska for the company I work for this past Tues and Weds in the hopes of making a living -- and sold nothing. While there, I wanted to try and find some church services to attend at night and every evening service I hoped to go to was either canceled for the summer or postponed. Evening Bible studies were also canceled. So I didn't have any chance at all to try to find the spiritual refreshment I so desperately need.
I'm tired. I'm broke. I'm spiritually empty. What happened to "hope and a future?"
Janet
The past 2 years have been one continuous trial since losing my 30 year graphic design career. (Now I'm doing straight commission roof sales - of all things - which is weirder than I know how to deal with and I'm lousy at it.) Today I have only 15 dollars that I will have to put in my gas tank tomorrow so that I can try to find a roof to sell. No gas means no work. No money means no food. Worse yet, and I wonder if anyone else has ever felt this way, I even wish I had the $68 tithe back that I gave God last Sunday (that is just so, so wrong) ... last Sunday I had no idea I was going to run out of money this badly.
I spent gas money I didn't have to travel to Scottsbluff Nebraska for the company I work for this past Tues and Weds in the hopes of making a living -- and sold nothing. While there, I wanted to try and find some church services to attend at night and every evening service I hoped to go to was either canceled for the summer or postponed. Evening Bible studies were also canceled. So I didn't have any chance at all to try to find the spiritual refreshment I so desperately need.
I'm tired. I'm broke. I'm spiritually empty. What happened to "hope and a future?"
Janet
