Don't know

[dabro]

ok, I really don't know if my diagnoses is right. I have ups and downs but there mostly caused by either taking too much gabapentin or getting ahold on pragabalin and I get euphoric. Many ppl do, but, for me it lifts the depression that I have. I have been in the depression hole for four and half years. Mostly my problem is drug addiction. I had a meth induced psychosis back in 05 and instead of going into remission when I quit it kept going. For seven months I was psychotic.



Now usually when you quit it stops so that maybe a indication that I have a underlining condition. In 08 I had a massive bout with OCD. PURE O type. I feared a lot of things but what got me was I thought I was at Gods judgment and I was about to be sent to hell. This all came out after I smoked some weed. I know I have PTSD and the nightmares are beyond scary. There is nothing for that.




Now on to the addiction part. I believe most of my problems are because I don't take the gabapentin right. I make myself manic than I have a deep lo and I mean low. I am going to talk to the doc about Prozac but I'm afraid to bring up the gabapentin because I love the high I get from it. I mistakenly found out that it could help withdrawals from Xanax and klonopin. I'm on klonopin and have been for six years. For the life of me I know I'm up and down. I don't know if I have true BP. I KNOW that I suffer a great and deep sadness. Not because I abuse meds but the chemical imbalance in my head.




I know getting off gabapentin is the answer, but I don't want to. Is their anyone here ho is in the same situation as I am?

 

[LaSorcia]

Oh dear. I saw this after I already answered another of your threads. I pray that God continues to deliver you from this maze of addiction. He got you off your main drug. You have already done the most difficult part. Don't get stuck here, you can do it with his help! God is easy on us, and he will help you get over your addictions at a speed he knows you can handle. As long as you keep listening to his guidance, making sure you do what the Holy Spirit advises you, even if it feels scary. I know it looks as if you are giving up a crutch, but you are really actually just giving up poison.