Dont know what to do think or feel

[Jclovesu]

I dont know, I feel like I'm at the
end of a very very thin peice of thread.
I guess I'm just sick of being treated by certain
people like as If I cant think for myself being treated like I'm stupid.
I'm sick of being told Im a hydrocondriac ( person who thinks they get sick with everything) I've just started my senior years of school, stress and other things are causing me to be sick, and I just want peace of mind.
I'm sick of looking in the mirror and seeing something Ugly staring back at me, I'm tired of being lonley, I hate the fact that I have aquaintences and no "real" friends.
I feel like I cant trust ANYONE EVER, I mean I know I can trust God I just never get to talk to him.
I just want to end it all but I know I cant, and its the worst feeling wanting to but knowing you cant, its like being torn on each arm
I guess Im sort of venting and I didn't know where else to do it...
thanks...

'Jc

 

[Battle Maiden]

I dont know, I feel like I'm at the
end of a very very thin peice of thread.
I guess I'm just sick of being treated by certain
people like as If I cant think for myself being treated like I'm stupid.
I'm sick of being told Im a hydrocondriac ( person who thinks they get sick with everything) I've just started my senior years of school, stress and other things are causing me to be sick, and I just want peace of mind.
I'm sick of looking in the mirror and seeing something Ugly staring back at me, I'm tired of being lonley, I hate the fact that I have aquaintences and no "real" friends.
I feel like I cant trust ANYONE EVER, I mean I know I can trust God I just never get to talk to him.
I just want to end it all but I know I cant, and its the worst feeling wanting to but knowing you cant, its like being torn on each arm
I guess Im sort of venting and I didn't know where else to do it...
thanks...

'Jc

Hi there sweetheart, you a beautiful, you are Gods creation, you are wounderfully and fearfully made. The Lord loves you and he will not leave or forsake you. I know it is hard , when you don't feel that you fit in, But you do fit in, for God has a plan for you, it's to give you a hope and a future. I don't know if you go to church, if you do, and they have a youth group join it and get in involved, it will help to build your confiedence and help you to get deeper into God. I will pray for you.

Lord I lift up Jclovesu to you and ask Lord that you will open her eyes to you. Lord I ask for more of ypur grace and love to come upon her. Lord show her that you are her fortress and her strong tower, You are her defender and shield, bring your peace Lord let it flow like a river. I pray for a hedge of protection around her, protect her mind, body and spirit. Bring joy into her heart Lord, show that your love for her is unconditional, I thank you Lord that your hand is upon her and you are holding her up.

Battle Maiden

 

[jacquidube]

Jclovesu. Oh my word sweetheart. I do feel for you. How can you look in the mirror and see something ugly. You know in life we start to believe what others say to us and day by day we live like how people see us. All my life I have felt ugly and I still think I am and I know that isnt from the Lord. People used to tell me these things and ME....Yes, I had to listen to them because they were my friends .... yawn....lol.

I think you are very very pretty and if I think that, can you imagine what the Lord can see. He sees things that we cant. You are very beautiful in His eyes.
You are being attacked. Satan is so jealous of you. You know God, and he hasnt got a chance like you. Your going to live forever and be happy with God in your life.
Your friends will come and go just like everything else in this world.
Lord i pray for the stress that jclovesu is experiencing right now in her life. I ask in your Precious sons name Jesus Christ that you will remove this from her life. In jesus name, Amen.

Just believe and it will happen. Dont have any doubts about what Jesus can do for you.

You are in my thoughts today and I will be checking to see how you are. We all love you, you know .......

 

[Jclovesu]

Thanks everyone, I just dont know what to say at the momment really, I'm just drained.
Yes I do goto church, & as for the youth group, I'm trying to sort stuff out with that.
Thanks again.
'Jc

 

[newbeliever02072005]

(((( HUG ))))

My heart goes out to you and I pray that the Lord will place you in situations that will help you grow in understanding and wisdom about who you are and what God wants for you in this lifetime. God has a plan for you and a purpose , otherwise you wouldn't be here.

I know that you are reaching out there online and that is wonderful. You have found a support system that you feel comfortable with. Praying that you can do the same in your life offline. Seek courage from God to trust someone that can help you. Push through those feelings of fear of vulnerability. Its hard , but it can be done. Your faithfulness to God will prevail and carry you through.

Trust in Him JC
Newbeliever

 

[Jclovesu]

 

[Airline]

You need to start fighting your negative thoughts. What you need to do is write down every negative thought you have about yourself and then rewrite them in the possitive eg I think Im ugly to I know Im beautiful,
The more you repeat these in a possitive evry day 20 plus times a day the more you will believe you are stronger than you are.
I can speak from experience that this really works in changing the way you think about yourself.
Thoughts are the biggest killer of self esteem, whether from others or yourself, you need to make the change for you to win this battle.
God doesnt make junk, so you are perfect in His eyes and thats all that matters, choose not to take others or your put downs anymore.

Sorry to but you need to know you are beautiful and have a purpose in life, and going through this tough time will be your strenghtening time so you can help others one day.

 

[covenantwmn]

Father, I pray that You will fill Jclovesu with hope and encouragement. I pray that Your Holy Spirit will be a filter for her, that You will help her to see things as You see them. I pray that You would give her a hunger for Your Word and Your people, that she would not feel so alone. I ask that You surround her with Your peace that passes understanding. Thank You LORD for ministering to each heart exactly what we need, in Jesus' name, amen.
in Him, Leslie

 

[youthwalk]

praying for you sister

 

[TexasSky]

Dear angel,

I am so very sorry that you are going through such a difficult time, and that you feel so lonely.

If people are trying to make you feel stupid, odds are very high they are feeling worse about themselves than you feel about yourself. People who tear others down do so because they feel they are too small to pull themselves up to another's level.

It doesn't help much to know that, but its true.

Do me a favor hon. Tomorrow when you go to school, look around the classrooms and see if you can find the "loners" and "shy people" and "quiet people" who the "in-crowd" push aside.

Walk up to that person, say hello, ask them about something they are reading or listening to or compliment what they are wearing. Buy a coke for them.

Some of the best friends I ever made in school were the kids who no one else ever talked to. Kids who felt like you feel, and were afraid they were the only ones. Kids terrified of reaching out for fear of being slapped down.

I also hope that you will find an adult, like your Pastor or a school counselor, and talk to them about what you are feeling. Depression can do terrible things to you, and it can cause someone like Marilyn Monroe to look in a mirror and say, "I'm ugly," while the whole world of her day was talking about beautiful she was.

You're right that being stressed can make you ill. Most of the time when people call someone else a hypocondriac it is not really that they think the person is faking illness, it is that they are trying to say, "I want to be around cheerful, not sad." So with those people you might try sharing the positive things in life, like what a beautiful sunrise it is, instead of the painful things like the stuffy nose.

You also might want to pamper yourself just a little. Get a facial. (A lot of them are free if you can find a Mary Kay rep or someone like that.) Take a leisurely walk somewhere. Get your favorite soda, candy, music and book and just relax in bed.

Most of all - hang in there.

 

[Bro_Sam]

Praying for you.

 

[c1ners]

Praying for you sweetie.

I love your freckles. My first husband had freckles like that. I thought he was the best looking man that ever existed on this earth.

Don't listen to people who put you down and call you stupid. Normally when people do this, they are just jealous of something about you that they wish they had.
People are not very nice sometimes. Try praying for them. It's hard when you just want to slap them, but praying for them really helps.

You just keep being you! God created you for a reason, and that makes you a very beautiful, wonderful, smart, and loved young woman. Satan uses people to bring us down all the time. Don't let him win. Lift your chin up and tell him that you are Gods child, and worthy of everything.

God Bless you sweetie.

 

[iwillfollow]

praying

 

[hypostatic]

Praying!

 

[Jclovesu]

Thanks everyone, Ill take your advice.
I know, and as for the freckles I hate them sorry Im sick of seeing them.
But I guess I'm over that, that used to be a big issue but not so much anymore, thanks for praying everyone.

'Jc

 

[rhinorick]

Jclovesu, everyone above has offered lots of love and wisdom, and I could not agree more.

God loves you, even when all around you seems hopeless and uncaring.

I wrote a poem a while back that I hope will serve to encourage you.

Here it is:


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The waves grew up around me;

The fierce winds blew me down.

There was no land that I could see;

I knew that I would drown.


- - - - -


My flimsy little life raft

Just barely stayed afloat.

I thought it was a faithful craft,

So in it I placed my hope.


- - - - -


But now the storm was raging;

The waves were rising high.

My trusted boat was sinking...

Surely I would die.


- - - - -


But then I heard a peaceful voice.

It said to look to Him.

He told me that it was my choice...

I could either sink or swim.


- - - - -


And when I looked unto the Lord,

He brought me safely through.

Though all around me was the storm,

His words of peace were true.


- - - - -


The storms of life that come along,

Can lead to doubt and sin,

And if our focal point is wrong,

Then we will never win.

- - - - -

But if our focus always stays

Upon our precious Lord,

Then He will always show the way...

On that, we have His Word.


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Poems of Praise and Perseverance

Vol. II

© copyright by Rick Ellinger


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I am praying for you jc.

 

[tapero]

Dear Lord, I pray for JC. So many go thru stress at that age and have physical symptoms and no one believes them. Please provide her with a good doctor that treats her properly and with respect. I pray that she just treasure things in her heart about you and about herself so that she would be strong in you. I thank you that she is strong enough not to end it, and pray that she would be able to help others that are down like that and share her will and desire to live with others. I pray she treasure the beauty you've given her. Help her to see herself through your eyes. In Jesus name I pray. Amen

 

[rhinorick]

JC, I forgot to mention one thing ...

Remember that in all things, God is with you, as my poem above explains, working in and through and for you.

"You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you".

You can face all things and stand up against the enemy's attacks.

Just say and believe, "I Can In Christ!!"

 

[heffalump_hunter]

I dont know, I feel like I'm at the
end of a very very thin peice of thread.
I guess I'm just sick of being treated by certain
people like as If I cant think for myself being treated like I'm stupid.
I'm sick of being told Im a hydrocondriac ( person who thinks they get sick with everything) I've just started my senior years of school, stress and other things are causing me to be sick, and I just want peace of mind.
I'm sick of looking in the mirror and seeing something Ugly staring back at me, I'm tired of being lonley, I hate the fact that I have aquaintences and no "real" friends.
I feel like I cant trust ANYONE EVER, I mean I know I can trust God I just never get to talk to him.
I just want to end it all but I know I cant, and its the worst feeling wanting to but knowing you cant, its like being torn on each arm
I guess Im sort of venting and I didn't know where else to do it...
thanks...

'Jc

Dearest Sister,

Let me first just say that I've been where you are. I don't want to go into my own life unless it helps you, but I want you to know that I truly understand.

If there is anyone we can trust in this world it is our Lord Jesus.

I am constantly reminded of Jesus' words in Matthew 11:28-30

[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]28 "Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, because I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."[/FONT]

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Jesus desires to make our yoke lighter. To carry our burdens and if necessary to carry us. He truly is our rock and our refuge. We must simply seek Him and talk to Him. Cast all your cares and worries upon Him. He will never let you down, because He loves you!

For what it is worth dear sister, I looked at your picture in your profile and I see a lovely young woman. I will pray for you and I will pray also that you will see the lovely woman within yourself. When you see your loveliness from within, then you will see your loveliness without. May our Lord and Savour bless you and keep you.
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[heffalump_hunter]

Thanks everyone, Ill take your advice.
I know, and as for the freckles I hate them sorry Im sick of seeing them.
But I guess I'm over that, that used to be a big issue but not so much anymore, thanks for praying everyone.

'Jc

I'm a married middle aged man, so I'm not sure if this is appropriate or not, but please keep in mind that I say these things with truth in my heart. You are a beautiful young woman and personally I think freckles are altogether lovely.