Doesn't know where to start

[Miss Sera]

I feel like I've been angry for years. I was angry at everyone. I even became angry with God. I turned my back on him and tried to bary myself in Wicca. But I was lying to myself. I can't believe in the Lord and the Lady. Spirit doesn't seem real to me. I tried to deny it because I felt that if I let myself become a Christian I would be just like everyone else. I realized I couldn't keep doing this anymore, when my friend, a devoted Baptist, decided to blame her weaknesses on me, and the second being I got angry with was God. I realized that I had gotten into the habit of blaming God for everything that goes wrong, because I couldn't accept that it was meant to happen. I didn't understand.

The point of me starting this thread is to ask if someone can tell me how I can ever get back with God, because I'm tired of fighting him. And I kind of like the idea that someone will love me unconditionally.

 

[The_Lords_Froggy]

I don't exactly know that answer, but do know and be comforted that God loves His creations, but we make the choice whether to follow Him and accept Jesus as our Lord and Savior or not. I felt compelled to answer here, and just tell you that I love you and I'm praying for you. God bless you.

 

[cleft_for_me]

Hi Miss Sera.

Wow. If there's one thing I'm impressed with at this site, it's honesty shining through messages.

I don't know your situation Miss Sera. I'm a young person and I don't have a lot of knowlege, but I'll tell ya what I do know: I can humbly give you advice that I know would help me.. because I've kinda been there.

You want to know where to start, but you know what? It sounds like you are already there: Use your honesty with God. You probably already have-- and keep it up. You might already know that God did not create you to be religious (in the sense merely of 'deeds'). He created you to relate to Him. He wants a relationship with you. But no one can have a real relationship with someone unless there is honesty. If you are angry with Him, tell Him. If you are frustrated, tell Him. I have heard other testimonies that say the same thing: spill your heart out to the One Who already knows you anyway.

Honesty is where a real relationship begins.

Wish I could write more... gotta go to work!

My thoughts are with you.
cleft_for_me

 

[Qyöt27]

God offers forgiveness to anyone who honestly, truly repents and asks for it, even though in this case it's more like saying, "I understand that I need You; please comfort me and help me come to You again." The problem is really not so much if God can forgive, more than it being a matter of you being able to forgive yourself and getting past the things that you think have damaged the relationship you have with Him. Find some people to talk with to let you release some of that tension and anger in a constructive way, so that it's not weighing you down anymore, and find those that can support you along the way as you come back to God.

At one time, I felt I'd drifted so far away that it was impossible to even see myself the way I'd been before (and really, I still can't; I've become a totally different person because of those experiences, for better or worse as that may seem). I'd become tired of just doing what I wanted to do and was disgusted with myself and I knew I had to come back to God. It took me a long time to feel like those wounds were healed and I was on stable ground again. It still shakes from time to time, but with His help, I've never let myself go that far away since then, and that was almost 5 years ago.

I wish you all the best in this, and God bless.

 

[BranwenUerchLlyr]

Miss Sera, I used to be a celtic pagan, so I think I may be able to relate.

Early in life, I was also angry at God. Mom took me to a Catholic church once in awhile, and to me it just felt like it was some exclusive 'club' that I wasn't invited to. I'm not saying this is what Catholicism is like, I just felt that way partly due to me having been so young and not understanding what was going on. Because of this, I had drifted far away from the truth. I had started to look elsewhere for God.. In every wrong place imaginable. I believed lies, and I put faith in idols and false gods. I couldn't have possibly dug myself a deeper grave to spend eternity in.

After nearly two years of this, I broke down. One night I was just laying in bed, not understanding why things were the way they were. I couldn't understand why I felt so empty even when I thought I had found the truth-- "All paths lead to the same place," I'd try to tell myself. I just wasn't buying it anymore. I had done some reading about the Bible and Jesus. I was so surprised to find out what I did! During all of those years of Sunday school when I was younger, never did I hear anything about Jesus having to die to pay the price of our sins. I had always heard, "Jesus died for our sins," but that was the extent of it. I didn't understand it, and I didn't know that there was more to the story! I wanted to find God, and I was so confused as to how to do it. Through my reading, I had found my answer. It was to simply accept Jesus into my life and to accept His gift on the cross. I just said this prayer(and meant it, of course), "Jesus, I know I am a sinner. I accept the gift you gave me by dying on the cross, and I ask that you forgive me of my sins. I know I can't get to heaven by myself.. I need you. Please put the Holy Spirit in me, so that I can serve you for the rest of my life and meet you in heaven. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen." Soon after that, I was baptized at my friend's church. I don't know if you know of Jesus’ gift, but I'll do my best to explain it.

Jesus lived a completely sinless life. That is what made His death and His blood worthy of washing away our sins. Each of us has sinned, and has earned punishment in hell. Jesus paid that punishment for us by giving up His life on the cross, and offered that gift to all who would believe in Him. Three days later, the Father raised Him back to life and He ascended into heaven. The fact that He came back to life proves everything He did in His lifetime was true. I recommend reading the book of John in the Bible for starters, if you want to know more about this.

May God bless you in your search for the truth!
Always remember that there isn't a thing in the world you could do to make God stop loving you. He loved you so much that He died for you! He suffered through pain and humiliation all for you, and no one else in existance could ever love you more than God does. He loved you before you were even born.

 

[St. Worm2]

Hi Miss Sera, just wanted to tell you that I am praying for you as well --David

 

[~*Gods_lil_baby_gurl*~]

Miss Sera, well Yes ofcourse you can get back with God. Hes always there and waiting for you. All you have to do is Ask Him back into your heart, BUT you have to make sure you mean it. I will be praying for you.------ Simply that girl named Krissy~

 

[Rafael]

Hello.......I too split away because of anger, but when drawn back by the Holy Spirit of truth, I had to dig into the Bible and find out for myself. I got several new translations and learned what God really has to say about His creation, its fall, and His Saviour in Jesus. I'm fifty now and have discovered more each day that every Word is not only reliable, it imparts life to us as we seek in it prayerfully. This spirit and life imparted to us by the Words of Jesus is the true life that you seek. I encourage you to build yourself up in the faith by reading (studying) the Bible and prayer and supplication.
If you are here asking this question, it is because the very Spirit of God, the Father, is calling and wooing you, his daughter, to come and commune with Him. Forgiveness and restoration is His business, so break bonds with deception and run back to the open arms that await you, study the scriptures of the New Testament and eat from the bread of life that has come down from heaven to give us new life. Read Luke 15:11-32 - the story (parable) of the Prodigal son.
God bless....

John 6:63 It is the spirit that giveth life; the flesh profiteth nothing: the words that I have spoken unto you are spirit, and are life.

Ro 10:17 So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.

Php 4:6 In nothing be anxious; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

John 6:32 Then Jesus said to them, Truly, truly, I say to you, Moses gave you not that bread from heaven; but my Father gives you the true bread from heaven.
33 For the bread of God is he which comes down from heaven, and gives life to the world.
34 Then said they to him, Lord, ever more give us this bread.
35 And Jesus said to them, I am the bread of life: he that comes to me shall never hunger; and he that believes on me shall never thirst.

 

[COMMANDO]

miss sera...
firstly i just wanted to say that it is great to hear (read) your honesty, i know some christians that basically carry on as if nothing ever bothers them, they are ashamed of expressing there feelings, but we are all human and we all would have doubts fears, and anger of some sort at some stage.. God knows what we are going through he knows our feelings, but that doesnt mean that we shouldnt say hey God i am feeling angry at you at the moment because....... or im sad because.......
i believe you are already on track to getting back to a relationship with God, honesty is the first part of the step (youve expressed that your tired of fighting, and that you like the idea of someone loveing you unconditionally) he does love you, he loves us all... nothing that we do, nothing that we've done would make him stop loving us..ever..
i pray that you will soon get a real felling of the awesome love of God.
please let us know how you are going...
oh and just one more thing, every time someone comes to God, theres a massive party goin on in heaven, so its a great thing to picture, that you matter so much that when you come to God, God and all the angles chuck a party, awesome stuff....

 

[Serapha]

I feel like I've been angry for years. I was angry at everyone. I even became angry with God. I turned my back on him and tried to bary myself in Wicca. But I was lying to myself. I can't believe in the Lord and the Lady. Spirit doesn't seem real to me. I tried to deny it because I felt that if I let myself become a Christian I would be just like everyone else. I realized I couldn't keep doing this anymore, when my friend, a devoted Baptist, decided to blame her weaknesses on me, and the second being I got angry with was God. I realized that I had gotten into the habit of blaming God for everything that goes wrong, because I couldn't accept that it was meant to happen. I didn't understand.

The point of me starting this thread is to ask if someone can tell me how I can ever get back with God, because I'm tired of fighting him. And I kind of like the idea that someone will love me unconditionally.

Hi there!




Welcome to the forums....


You are asking how you can get back with God...

Well, I believe in once saved, always saved, but I have to ask you if there is a time in your life when you know that your gave your life to Christ, and asked him to forgive your sins, knowing that you were saved by your faith?

If you know that you WERE saved, then you are still saved... you broke the fellowshp with God, but the relationship can't be broken. If you were a child of the King, you will always be a child of the King.


If you have doubts about being saved or born again, then start from scratch and seek forgiveness for your sins and transactions, asking God to give you His indwelling Spirit to live within you.


And then, address the wiccan practices that you participated in... You have opened a spiritual door that was never meant to be opened, and that door has to be closed else there will be other times in your life that spiritual warfare rises from the past wiccan practices. To close that door, you have to denounce wiccanism and those practices where you participated in pagan rituals, and seek forgiveness of the One, True God for worshiping another god. Why do you need to denounce the practice? Because asking forgiveness for the sin of idoltry doesn't removed the acceptance of the practice from your past.

For example, when one becomes a Christian and stops smoking, or drinking, or using drugs, just because they stopped the practices doesn't mean that no physical harm has been done to the body or that one does not have to live with the repercussions of past sins.

The same is true for the spiritual realm. Just because you seek forgiveness for the sin does not mean that the harm that has been done with the past practice has been eliminated. The spiritual door is open until you close it.

Denounce the past wiccan practices to close that spiritual door.



~serapha~

 

[Tara]

Miss Sera, you have already taken that first step. Like the Israelite crossing the sea, just one step was needed and the waters parted. It is there for you already. Just denounce the wiccan practices, confess all to Jesus and ask His forgiveness. Claim the relationship that He has made yours. If we stumble it is sometimes hard to pick ourselves up again, but Jesus will help you, just cling on to Him Miss Sera. I too am praying for you. We all need each other to pray for us.

 

[coolhaircam]

Ask for forgivness for turning your back on Him. Re-commit your life

 

[Miss Sera]

Thank you to everyone who answered my message. I would like to know, as I'm a little out of the loop, how do I get baptised? I don't have a church, and I heard I can only be baptised in a Baptist church. Please help!

 

[Tara]

Could you go to your nearest one and have a talk to the pastor. He will want you to start attending church first I would think. But go along and have a chat with him.

 

[COMMANDO]

it doesnt necasarily meen you need to get baptised at the baptist church, other churches do baptisms or similar but just called different eg: christenings, dedications, some churches have different ways of doing this as well, some willl totally submerge you in water others may do the sprinkling of water on the forehead then some churches dont do anything with water.... i basically see it wich ever way its done its all doing the same thing, expressing to others in public (at church) your inward decission to except God as your creator and Saviour..... i would suggest finding a church that you feel at home in it may take a while but you willl be far better of with a church that you fell comfortable in.. and also spend as much time as you possibly can with other believers, but this doesnt mean abondon your other friends. i hope i haven't spoken jibberish i tend to blabber wen im tired.

and congratulations on you decision.

 

[The Julikenz]

Miss Sera my message is simple, its as easy as a-b-c

A- admit in your heart your are a sinner and need a savior
B-believe in your heart the Father raised Jesus from the dead on the third day, and His perfect life was laid down so that God could forgive EVERYTHING u could eva do
C-Confess your sins to him, Commit your life to him (*Reading bible& prayer helps*)
D- DONT WAIT UNTILL TOMORROW.........

I thank you Lord for the amazing sacrifice Jesus made for oiur sins. Lord i commit Miss Sera to you asd pray she will ask you to come and reside in her heart. I pray you, Lord of the harvest will defend, protect , watch over her and send the spirit to lead her to repentance. I thank you and pray in Jesus' name, Amen.

 

[Emmy]

Dear Miss Sera,you have been given good advice here,and if I may strenghten the message to you,here goes.Start by asking God to forgive you,tell Him exactly what you feel and let Him know that you want to be His Child again.We have a loving and all forgiving Father.Spend some time talking to Him,praising Him and thanking Him for being our God.Leave the rest to Him.Just let go and let God.Greetings from Emmy,a sister in Christ.

 

[Emmy]

Please post my reply to Miss sera once only.Thank you Emmy.

 

[SpiritPsalmist]

The point of me starting this thread is to ask if someone can tell me how I can ever get back with God, because I'm tired of fighting him. And I kind of like the idea that someone will love me unconditionally.

I believe Miss Sera that you have already started that process God has never stopped loving you.

I do understand what you mean though about not wanting to be like everyone else. Following Christ fully is sometimes difficult but never impossible. He is always there to help us through the difficult times.

As for being Baptized, find a good church. I would highly reccommend a Vineyard Christian Fellowship if there is one near you. . .you could look in your local yellow pages. They will be able to help you further and I'm sure would be more than happy to baptize you also.

If you have any questions feel free to PM me. I've known the Lord most of my life and while I don't know it all, I do know a lot. And, I'm real.

Barbara

 

[crimson_dragon]

Hey

I used to be a Wiccan. I was also angry with God and thought that he didn't love me because of all the things that happened in my past. It took one of my best friends, who is a christian, to tell me that it was not in fact God who made me suffer but my family who had their own free will to do it. This affected me and I asked for forgiveness.
I am not longer angry at God. I love him and know that he loves me.
Ask for forgiveness. God loves everyone on this earth, including you.