Hello I am alcoholic, and before I walked through the doors of A.A., I new I had a problem with alcohol, I was drinking to much. I didn't drink like other people. Every time I drank, I started with the idea of having one but some how the alcohol made me forget how to count.
Normal people can walk away from a half drank beer or glass of wine and not here their head say; I want more. Normal people can pour it down the sink without their head screaming; DON'T DO THAT! Or hear their head ask; WHY? are we pouring it down the drain or not finishing our drink.
Alcoholics suffer from a disease of MORE; where ONE is too many and a THOUNDSAND is never enough. WE are always think about our next drink. We think about it all the time, and we know we have NO control, but it is not that important once we begin to drink. In fact our husband, kid and job don't exist, once we put our lips to that glass. The only God we have is that drink. We believe that if we take that drink it will take care of all those problems the wife, kids, job, house and pets. And the strange things is it does; we look around one day and it is all gone. We are reduced to just our "God" THE BOTTLE and then it takes us and we No longer know where the bottle begins and we end.
So if you entertain any of these ideas or see any of these behaviors you are on your way to being an alcoholic or you already are. The best thing I ever did; was crawl through those doors of A.A. Not only did they show me how to stay sober, they show me how to make peace with God and myself.
Normal people can walk away from a half drank beer or glass of wine and not here their head say; I want more. Normal people can pour it down the sink without their head screaming; DON'T DO THAT! Or hear their head ask; WHY? are we pouring it down the drain or not finishing our drink.
Alcoholics suffer from a disease of MORE; where ONE is too many and a THOUNDSAND is never enough. WE are always think about our next drink. We think about it all the time, and we know we have NO control, but it is not that important once we begin to drink. In fact our husband, kid and job don't exist, once we put our lips to that glass. The only God we have is that drink. We believe that if we take that drink it will take care of all those problems the wife, kids, job, house and pets. And the strange things is it does; we look around one day and it is all gone. We are reduced to just our "God" THE BOTTLE and then it takes us and we No longer know where the bottle begins and we end.
So if you entertain any of these ideas or see any of these behaviors you are on your way to being an alcoholic or you already are. The best thing I ever did; was crawl through those doors of A.A. Not only did they show me how to stay sober, they show me how to make peace with God and myself.
Oh yes, the obsession of the mind! I am almost 2 years sober now and know that if I put that 1 drink to my mouth, it will be all over. The obsession can go into other things as well shopping, food, you name it. Addiction changes your brain chemistry so we do tend to go this way if we don't work hard everyday and keep God in the frontline not ourself. It is a daily walk for the rest of our life, but life is so much better when I am sober and allowing God to guide.
