Scott that is exactly how I feel my journey has gone. Even before I had come to know Jesus and God like I do now ( It wasn't that I didn't believe in Jesus or God, but I knew it had been infiltrated either way with how it was being used, and God was a universal energy that connects us all) I can see just all the times I had been guided through my life like a movie reel flashed through my head linking so much more together. It was understanding that being in the flow and following that intuitive feeling always paid off and led me to the very next thing or answer I was seeking in the most unexpectent way, always leaving me in awe, always giving me confirmation in what I was receiving, massively building my faith, and knocking down all my preconceived ideas about religion due to many reasons which stopped me ever wanting to seek answers about the Bible or religion. That's when I realized that was my God Spark "transmitter" so's to speak, and the more I read and dug, the more I was blown away by so many things I was guided to and received. I see the layer upon layer of truth the bible does hold, and how so much had been distorted or missed. Just like you my response to people in why I believe what I believe and yet told by others as making it up as I go. But I feel through my life I have been taught many things so when Jesus came to me, my eyes would see and my ears would hear what those who had grown up within the church may not understand due to being told not to question as thats the work of the devil and blasphemy) But the messages I am receiving just gets stronger, and feels like a knowing within that has always been there has been unlocked for now is the time.
I am aware there was a time that people had no choice but to go along with the "Law" and it's really sad to think of how many good people have been killed for simply following God and what they feel and hear in their hearts and being faithful followers to the end as instructed so courageously and I have massive amounts of respect to all those that came before me. It saddens me that through his name much damaged was caused, but because I had never read the scriptures before, I never realized how many warnings we were given along the way to not be deceived especially by the churches. If it is not done in love, then it is not of God and you will know by their fruits. It saddens me that some times scripture is used on a pick and choose basis where one scripture is used as sort of permission slip, vs many many many more against it which is still the word of God, forcing many newbies to leave. In reality Jesus himself left the church for he knew what they taught was not the Fathers wishes or words and that they were of the false god.
Thank you so much for replying, I really appreciate you sharing your experience. It just gives me even greater confidence that this awakening is growing.
I would love to hear about what books you have written
There has been a voice in side telling me to do the same in spreading the message when the time is right and I am well equipped to answer as the scripture states, there is a season for everything.