Does it ever go away?

[aca_rev55]

Well, does it?

The thoughts, I mean. For the past year or so, I've felt as though I've been "better," as if I know what "better" is. I've been genuinely happy, without the aid of any drugs or self-harm. But, obviously I still think about it. I still think about the things I did, and the things I felt. I think everyday about the time I tried to end it all, and how guilty I feel about it.
One of my friends essentially forced me to talk about things I'd rather have left underground, and in their opinion me forcing myself not to think about things doesn't mean they're not still there. I still have anxiety issues, and I still have an ED or sorts (I don't think it's anything like that, but whatever... that's what people say). I think about it, so am I not over my depression? Are these thoughts never going to go away? Am I going to think of my biggest regret EVERYTIME I see the number 23 for the rest of my life. Is this even worth it?

I feel that post was rather vague, but it's the best I can come up with right now... It was mostly just a post to get my thoughts in order; Attention Deficit doesn't always allow me to think clearly. Writing helps.

 

[pumanator]

The enemy has a long memory and like to remind us of our failures. God forgets our sins when we ask forgiveness. For us, in the messed up earthly tent it's not so easy. I still recall things God has forgiven and I greive over what I shouldn't. It's these very things that we struggle with that God want us to take to him the second they invade out thoughts. No they don't go away but God's mercies are new every morning and He is ever present with us and love us dearly.

 

[Crystal~Rose]

Praying for you!

 

[snowy27]

Well, does it?

The thoughts, I mean. For the past year or so, I've felt as though I've been "better," as if I know what "better" is. I've been genuinely happy, without the aid of any drugs or self-harm. But, obviously I still think about it. I still think about the things I did, and the things I felt. I think everyday about the time I tried to end it all, and how guilty I feel about it.
One of my friends essentially forced me to talk about things I'd rather have left underground, and in their opinion me forcing myself not to think about things doesn't mean they're not still there. I still have anxiety issues, and I still have an ED or sorts (I don't think it's anything like that, but whatever... that's what people say). I think about it, so am I not over my depression? Are these thoughts never going to go away? Am I going to think of my biggest regret EVERYTIME I see the number 23 for the rest of my life. Is this even worth it?

I feel that post was rather vague, but it's the best I can come up with right now... It was mostly just a post to get my thoughts in order; Attention Deficit doesn't always allow me to think clearly. Writing helps.

Glad to hear you have been doing well over the past year. I guess we all have hiccups now and then, we have thoughts that are unhelpful to us. But that is ok, just a bump along the road so to speak. Its really hard sometimes not to dwell on regrets isn't it? If you can, congratulate yourself for the great year you had. I think you deserve a treat, buy yourself a present! If writing helps you, why not keep a diary, blog or journal?