When i was diagnosed bpd i thot ' bingo, you nailed it, finally. my biggest sin has always been drugs. this was my way of feeling better. pulling up out of depression, having motivation,releiving panic. im born again! I had an encounter w jesus that worthy of a book, but my bpd remained. i got realllllly mad at god a few days back. i swore at him. i looked thru the ot and thot, man youre mean. We suck and youre great! I thot about all the suffering on this planet and if he knew eve was gona give in, whyallow it. ive been hraled divinely 4x. prob is no one believes me cuz i got bpd! bordeines are self destruct ive been that way for 32 yrs. do you think god understands at us eeping the temple holy or our rages sometimrs we cant control. im in recovery, but its hard being off drugs. ive relapsed a few times. im not blaming everything on bpd, but dang, im not right in da head!!! Do u think on judgement day he will have special grace for folks wl mental illness?
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