Squeakers, that was a hilarious story!
I've been trying to smile more at men lately. It hasn't done much in the getting a date department. I feel like men are weirded out when I smile at them.
Anyway, I had two encounters with Mr. R today! They were completely random, but occurred in the same exact way! First, I'm sitting outside on this bench-like table by the pool on my school's campus, sipping my coffee and reading cases for my Torts class that's in about 30 minutes. I'm just there, studying, minding my own business, trying to
focus. Then I hear, "Can I join you?" I look up and Mr. R is standing across the table from me, holding his books in one arm and his other hand is holding the edge of the chair across from me. I smile big (and probably looked really weird and/or awkward) and say "Sure!" We talk about class, homework, and our appellate briefs for a minute or two and then there's silence for the next 10 minutes as we're both intensely reading for class. Then another friend of mine, B, stops by the table and tells Mr. R and I about the blood drive on campus today. Mr. R says he definitely plans to give blood. B leaves a minute or so later. I ask Mr. R if he gives blood often and he says he does, that he likes to do what he can to help others who might need it. He then proceeds to tell me a couple stories from times that he gave blood. He asks me if I've ever given blood and I admit to him that I haven't because I'm scared haha. He insists that it's quick and painless and that I should do it. I say that I don't want to faint. He says, "Naw, you won't faint. It's only us big guys who faint. Seriously!" We both laugh. We get back to reading, and of course, I haven't been able to concentrate this ENTIRE time. All I keep thinking about is how warm it suddenly got, how awkward I must look, how the wind is blowing my hair into a frizzy, pouffy mess, how I can't come up with anything bright, amazing, endearing, and witty to say to him. Finally, it's time to go to class.
So Torts leaves me utterly confused...and hungry. I go to apartment, pack a lunch and decide to eat by the pool on my campus and read for Civil Procedure there because it's such a nice day outside. Plus maybe, just maybe, I'll get lucky again and Mr. R will come and sit by me a second time!
Buuuut probably not. I don't have that kind of good luck lol! So I pick the same seat I was sitting in earlier when Mr. R sat with me, but not at all because of him. That seat and table is my favorite because it's shady, quiet, and in a corner, so people can't bug me when I want to read and can't hear me well when I want to chat with my friends there at that table. So a couple of my friends from the other section come and join me and eat with me for a few minutes, I tell them all about my encounter with Mr. R earlier in the morning, we all squeal a bit, and they head to class. I continue reading for Civil Procedure. Can't focus. I keep thinking about Mr. R and when he was sitting with me earlier. I wonder what it would be like, and what his reaction would be if I suddenly busted out in the middle of class and started singing and performing some ridiculous teeny-bopper Ke$ha song to him. I've always wanted to do something like that!
I decide that if someone paid me enough money, I'd be willing to do it for real.
So I put in my headphones and decide to finally focus on my Civil Procedure reading. There I am, listening to Coldplay and reading for Civil Procedure, minding my own business, in my zone and in my own little world...when I look up and suddenly Mr. R is in front of me, approaching me and mouthing something to me! But it's all mute because all I can hear is Coldplay's "Paradise." I rip an earbud out of one ear, blink several times, and do a major double take to make sure this is legit happening. It takes me a second to register exactly what just happened. Mr. R says something about joining me again that I missed because of my music. After I collect myself from my mini-heart attack (all of which takes about a few seconds), I tease him and say, "Back again?!" with a probably way too enormous smile on my face. We talk about a few things for like 5 minutes or so. He told me how he just came back from downtown and got some coffee, and how there was an art festival there that he thought was really interesting. We talked about downtown, and about coffee and espresso and then I asked him if he ended up giving blood and he said he did and that he was "in and out in 15 minutes!" He asked me if I ended up giving any. I looked down and shifted my eyes. He said, "That's a no!" and laughed. We both got back to reading, and DARN IT, this time I could not concentrate AT ALL. I was so self-conscious of every move, every gesture of mine and and every gesture of his. It took every ounce of me to focus on
focusing. Needless to say I barely understood what I was reading. It was ridiculous!
At this point, I started to wonder if Mr. R had figured me out and was using himself as kryptonite against me so that I would fail all of my classes from not being able to focus. I pushed that thought aside, concluding it to be ludicrous. Finally it was time to head to Civil Procedure. I packed up my stuff and walked part of the way to class with Mr. R. Then I bumped into my friends on the way and walked with them for a little bit.
Odd. Odd odd odd!!!
I cannot figure Mr. R out! I'm pretty certain that he is, in fact, single based on what I've heard about him. Unlike all the other single men, he's not after any girl at school that I know of. (And words travels fast around here!
) And he refused my roommate when she flat-out asked him out last semester. (And my roommate is a very pretty, popular blonde!) So what's his deal? Either he's harboring a secret crush on someone and simply waiting until the right time to make a move...or he's gay! There can be no other conclusion, right? He doesn't strike me as gay though. (But then again, you never know lol!) My guess is that he likes my friend C and is waiting until a good time to make a move. It's the only theory that makes sense. And they just got assigned to work together on a project (randomly assigned by the professor) in Contracts, so they'll be working together a lot in the next couple weeks. He'll probably make his move on her soon and I'm sure I'll hear about it from C.
Any which way, I know he isn't interested in me. (No surprise there since decent men never are interested in me.) A part of me wishes he won't sit by me again. Sure it's thrilling, but I can't get work done and I know that he's not interested in me, so it's only wasting my time and energy.
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