Thanks for all the honest answers. I actually expected you would answer that way. I have found most Christians will stand behind great faith in absolute belief in God in public, while still dealing with doubt. Honestly, I prefer honest doubt over dishonest faith.
It is hard to be a Christian and admit that I sometimes doubt God. My faith is somewhat like yours, it's based on my personal consensus of what seems logical. Yet, it has doubt and confusion that seems non ending. In the end, for me, I think it takes more faith to be an atheist than a believer. Still, I can understand the process of faith for an athiest.
There is an atheist that lives in my neighborhood. Now, he practices atheism as a religion in my view. They have meetings, basically a church where they get together and preach against religion in general. They have good morals, ect. I do go to the neighborhood meetings at his house. I often get lost in all the jargon, but I try. Just due to a lack of education..14 years is not enough to grasp what they get into.
I test all my beliefs and why I feel there biblical, I often argue with mainline christianity. I was glad I found this board. I have been kicked off most Christian boards. Red some of my posting if you want to figure that out.
I may spend time here asking questions, I love knowledge, If just I had a brain that could grasp it.