I have experienced the same Let me tell I'm from Scandinavia, and I have been in uk since 2010. I work etc. I met a man here who wasn't Christian, and came over
I have always believed in God, when I was a child, I went to Sunday school in the local church where I received a children's bible .My mum only sent me there to not stick out compared to other kids. My family are atheist except from two deseased uncles who did believe and my grandparents.
So there was no chance I could continue church, after the years gone as my parents wouldn't let me.
I asked God to keep me, somehow, and He did, showing me the end in vision and how I'd be saved, but a friend wouldn't be. And I saw her. I first got to know her many years later as I was a small girl.
But the search was on, through new age as late teen where I had a psychic reading with a shamanic witch. That opened up for UFOs and years of visitations and abduction. And a very notorious belief in past lives and twinsouls. My psychic experiences opened up.
Little did I know that you get defiled and open up when you go to them. A friend had encouraged me. That friend ended up by the way, to betray and back stab me.
I moved over to the neighbour country to study and then the search was on, so I fell into jehowas witnesses. I was with them for three years until their lack of love and coldness made me ask God to help I was afraid of demons of leaving, as they brainwash you to believe they are God's only thing. And what's gonna happen to you when you do Oh yes repetition can do that with group think. Plus play on fear. But I asked jesus to help me and He did, all the information I ever needed was there online. Someone might say, yeah but it's only online but how it was put together, and in the logical chronological order was too perfect to be coincidence. Turns out the ruling governing body of elderly men in new York who is their head quarter, puts themselves on God's place claiming only they have the truth, and that jesus speaks only through them, and their papers. So you can't question or criticise. God opened my eyes they put themselves in God's place After discovering that, I wanted out I asked jesus to help and he came to me, overshadowing me, and told me about my past. He filled me up, and all depression, all fear was totally gone.
I had no trouble with the organisation except a few attempts to visit.
But then I ended up in a dead Lutheran church, where only a few showed love. I have always had many strong experiences with God, but the priest told me that don't talk about it ,as not everyone would like it! Not long after God showed me that church was in split in two groups, one wanted new ways one wanted same old stiff. I told the elder who said he's been waiting for answer and start crying. Not long after he ignored me in front of a que. Like I didn't exist
The damage was done, I headed into new age and the occult, doing alot I shouldn't have.
Then the man from here came along and he was into new age, so we lived together as married for several years, but he never married me despite saying. Turned out he had huge personal mental and physical issues. I tried help as best I could Alot of things happened that he twisted and turned on me. So he moved, visiting occasionally. We've never been intimate as the new age beliefs sect like beliefs saying not to but unfortunately in the end. I was happy with him when it was good, he was my best friend But he has way too many problems. Right now he's at a hostel for homeless men where he is waiting for help, gets brain and body scans, and waiting for psychology treatments.. He says He's suffering from fibromyalgia aspergers, highly functioning just been diagnosed and lots of pain mentally and physically. He broke his back four times. Went to God and back. He's been through severe childhood abuse.
He started to be taken over by voices telling him I'm inside him as his higher self (new age) and another two women, one who is a high school crush he never got to know etc. Saying I'm gonna morph into them and a famous top model, that he thinks he's having a relationship with. And that he's gonna morph into a famous man top model.
He has been quiet for a long time now however, and I've not seen him for months.
When he saw I had a bible he start to talk against it and said all of a sudden to me "you believe in HIM" and start to make fun of me and talking a speech full of new age. I prayed for him and then he got aggressive. Despite it was to myself.
So up to now where God revealed the truth about new age, which I couldn't come out of, the rabbit hole is very deep. But he did it and alot of good youtube opened my eyes, and in the minute I repent and He came in I felt something in me moving like living water, and knowledge and his peace and love, and he's guiding me towards a messianic congregation. Showing me. Its incredible how much knowledge popping up. But I have a few new age friends, not in this country though, but they've been good friends but now they're strangely quiet. One of them said out of the blue, whatever you do, don't go with the Christians. And she's well into new age, spirits etc. They're all strangely quiet. But I don't care. I have zero friends in uk now He was my best friend, and we lived secluded. Plus I've tried to make friends, but with no luck. People don't get back.
All I can hope for is the new congregation. I was around to another church, before, in the middle of it all. Trying Introduced by a Christian guy who invited me out Turned out he was taking advantage of me. When I told the church they already knew as he's done it to many people. They said he was a good guy just had some problems. So it all end up with him screaming he wanted me out of his church When I didn't come all my friends in the church stopped speaking to me. Even erased me on fb. I've not even done anything.
So, back to the new age.
And now, I'm back with God, and He's alive in me. Guiding me. But I'm so afraid going to church.
