Thank you all for talking with me about this. I'm on my cell phone and is a little hard to quote everyone. I appreciate everyone's perspective and it's encouraging that many have also wrestled with age of the earth and evolution and still have faith. I've been away from the site for 4 months because I have been suffering with panic attacks and depression and have been treated medically for it. I am going against my psychiatrist orders and weaning off of them. This means my depression and my struggle with believing in God will return. When I was on the pills at full dosage I was indifferent about almost everything. Prior to getting on the meds unfortunately I was really becoming an atheist. I just rely heavily on science and I try to rationalize miracles in the bible. It's not my choice that's just how I am now. It's hard for me to believe in miracles. The evidence is there though I admit. Noahs ark is truly on a mountain in turkey, man has seen dinosoaurs, and giants have really existed. But something has changed in my heart and how I see god. I'm still on meds and am thus able to speak casually about the topic but I know my pain will return about this and I'll probably become hostile again . My family now knows I'm an agnostic and I have started to call myself one. I find it hard to believe in anything really, same goes for evolution, creationism, god, and no god,.. I'm just not sure about anything really. Very mentally unstable you can say. I hope to return to the faith. I can feel the purposeless of my existence everyday and it is very painful, it will only worsen as I wean off the meds. As I tell my mother, don't try to understand me because if you did you wouldn't be a Christian. I have the mind of an atheist undoubtedly but feel deeply the want and need of god. I'm a coward, admittedly. That's pretty much what an agnostic is. I will try to be more active on the site, I really like to hear opinions and like I said I was really encouraged by your comments I will try to remember some of them. I can tell many of you are educated and probably a good deal older than I. And I too find that encouraging.