Logismoi(Unwanted Thoughts)
I have been reading "Mountain of Silence" from Kiriakos Markides. It is a wonderful book about the conversation between an anthropologist and an Eastern Orthodox monk from Mt. Athos. They touch on a variety of Christian topics.
One of these is the existance of logismoi(the Greek), or unwanted thoughts. Or, thoughts that do not originate from us, but are external to us. They can be good or evil. The monk, Fr. Maximos, comments that they are a result of the fall. Before the fall, man(Adam and Eve) were in constant union with God. Their thoughts were "on God". When they fell, they were rudely detached from God and became susceptible to these thoughts. Fr. Maximos continues by saying that the youth of today are constantly barraged by especially evil thoughts, and as a result, suffer from psychological damage that can only be healed by God.
I completely believe this. For I suffered greatly from these negative thoughts until just a few years ago; when I was Chrismated an Orthodox Christian. What was so damaging about these negative thoughts was that I believed they originated from me and that I was a horrible person because of it. Not realizing that they originated from outside of my psyche, I dwelt in a very despondent state! I suffered greatly!
But thank God for His mercy and grace. Things began to change when I submitted myself to the Church, read this book and went to an Orthodox therapist. Through these helps, I learned to determine when I was being especially attacked. If a thought caused me distress, confusion and fear, I would cross myself and pray the Jesus' prayer. This really helped me. I would also tell Fr. James of thoughts that especially plagued me over and over. They really did become less and less.
Now, during this Great Lent, I am finding that I am being especially attacked. This does not come as a surprise since I am trying to fast and focus on Spiritual things. This goes against my worldly flesh and those things that are "not flesh and blood". Makes since that I would experience opposition. These particular thoughts are of other people. Judgemental thoughts. But I will remain strong...doing what I know works.
Anyway, it was refreshing to read of this again in the "Mountain of Silence". I highly recommend the book.