I think this helps exemplify a major difference between us. See the Jesus I believe in and worship isn't a "Jesus" that I have a "personal relationship" with, but the Jesus which the Evangelists and Apostles spoke about in their writings as recorded in the New Testament, the Jesus who was born of the Virgin Mary, who suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, dead, and buried, and who rose from the dead on the third day, as the Apostles' and Nicene Creeds declare--which the Christian Church has always believed.
So when I want to understand what Jesus says or commands of me, I don't look to myself, to my own feelings--or at least I try not to, I'll freely admit that I am a fallible, broken sinner and so I fail frequently--I instead look to what has been written, believed, received, and confessed by the historic Christian Church. So if I want to know what Jesus' will is for how I should interact with other people, I should go and read the Sermon on the Mount.
Perhaps you consider yourself holy and righteousness enough to be able to divine the will of God because of the "Jesus" that you imagine, but I certainly don't. I know my own unrighteousness, my own sinfulness, and that I have to look outside of myself because in me there is nothing but death. I can only look to Jesus, the Author and Finisher of my faith, and I can encounter His word where He has spoken in the Gospel accounts. So when He says, "Do not resist evil, but whoever strikes you upon the right cheek, turn and offer the other as well." I have a direct command from the Son of God on how I ought to act and behave; that when someone comes against me instead of returning an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth, to instead act in a way which is loving and compassionate. To also read, for example, in St. Paul's epistle to the Romans that I ought to act peaceably toward all insofar as I am able, that even if my enemy is hungry to feed them, if thirsty to give them drink. And that ultimately, when I stand before my God and Judge on that future Day, the thing I shall be judged on is how I treated other people, He shall say "I was hungry" and "I was thirsty" and "I was naked" and "I was sick" and "I was a foreigner" and "I was in imprison", and that how I treated the "least of these" is how I treated Him; because when I hear the commandment to Love the Lord my God and to love my neighbor, I can understand, as St. John does in his epistle, that whoever says they love God, but hates their brother, is a liar.
What kind of person do I want to be? Who do I want to be in relation to my neighbor? I know that before God I am freely justified by His grace and that all my sins are forgiven on Christ's account because of His death and resurrection, and that in Him and with Him I am God's child, by the indwelling of the Holy Spirit on account of God's indelible promises to me through the Gospel. But grace is not an excuse for recklessness, the Apostle though saying that where sin abounds grace abounds all the more is clear when he says, "Since grace abounds shall we go on sinning?" Because this Christian life exists at the crossroads of God and neighbor, my works will profit me nothing before God and that I belong to God because God is kind and gracious to sinners; but I still dwell in this world where my neighbor is hungry, where my neighbor needs a roof over their head, water to drink, medicine and medical care to treat their sickness and injuries, my neighbor still needs love. And what does it profit me if I gain the whole world but forfeit my soul, what good is it for me if in cleaving to my own life I lose it?
The command of God sets me before my neighbor as a servant, to humble myself, to forsake myself, pick up my cross, and follow the Son of God in the way he has set before us. For this life is not a life of glory, but a cross. The greatest in God's kingdom is the slave, the least, the lowly, the downtrodden, and the despised. God shows Himself to be King through the foolishness and weakness of this world: the King of kings wore a crown of thorns.
So no, I probably don't know your "Jesus". Not if it's a different Jesus than the One proclaimed by the Apostles and Evangelists.
-CryptoLutheran