Devotion

Just slap it on the screen in here if you're comfy.

I don't care anymore. I'm grouchy this morning. I'm sorry. ~Waits one second and posts again...grrrrrrrrrrrrrr~

I hope whoever gave me 800 bloody blessings wasn't thinking they were giving them to Gina.

Cuz I keep getting mistaken for her.

Good night.

~Shoves another lollie in her trap & grabs some coffee & starts another day as she digs through study materials~

While I'm digging through my stuff here I just want to apologize for being moody. It's all part of trying to quit smoking. I'm sorry.

But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and
filthy language from your lips.
Colossians 3:8


The issue we are dealing with is fear. The physical symptom is control. When we can't control something in our lives we get angry. We get angry because of unmet expectations. (Gee, you suppose this morning's study may be speaking to me?) This morning's study refers to anger being like lights on a dashboard. They tell us something is wrong under the hood of the car. In order to fix the problem we have to find out it's source. Whenever we have expectations of another person or even ourselves that do not materialize, our tendency is to get angry. The source of the anger is fear that the unmet expectation will negatively impact us. My fear this morning is that my unmet expectation of not wanting to smoke will impact my life because I will fail and end up smoking again. I am disappointed in myself. Even though I realize this morning that the devil has come to dance with me. So, I stand in the rain. But, will I be able to stand my ground against myself and against the devil? Jesus often spoke of living as though we were dead. Dead to ourselves. In order to live as though we're dead we have to live as though we're alive in Christ. It's a choice we must make each day. Once we become dead to that which stirs up emotion in us, God is free to change that situation. Until we are able to reckon ourselves dead to the effects of the issue that causes us to struggle, God will allow us to remain in the situation. This morning I must allow myself to die to the desire to smoke. I must realize that my body is not my own. It belongs to God. He doesn't want me to smoke and I have to be willing to give myself to him to do what he sees fit with it. By allowing the devil to control these urges, I am not allowing God to take control. Therefore I'm still fighting for something that isn't mine and fighting to keep alive something that should be dead.

Father, this morning I pray for myself and for others of us who still have areas in our lives where we have not died for you. I surrender myself to you this morning and I surrender my desires to you. I ask that you take them for your own and do as you will with them. I ask that you please do not let the devil have this dance.

HisLambGabby said:

My, my, grumpy aren't we ...how could anyone mistake you for anyone else...that special way about you so sweet and distinct......*wink* love you Red.*giggle*...you better cheer up or I'll call and sing to you again...*tee hee*

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You're cute. Considering I'm not feeling sweet this morning.

As it is written in the prophets, Behold, I send my messenger before thy face, which shall prepare thy way before thee.
Mark 1:2 {KJV}

It's promised that he will prepare the way before me. Therefore he will prepare the way for me to accomplish his will.

I think I'm going to go battle the shopping crowd today and get a new crochet hook and start crocheting again. Maybe that will help with some of the cravings.

What's the matter with you Mel? Are you sick?

I'll be back in just a bit. Gonna go get my hook and pick up some lunch.

Judahspraise said:

no, not sick. Just miserable. I am tired, can't rest...haven't been sleeping well...so making everything 'big' if you know what i mean.

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Is it your leg hon?

Took me a bit longer in town than I had planned on. I nearly got creamed by some elderly woman. She was at the corner of a main road and I don't think she even saw my vehicle cuz she pulled right out in front of me just as I approached the intersection. I had to go into the other lane to avoid her. She went to the same store I went to so I got her license plate number and stopped off at the police station to let them know. I told the cop I was afraid she was going to get herself killed. Apparently she shouldn't be driving anymore. As much as I hate to say it...I think they need to do something about the laws on the elderly being able to renew their licenses so easily. A lot of these folks around here really shouldn't be driving anymore. It's awful! Scared me half to death! It's a good thing no one was in the other lane or I would have lost my car. ~LOL~

~Sits down with some lunch~

Part of what has me a bit on edge today is the fact that when I first moved into this neighborhood it was nice and quiet. Now all the neighbors have dogs and they leave them outside and they bark all bloody day and night. It's very frustrating and annoying.

~Turns off the Christmas music~ Ack!!

~Surfs the net & finds a site on meditation~