This is a long story, so please bear with me. I am a 46 year old man with sever heart issues. I have had 3 heart surgeries since 2004 and I am told I was expected to be on a transplant list some day. Due to the daily chest pains and conditions of my health, I am on social security. Sadly with this meager income I also take care of my 74 year old mother. The past 5 years have been beyond a tribulation for me. Every single cost my mother needs paid I have somehow had to come up with it. There is no other family to help, and no means of other income besides my low income and her $1000 social security.
This past fall two things have bit us. My mother had to have a partial foot amputation, which occured Jan 8. I am now having to be the 24 hour health care for her. I am not sleeping much, having to do everything for her. She does not qualify for a nursing home, and would not go to one if she did. The other MAJOR thing is at Thanksgiving our furnace died. It needs a complete replacement. I have been quoted between $3500 and $7000 but of course I have no way of coming up with that. I have sought government help, loans, grants, and nothing. My mother had previously years ago gotten a reverse mortgage on her home and my now estranged sister and others blew that money, she that is not an option.
I just do not know what to do anymore. I am so stressed and worried sick, it is killing me (my blood pressure has hit 259/160 while one BP meds during these times). I have come to the point where I debated if a bullet to my head is not a better option for me now. I can't take this much more.
If anyone knows where I might get aid for my mother in terms of the furnace, I need all suggestions and prayers. I can enduring burning myself out caring for her, but it is cold in the house. Please, any advice, prayers is needed. I am ready to give up
This past fall two things have bit us. My mother had to have a partial foot amputation, which occured Jan 8. I am now having to be the 24 hour health care for her. I am not sleeping much, having to do everything for her. She does not qualify for a nursing home, and would not go to one if she did. The other MAJOR thing is at Thanksgiving our furnace died. It needs a complete replacement. I have been quoted between $3500 and $7000 but of course I have no way of coming up with that. I have sought government help, loans, grants, and nothing. My mother had previously years ago gotten a reverse mortgage on her home and my now estranged sister and others blew that money, she that is not an option.
I just do not know what to do anymore. I am so stressed and worried sick, it is killing me (my blood pressure has hit 259/160 while one BP meds during these times). I have come to the point where I debated if a bullet to my head is not a better option for me now. I can't take this much more.
If anyone knows where I might get aid for my mother in terms of the furnace, I need all suggestions and prayers. I can enduring burning myself out caring for her, but it is cold in the house. Please, any advice, prayers is needed. I am ready to give up
Remember God is with you and he will never leave you.

