Depression

[third11]

Hello! I am finally feeling more like myself this week. I have an appointment
to see therapist tomorrow. I am looking forward to seeing her. I felt good the
instant I got a message from her that she had an appointment available, but,
at the same time, got me to thinking and reflecting. DJB as always allowed me
the freedom to be me. I feel like I have been in a what I call a depression funk
for about a month. I've been having weird dreams and feel like it's been a chore
to be happy.

I think differently than the people I work with and they have no problem making
comments about how weird they think I am, hurts my feelings, but, I have gotten to
where I just stop reacting, read something that helps me feel better, go for a walk,
text or call friends, oh yes, and gratitude.

There are rumors that I might be moved to a different office at work,
again, or there might be some renovations to move three more people into the
area I am in. UGH! I have gotten used to a small office where
I can when I have some alone time.

 

[Press On]

Hello! I am finally feeling more like myself this week. I have an appointment
to see therapist tomorrow. I am looking forward to seeing her. I felt good the
instant I got a message from her that she had an appointment available, but,
at the same time, got me to thinking and reflecting. DJB as always allowed me
the freedom to be me. I feel like I have been in a what I call a depression funk
for about a month. I've been having weird dreams and feel like it's been a chore
to be happy.

I think differently than the people I work with and they have no problem making
comments about how weird they think I am, hurts my feelings, but, I have gotten to
where I just stop reacting, read something that helps me feel better, go for a walk,
text or call friends, oh yes, and gratitude.

There are rumors that I might be moved to a different office at work,
again, or there might be some renovations to move three more people into the
area I am in. UGH! I have gotten used to a small office where
I can when I have some alone time.

Glad you are doing well. Continue to abide in the peaceful hiding place Christ provides for you and pray for those who persecute you, though I know from experience it's not easy.

 

[Tempura]

Hello! I am finally feeling more like myself this week. I have an appointment
to see therapist tomorrow. I am looking forward to seeing her.

I have gotten to where I just stop reacting, read something that helps me feel better, go for a walk,
text or call friends, oh yes, and gratitude.

Good to hear, well done. That "urge" to react is a funny thing. Some of us are of course more sensitive than others, and sometimes our condition isn't helping, but it's possible to learn to deal with it. As if to differentiate that need to react from yourself, and look at it from "the outside", if that makes sense.

 

[Jeshu]

So good to hear! Love on dear, love on.


My Lord, My Husband.

My Lord with bowed head I stand before you,
I'm not worthy to be called your wife.
For I have been very unfaithful
and deserted you for many years.

I'm so sorry Lord that I've been untrue
been unkind, rebellious and temperamental
In The End betraying You for the other one
that cruel liar and deceiver, that Beast.

Yet You rescued me from that tyrant
Hid me in the desert until I grew free
Taught me tenderly what true love was
and gave me back my dignity.

I wanted to thank you dear husband
from the bottom of my heart
for accepted my other children
those not conceived from your seed.

I'm so grateful You sorted them out for me
for a rebellious kindred they've surely been
Yet Your awesome love won them all
freeing me from having to control them.

And now my Lord, my husband so dear.
I feel almost embarrassed asking you this
My Lord, if..if I have found favour in Your sight,
then please, please let me know You...

...Oh Jesus, a wonderful husband you will always be,
please let me be Your ever faithfully loving wife,
the seeds of your Love fill me, time and again
your offspring making me enlarge my tent.

 

[Extraneous]

I think differently than the people I work with and they have no problem making
comments about how weird they think I am, hurts my feelings, but, I have gotten to
where I just stop reacting, read something that helps me feel better, go for a walk,
text or call friends, oh yes, and gratitude.

I know what thats like, i have grown use to not fitting in. Its hard at first, but there is hope.