Depression Support

[Restoredsoul]

I've hit a bad spot and just stopped crying after about 2 hrs or so. Been really stressed lately and having alot of aniexty, I guess it just got to much tonight. I often feel like everything is always my fault and I need to be the one who says sorry but I hate feeling like this!!

Hun,
I'm so sorry you are feeling this way - i'm going through a rough patch too - i think it's the weather that does it to me - the dark morning etc...

I'm waiting for a CRB form so i can begin my new job in January otherwise we can't afford the rent. It's stressing me out so much right now but i'm carrying on because i just have to trust God for this.

Post hun, let it all out and remember you are not on your own in all of this.

Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Judy02]

*Jude bumps the thread*

Hey guys! Just wanted to wish you all a very merry christmas!! I really hope everyone's not too bad at the moment. We are so blessed to be able to celebrate christmas for the reason it truly exists!! I hope u all have some happy times in the next few days, wherever and whoever it'll be with!!

Take care everyone!! xxxxx

 

[marky21]

Hi,

this is my first post here. Just been reading a lot of the previous posts and I can relate to nearly all of them. I've been through a lot and I'm still struggling, but I have hope that in God all things are possible (Mark 9:23). I'll write a longer post about the things I've been through another time, but I just want to say that its great to have a forum like this one where we can be honest and open, and help each other.
One of the worst things I find about depression and other mental illness is how alone it makes you feel. This forum reminds me that I'm not alone in this fight.

I just wanna give you all some Psalms that I fine really helpful when I'm low.
Psalm 30,31,32,33,34 and 139.

God bless everyone,

love Mark.

 

[Eponine]

*Jude bumps the thread*

Hey guys! Just wanted to wish you all a very merry christmas!! I really hope everyone's not too bad at the moment. We are so blessed to be able to celebrate christmas for the reason it truly exists!! I hope u all have some happy times in the next few days, wherever and whoever it'll be with!!

Take care everyone!! xxxxx

I've had some bad moments this Christmas and some that haven't been quite so bad.

 

[Jeshu]

Hi,

this is my first post here. Just been reading a lot of the previous posts and I can relate to nearly all of them. I've been through a lot and I'm still struggling, but I have hope that in God all things are possible (Mark 9:23). I'll write a longer post about the things I've been through another time, but I just want to say that its great to have a forum like this one where we can be honest and open, and help each other.
One of the worst things I find about depression and other mental illness is how alone it makes you feel. This forum reminds me that I'm not alone in this fight.

I just wanna give you all some Psalms that I fine really helpful when I'm low.
Psalm 30,31,32,33,34 and 139.

God bless everyone,

love Mark.

Hi Mark, good to see you here. Looking forward to reading your post to come. Thank you for those psalm and yes I agree the psalms are good. See also psalms 6, 21, 42, 61, 62, 63, 91 and 121

 

[Soulwings]

/me pops in.

Goodness, it's been awhile since I've been here!

I hope you all are managing the hols okay; I know that they're rough for a lot of people ... but we'll make it through okay. 2007 is just around the corner and a new year makes for a fresh start in everything. Just like tomorrow is a new day. Start it off with God, and with Him, nothing is impossible.

Things with me have been okay. I got engaged two weeks ago, and am very happy about that. My photo is me and my fiance, taken in August. Issues-wise, I've been having difficulty with recovery from ED ... SI is practically gone now, thank God!! Today is day 161. Depression hasn't really gone away - it's improved, but it's not gone, and I still have some *really* rough nights, even though I'm at the highest dose of the last-chance AD. I've been wondering (and maybe some of you know?) if it's at all possible for psychs to prescribe past the highest theraputic dose of antidepressants, if the highest dose isn't doing all that it ought.

Anyway, that's enough babbling about me.

Hope you all are okay! Have a lovely evening, and enjoy some hot tea or chocolate or coffee. Pamper yourselves ... it's holiday time and you deserve it.

 

[akaMorninglife]

a while ago my mom asked me if i was ok because lately i haven't been able to hide my depression too well... of course remembering what happened last time, i said i was fine. she wouldn't have actually done anything about it anyway, she thinks just talking with her can fix my problem when she is a notable percentage of my problem. Just talking isn't going to fix anything, i mean I've complained here more than anybody in CF history and I'm still miserable.

i've been doing this for like four and a half years now and why in the hell does everybody else here get medication and i don't. if it will numb my mind to the point of a therapist being able to fool me into thinking i'm happy then i will take that.

 

[AnointedPoetess]

I'm in a bad spot right now.. I need all the prayers I can get!

 

[AnointedPoetess]

/me pops in.

Goodness, it's been awhile since I've been here!

I hope you all are managing the hols okay; I know that they're rough for a lot of people ... but we'll make it through okay. 2007 is just around the corner and a new year makes for a fresh start in everything. Just like tomorrow is a new day. Start it off with God, and with Him, nothing is impossible.

Things with me have been okay. I got engaged two weeks ago, and am very happy about that. My photo is me and my fiance, taken in August. Issues-wise, I've been having difficulty with recovery from ED ... SI is practically gone now, thank God!! Today is day 161. Depression hasn't really gone away - it's improved, but it's not gone, and I still have some *really* rough nights, even though I'm at the highest dose of the last-chance AD. I've been wondering (and maybe some of you know?) if it's at all possible for psychs to prescribe past the highest theraputic dose of antidepressants, if the highest dose isn't doing all that it ought.

Anyway, that's enough babbling about me.

Hope you all are okay! Have a lovely evening, and enjoy some hot tea or chocolate or coffee. Pamper yourselves ... it's holiday time and you deserve it.

Hey April, that is great news! Congrats girlie.. I've missed u so much! glad to hear things r going so well for u. Your update was so encouraging.. I loved it an' its just what I needed! thanks so much. I love who u are blossoming into! such a beautiful spirit.. keep it up!! U are amazing.. Love ya! =)

 

[Judy02]

Hey everyone! How is it all going? Updates please, I'm curious as to how u all are, and so I know what to pray about! xx

 

[LlTeeNuh]

Hey everyone! How is it all going? Updates please, I'm curious as to how u all are, and so I know what to pray about! xx

Well I'm worried... and i know i should be cuz its dumb to worry, BUT now it seems so much that i have to talk to my manager @ mcdonalds so he can switch my hours. the thing is he's a busy man. i'm going back to school for once and i want him to like change it. you ever felt like.. u gotta keep something on ur mind or u'll forget to do it. well i want him to like, okay, when i tell him to remember to change the schedule as soon as possible, becuz i dropped out but im going back.. and like i hate being worried. it sucks! i hate being sad and worried & lonely.... and confused thoughts.

 

[jamie4418]

Dear friends,

I too am suffering from depression and anxiety. I've suffered from them all my life. I've been taking Paxil for the last 7 years. Please please please, if you don't absolutely have to take any medication for depression, don't do it. There are too many side effects, and I haven't been able to come off so far. I've tried many times.

I'm really praying to the Lord. I've seen many doctors, psychiatrists, counsellors, but none of these people seem to be able to help me.

I'm very glad that in August 2006, I came back to the Lord after 7 years of rebellion and sin (on a side note, I urge and beg people to be faithful to the Lord and not to fall away. My belief is that if I died during that time, I probably would have gone to hell.) Now, I'm really seeking the Lord for help. I was really praying today, and I opened up my Bible to Hebrews 12:1-11. I'm not here to preach, or beat anyone over the head with the Bible. But these verses really offer some truth. They show me there is a purpose in our suffering. Some may disagree, and that's totally fine. We are all different.

I'm not gonna just give up to this illness. But now I'm gonna keep seeking God's wisdom and answers. Someone suggested to me to fast once a week. At this time, I haven't even able to fast for 24 hours. But I will try to build myself up. Through fasting, I am showing my desperation to God and giving more power to my prayers. I'm a desperate person, and am hungry for God's help and presence.

God bless you all in this tough journey.

 

[HannahBanana]

Dear friends,

I too am suffering from depression and anxiety. I've suffered from them all my life. I've been taking Paxil for the last 7 years. Please please please, if you don't absolutely have to take any medication for depression, don't do it. There are too many side effects, and I haven't been able to come off so far. I've tried many times.

I'm really praying to the Lord. I've seen many doctors, psychiatrists, counsellors, but none of these people seem to be able to help me.

I'm very glad that in August 2006, I came back to the Lord after 7 years of rebellion and sin (on a side note, I urge and beg people to be faithful to the Lord and not to fall away. My belief is that if I died during that time, I probably would have gone to hell.) Now, I'm really seeking the Lord for help. I was really praying today, and I opened up my Bible to Hebrews 12:1-11. I'm not here to preach, or beat anyone over the head with the Bible. But these verses really offer some truth. They show me there is a purpose in our suffering. Some may disagree, and that's totally fine. We are all different.

I'm not gonna just give up to this illness. But now I'm gonna keep seeking God's wisdom and answers. Someone suggested to me to fast once a week. At this time, I haven't even able to fast for 24 hours. But I will try to build myself up. Through fasting, I am showing my desperation to God and giving more power to my prayers. I'm a desperate person, and am hungry for God's help and presence.

God bless you all in this tough journey.

Such wise words...I totally agree with everything you just said. I, too, have been on a prescription medication (Zoloft) for the past 7 years, and I, too, have had some major difficulties with trying to wean myself off of it in the past. I think that doctors so often think of medications as a way to make their patients shut up about how they're feeling, and don't even mention the fact that the meds themselves are quite addicting (or at least have addictive properties), and hard to stop taking. I wish you luck in your journey of trying to get off of Paxil. Thanks for your kind words, and may your god bless you.

 

[rosenherman]

I am in the pits right now. I felt healed of my depression by God 5 years ago, recently I realized I was putting walls up between me and everyone. I even went a couple (or more, I really don't remember) of weekend without bathing. This is a really bad sign. It's been anxiety kicking my butt before, and that's rearing it's ugly head too. Yesterday I took 3 ativan, Monday I took 2. Until this week I didn't use that many in three weeks or a month. I had a terrific therapist who stopped practicing, he's got a church now in another state so I started with a new one yesterday, she seems really good and I have high hopes she can help.

dh and I had a huge fight on Sunday because I saw an email from a woman, sent to a different email address than the one I knew he had. It came out he's been quite unhappy in our marriage for the last 10 years or so. We'll be married 24 years in June. He feels like I hover/mother/smother him. I felt like I was just trying to make him as happy as I could. I felt like my feelings weren't important, so my unhappiness could be ignored.

 

[Tk101]

Hello everyone,
I'm new to these forums...I would like to start out with My name is Josh, I'm 18, I'm american. i have prospects for my education and life itself... I'm learning several languages...spanish, french japanese and mandarin; hopefully soon ancient hebrew and greek so i can beable to read the ancient scripts... I plan to obtain a double major bachelors degree in engineering from a school abroad...mostlikely in France, UK, spain, Japan, or singapore.I'm currently studing in the cisco academy to improve my job prospects..to save for college..

Most of my life i have been very depressed. Mainly due to how my is turning out, my seemingly inablity to server and edify God correctly, and more personal issues. I really try to do the right thing..but it seems it never comes. I feel lost and incomplete often and my life seems to be cloaked by the vail of darkness...
I know that i am one of Gods chidren becuase. I believe the bible states that sheep will hear the shepard, right?
anyway...Very often i feel a "spiritual" drained and i'm not sure why...not sure how to describe it.... I believe i need fellow christians to help me see my errors and praise God...
I find myself very often talking to God and crying out for help...My mother has told me to be patient and wait for God and to listen for him... As of now i'm trying that... but i dont know if i will "hear" God when he speaks to me

also i feel that God will not occupy me if i have hatred and wrath on my heart... I do have deep loathing or more like an irritation of mankind in general...these feelings are rooted in the behavior of man that i see...i would really like to view mankind alot differently but i'm not sure how to "love" them...I know i should....but its often difficult...


Thank you for your time everyone...

 

[thenewageriseth]

Many of you may have seen me around this site and the forums. I'm thenewageriseth aka Bo Peep.

I'm a sophomore in college.
I should be very happy...but I'm not.
Why should I be happy? Well, let's see:
I have a family. Two parents. 3 siblings (2 sisters, 1 brother)
I have a cousin who is the brain child of a ministry called "Kings Daughters Ministry", and she's an evangelist.
I'm going to college.
I have some nice neighbors
I still have my health, in the midst of worry, etc.
I have a roof over my head, am not exactly poor or in poverty...
yet I'm sad.
It doesn't matter HOW blessed I am compared to others, sometimes...
I still feel awful.

The reasons why I feel the way I do:
For one thing, I used to get compared to an ex-best friend of mine, by my father. He was trying to get me to see the light about the importance of straight As.
I did not follow, and was rebellious and found myself later, in some kind of oblivion, shadowed behind a Student Council President who happened to be my so-called best friend, who the whole school REVERED.
I felt really bad at some point. And maybe jealous.

We stopped keeping in touch after 8th grade.
And HS. Only once, I saw her in HS, after school, visiting, cuz both schools at the time were sister schools. Now my father may compare me to my cousin (same one matter of fact) if the subject comes up, since my cousin strived for good grades and whatnot. All those awards. I think that, for the most part I am NOTHING like my cousin. I procrastinate on some days, I moan, I whine, I'm a real DRAMA QUEEN, when I whine sometimes. I am not a strong person when it comes to situations. I used to be stronger, but it withered away somehow. And I suspect caffiene being involved with my nerves...
and I had a crush on a guy...first time...and it didn't work in my favor for long, cuz he was a skirt chasing womanizer, So, I drifted away from guys for a while. I wasn't always into guys too much anyway. I was a nerdy type, fantasy loving girl, and I still am (esp. FANTASY). He captured my breath, though.

I try to socialize more, but it's kinda hard sometimes, cuz I want to stay to myself. Some days it seems like I'm on the outside looking in, or I'm invisible and all the charming people get the spotlight...my true friend lives FARRRRR away...in Tennessee...

My sisters are autistic. It is no walk in the park being their sister. It is VERY stressful.

My cousin, and many others tell me how blessed I am, though, I don't mean to be selfish, but they don't live inside my head!

There are days when I wish I had a Terabithia or a Narnia or some fantasy land of my own I could escape to. ESCAPE.

 

[.chrys.]

A couple of questions: how do you feel about yourself? Seems you have a good understanding of your perceptions of how others feel about you, but how do you feel about yourself? Do you buy into their observations? If so, why?

These are questions I've asked myself over and over. It seems the only time I get through my depressive moments are when I realize that I'm not as bad as "they" seem to make me out to be.

In fact, I'm all right. And, I suspect you are too!

~Witness

 

[thenewageriseth]

A couple of questions: how do you feel about yourself? Seems you have a good understanding of your perceptions of how others feel about you, but how do you feel about yourself? Do you buy into their observations? If so, why?

These are questions I've asked myself over and over. It seems the only time I get through my depressive moments are when I realize that I'm not as bad as "they" seem to make me out to be.

In fact, I'm all right. And, I suspect you are too!

~Witness

If you are referring to me well... sometimes I feel like a burden around the house. Or I feel mediocre. I try not to buy into those perceptions...
I'm calm right now, at a PC at school

 

[Jeshu]

Hello everyone,
I'm new to these forums...I would like to start out with My name is Josh, I'm 18, I'm american. i have prospects for my education and life itself... I'm learning several languages...spanish, french japanese and mandarin; hopefully soon ancient hebrew and greek so i can beable to read the ancient scripts... I plan to obtain a double major bachelors degree in engineering from a school abroad...mostlikely in France, UK, spain, Japan, or singapore.I'm currently studing in the cisco academy to improve my job prospects..to save for college..

Most of my life i have been very depressed. Mainly due to how my is turning out, my seemingly inablity to server and edify God correctly, and more personal issues. I really try to do the right thing..but it seems it never comes. I feel lost and incomplete often and my life seems to be cloaked by the vail of darkness...
I know that i am one of Gods chidren becuase. I believe the bible states that sheep will hear the shepard, right?
anyway...Very often i feel a "spiritual" drained and i'm not sure why...not sure how to describe it.... I believe i need fellow christians to help me see my errors and praise God...
I find myself very often talking to God and crying out for help...My mother has told me to be patient and wait for God and to listen for him... As of now i'm trying that... but i dont know if i will "hear" God when he speaks to me

also i feel that God will not occupy me if i have hatred and wrath on my heart... I do have deep loathing or more like an irritation of mankind in general...these feelings are rooted in the behavior of man that i see...i would really like to view mankind alot differently but i'm not sure how to "love" them...I know i should....but its often difficult...


Thank you for your time everyone...

Hi
I feel that your loathing of the human race is your downfall. Our Father in heaven loves the human race and made redemption posiible through His Son. Please consider forgiving mankind as well, as it would change the whole outlook you have of life.
I myself have seen much evil and wrong - worked the streets of one of Ausralia's major cities - and also I had a real hard time forgiving the wrongdoers - especially those in power. But God taught me that unforgiveness brings bitterness and bitterness brings depression. In the end your become a victim of your own anger.

All the best with your studies.


Gerry

 

[.chrys.]

If you are referring to me well... sometimes I feel like a burden around the house. Or I feel mediocre. I try not to buy into those perceptions...
I'm calm right now, at a PC at school

I was referring to you (and me--as what I'd written applies to me as well). I think it's great that you don't buy into those perceptions! That is a healthy attitude to have, in my opinion.

Blessings to you today!

~Witness