Depression Support

[newyorknewyork]

So far, I am having a bad day. I normally try to see the beauty in everyone and in the world, but today all I've seen is other people who only see the "ugly" in people. I came to CF to get away from those types of people; I thought Christians would see other people the way Christ sees them, but it turns out that many apparently do not.

aww I'm sorry to hear this!

I hope you feel better soon maycontainnuts!

yeah thats hard and tough hey.. thats why i don't like telling people im a christian sometimes because then they will have an expectation of me that i should be perfect.

Christians are no different to anyone else. they smoke, swear, lie, lust, worry, steal and everything else under the sun that everyone else does!

I know we are supposed to be strong and better people but the truth is we aren't. All we all are is sinners! Jesus' gift of grace and life is for everyone ! Christians still sin.

I really wish I knew what else to say.. but I don't

I wish that I could wave a magic wand and be healed and strong and mature and perfect. But I can;'t and ill never be able to. I wish you could all be healed in an instant too. I wish Jesus would take away all our pain!

 

[newyorknewyork]

I'm doing alright, thanks for asking. A little bit better as days go on and I try to do things that keep my mind from focusing on the thoughts and the past. Although, I'm in need of a hug. I just....that's what I'm craving right now. Just a good hug. One where I feel like I don't want to let go. It's been a LONG time since I've had a hug like that. Enough about me, how are you?

How is everyone else here doing??

I wish I could give you a big hug!

Do you have friends or family that can give you a big bear hug?

Judy - great advice! you are right! God WON"T ever let us down even tho ppl do.

 

[newyorknewyork]

Thank you. I do feel better now. I can't focus on stuff like that; I need to just focus on the big picture and on God. Today I was just appalled by some of the harsh words I saw people saying on here, but you know what.. that's their problem.

yep!! you are right!! i heard someone say recently that if someone is nasty to you, ask yourself this question:

Whose problem is it? Who is the one with the issues?

YOU or THEM?

obviously its not you - its THEM!!

 

[newyorknewyork]

Does cutting automatically say that "I've got a bad relationship with God"?

i honeslty don't know the answer to this question sorry

i think Jesus would look upon you when you are cutting and he would be crying that you are in so much pain...

 

[Eponine]

i honeslty don't know the answer to this question sorry

i think Jesus would look upon you when you are cutting and he would be crying that you are in so much pain...

Oh my goodness, those are such beautiful pictures. They brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing, Tsuriyel.

 

[Soulwings]

I agree with Laurelin. Thank you for sharing those pictures I especially liked the second one from the top. It only brings to life the feelings that I suppose Jesus really does have for us. How He cares for us. That we're really worth something to Him. Thanks

 

[newyorknewyork]

Oh my goodness, those are such beautiful pictures. They brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing, Tsuriyel.

you're very welcome Laurelin! how are you? happy easter

 

[newyorknewyork]

I agree with Laurelin. Thank you for sharing those pictures I especially liked the second one from the top. It only brings to life the feelings that I suppose Jesus really does have for us. How He cares for us. That we're really worth something to Him. Thanks

I'm so glad you liked the pictures soulwings. I also love them. How are you doing? Happy easter

 

[Eponine]

Better now, though not 100%. It's still iffy whether I'll be going to swim tomorrow. I've been absolutely miserably sick since Friday night. Even had to miss my voice lesson, and I couldn't altar serve at Mass this morning either.

 

[newyorknewyork]

Better now, though not 100%. It's still iffy whether I'll be going to swim tomorrow. I've been absolutely miserably sick since Friday night. Even had to miss my voice lesson, and I couldn't altar serve at Mass this morning either.

aww hope you feel better soon!!

 

[Eponine]

Thanks.

 

[AnointedPoetess]

Do I matter anywhere?? gosh..

 

[Judy02]

Oh wow...I feel so awful tonight, and today hasnt even been that bad! I hate life so much, im sick of having to put up with 1 day after another, and i feel really angry with god right now, for not healing me, and every other person here suffering from it right now! sorry, i know im not saying/thinking the "right" stuff at the moment, but this just seems to be how i feel right now... I am so sick of having to bear day after day after day...

I'm seeing a woman i know from church this week, who i think has had depression. I havent spoken to many christians about depression, that havent been over the internet yet, so i really hope it goes well.

I really hope i havent made anyone else feel worse...just wanted to let out some of my frustrations out...


how is everyone else?

 

[Soulwings]

/me hugs everyone.

I really wish that I could just ... snap my fingers and take your pain away. I really wish I could ... wishes don't amount to anything ... so you all are in my prayers. There is better stuff for you. There is ALWAYS hope. s

Crystal - you're wanted here. We love you. You matter here. To me, and to everyone else.

Judy I know what you mean about being sick of putting up with day after day of feeling like crap. I'm glad that you're seeing a woman from church, talking in person helps soo much more than talking online. Best of luck. And this is the place for letting out frustration, so ... go for it!

 

[AnointedPoetess]

/me hugs everyone.

I really wish that I could just ... snap my fingers and take your pain away. I really wish I could ... wishes don't amount to anything ... so you all are in my prayers. There is better stuff for you. There is ALWAYS hope. s

Crystal - you're wanted here. We love you. You matter here. To me, and to everyone else.

Judy I know what you mean about being sick of putting up with day after day of feeling like crap. I'm glad that you're seeing a woman from church, talking in person helps soo much more than talking online. Best of luck. And this is the place for letting out frustration, so ... go for it!

Thanks april, i REALLY needed to hear that bc for a minute i felt like i wasnt at all to anyone here. I struggle alot with self worth and self esteem.. it sucks! April, u are really important to me as well.. its like once we met we connected and i hope its like that for every1 else here too with each other! I understand what judy said also bc i get tired of dealing with days too.. its hard but we Jesus we can all conquer!! Oh and april, just like u told us, im telling u.. " There is better stuff for u and there is ALWAYS hope" I love u hun! and every 1 else..

 

[Restoredsoul]

thanks RS, you're a great encourager!

God bless you for your willingness to encourage others. Know that your pain is not in vain because you are now able to relate to others.

I will continue to support and encourage others - things can seem so bleak at times abut God is there - even when he seems silent.

He has wonderful plans for us all - and although we may not understand where we are now - we are heading towards so much brilliance.

You are all loved so immensly you will never comprehend it.

Big hugs to you all
RS xxx

 

[Mayflower1]

Not feeling too well right now...

 

[Soulwings]

Aww Lily What's up, sweetie?

Thanks Crystal, I needed to hear that now too. Things aren't going too great, but ... maybe someday. I'm just so tired of fighting everything; I know that sounds all melodramatic and stuff, but honestly - is there really any point in not cutting and not starving? I'm trying to justify recovery (or rather, not recovery, but relapse) ... I'm having such a hard time committing to recovery and I'm not really sure if I want to fight anymore. I just want to give up ... but I can't do that, and as a friend pointed out, sometimes giving up is harder than going onward.

How are you all doing tonight? Praying for you guys. I'm here if you need me.

 

[Eponine]

s and prayers for all here.

I'm probably doing better than my mom at the moment, mentally at least; her friend's sister just died yesterday. It seems rather ironic considering that I lost my brother 3 1/2 years ago, but I really don't know what to do or say. Not that I have a lot of opportunities to do or say anything; my worthless school is overworking her as usual.

 

[AnointedPoetess]

Wow laurelin, thats so sad! I'm praying for you both, hugs!!