Depression Support

[newyorknewyork]

Don't worry about it; it was my pleasure to answer. I've met a few other non-Nicean Christians over in LT; they tend to be very considerate and compassionate people, as are the people here. *Sighs as she hears her brother's girlfriend saying goodbye to her dad* Trevor and Tara deigned to join us for a little this evening. I suppose I should tell Trevor just how much it hurts not to get to spend as much time with him; it's almost like I'm losing another brother, only this time it's almost worse in a way because he's right there working at my school and his girlfriend is my swim coach and he still chooses to basically ignore our family most days of the week. But I'm not the confrontational type, really; I suppose most of my reluctance in this case is because I don't feel I can or should ask him to spend more time with me. Still, it's playing right into my low self-esteem; no matter how much I know otherwise I can't help but feel like the reason he's abandoning me is I'm not good enough for him.

aww Laurelin, i hope you feel better soon... something I am learning is HOW exactly to cling to Jesus when people reject me/hurt me and stuff like that.

I hear you and I feel for you.

 

[newyorknewyork]

how r u RS?

 

[Restoredsoul]

Have phoned my teaching union and need to speak to my union rep - as i think i need outside people to come in - have been assaulted by pupils twice in the last 3 weeks - i work in a unit but it is still not on - am not being supported properly really - feel a bit low. I feel as if the management have dismissed what happened as if i should just be able to get on with it. And then i feel like a loser for being emotionally drained by it all ...

 

[Soulwings]

RS. You aren't a loser for being drained because of it; sounds like a lot has been going on. I'll be praying that things work out okay.

Aww Laurelin ... maybe you should talk to him? because I'm sure that he doesn't think that you aren't good enough for him. If you talk about it with him you can clear it up some.

Tsuriyel, how are things going with you? Take some time to tell us how your job is going, how fighting depression is going.

Hope everyone is doing alright this morning. Hugs all around.

 

[Mayflower1]

I feel a little numb... My father is to blame... he isn't even around any more and he is still causing trouble... a memory came back and my worst fear is real...

 

[Restoredsoul]

lily - big hugs - i pray that God will heal your mind and that he will give you a sense of peace about this
Rs xxx

 

[Restoredsoul]

Thanks Soulwings - all the teaching staff at the unit are having a union meeting on friday and then we are going to get the union to come in and sort things out - i feel better after speaking to them - had a letter from the police when i got in - they are investigating my assualt as abh.

RS xxx

 

[zoesahm24]

Hiya guys
Im sorry you feel this way today..... When I feel like that I remind myself that we are made in gods image..... He loves us the way we are and it is our minds telling us these hurtful lies..... we are all special to our father

I find that this helps me alot...... Hope you feel better soon and you are in my thoughts and prayers

Zoe

 

[Restoredsoul]

Am so tired but wanted to say that i am thinking of you all in my prayers... that i pray that God will touch each one of your lives.

I am in a valley right now but i can still see the glorious light of Christ lighting my path - I know that my God reigns sovereign over all of this.

Even at this point i see answers to prayer - i have received a number of texts and phone calls from supportive friends and i know that God is looking out for me through them - he never leaves us to fight these battles alone.

I praise God for this forum - for this thread - for this chance to share and encourage.

Big hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Soulwings]

RS. Thank you for the encouragement and prayers; they are much appreciated.

I'm not doing too well tonight. Really stressed out over uni issues; the last two weeks before finals, and I've got SO much stuff to do. Even before Friday. And the week is almost halfway done, and how much have I got accomplished? Nearly NOTHING.

Eww. Just... EWWWWWWW. I hate this week.

 

[Eponine]

RS. You aren't a loser for being drained because of it; sounds like a lot has been going on. I'll be praying that things work out okay.

Aww Laurelin ... maybe you should talk to him? because I'm sure that he doesn't think that you aren't good enough for him. If you talk about it with him you can clear it up some.

Tsuriyel, how are things going with you? Take some time to tell us how your job is going, how fighting depression is going.

Hope everyone is doing alright this morning. Hugs all around.

*Wanders in, a little tired but not as tired as usual* I could get to like taper week in swim. Of course, I'm not looking forward to having to swim league finals the same day as my AP European History exam...

As for Trev, he's home again tonight (the first time in at least a month he's been home two nights in a row except when my parents made him stay with me while they were out of town) but I need to get off and do homework now and then I'll be going to bed so I don't think I would have a chance to talk to him about that even if I were inclined to, which I'm still not.

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

I could use some prayers right now because one of my old friends who I haven't talked to in the past few months just did something that hurt me really badly. This is the first time I have cried in months and I am so mad. I thought I was done letting that person cause me to hurt but they found a way to hurt me even though I stopped contacting them.

 

[Restoredsoul]

I could use some prayers right now because one of my old friends who I haven't talked to in the past few months just did something that hurt me really badly. This is the first time I have cried in months and I am so mad. I thought I was done letting that person cause me to hurt but they found a way to hurt me even though I stopped contacting them.

Hey hun,
That's a real tough break but just remember that you are a child of God, loved unconditionally - this person may have hurt you but God will not put you through more than you can take - It's ok to cry - a release of the stresses etc externally is a good thing not a sign of weakness.

We are all only human and sometimes people can hurt us real bad and we just can't understand it - i know how you feel but just try to think of all the positive people you have in your life who will be there for you.

Rs xxx

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

Hey hun,
That's a real tough break but just remember that you are a child of God, loved unconditionally - this person may have hurt you but God will not put you through more than you can take - It's ok to cry - a release of the stresses etc externally is a good thing not a sign of weakness.

We are all only human and sometimes people can hurt us real bad and we just can't understand it - i know how you feel but just try to think of all the positive people you have in your life who will be there for you.

Rs xxx

Thanks for your support. I have this strong urge to contact the person and ask them why they did what they did. There is NO WAY that person could have thought that what they did wouldn't hurt me and that bothers me so much. But if I were to contact them, they would reply. And if they replied, then we would be communicating again, which would just open up more opportunities for me to get hurt. I don't understand what made them do what they did yesterday but maybe this will be the last time they ever hurt me. What has happened has just further convinced me that they aren't worth it.

 

[newyorknewyork]

Have phoned my teaching union and need to speak to my union rep - as i think i need outside people to come in - have been assaulted by pupils twice in the last 3 weeks - i work in a unit but it is still not on - am not being supported properly really - feel a bit low. I feel as if the management have dismissed what happened as if i should just be able to get on with it. And then i feel like a loser for being emotionally drained by it all ...

so you are a teacher?

aww i hope it all gets worked out soon!

you are NOT a loser for feeling crap because you have been assaulted by students!!

ringing the union is a great idea!! they should help you!!

if not.. talk to management if u can.. let us know what happens!

 

[newyorknewyork]

lily.. how are you doing? i hope things get worked out soon.. what do u mean when you say your worst fear has come true?

laurelin, i hope your voice comes back soon!!

maycontainnuts, i really feel for you.. i have also been hurt by people close to me and i can relate so much when you say you really struggle with whether or not you should EVEN REPLY when they say something hurtful because i can't help but think they will then reply and hurt me even more and ... it will just get worse and worse... big hugs and prayers coming your way...

Restoredsoul, sweetie you have the gift of encouragement!! despite all you are goin thru, you are so encouraging to everyone else on here!! bless you for that!! i am so glad to here that the police are involved and that the union is now helping you.. unions can be wonderful supports!! tell us how it all works out ok..

zoe.. i am so glad you joined this thread.. its such a blessing meeting each and every new person that comes in here. .. i can relate to you so much.. trying to get rid of those lies in my mind and somehow believe the truth about me that i DO indeed have some sort of worth and value.. take care sweety!

soulwings, you are awesome!! thank you so much for asking me how i am going i really appreciate that! thankyou! Work is fine.. im coming home each day totally exhausted! Working with little kids is really really tiring! lol! But its a blessing to have this job - its close to home and its reasonably enjoyable. the pay is not bad too and im noticing working again is increasing my self confidence.. i feel proud of myself when my boss hands me my paycheck.. it feels nice...
marriage is AWESOME. my husband is the best thing in my life other than God himself. I am so blessed. I must never forget that. I am wishing I was more mature. I wish things didn't affect me so much. I wish I was better at stuff.. but i have to remind myself.. one step at a time.. i have to stop beating up on myself and expecting too much of myself.. i need to exercise too.. im so lazy

 

[Restoredsoul]

Restoredsoul, sweetie you have the gift of encouragement!! despite all you are goin thru, you are so encouraging to everyone else on here!! bless you for that!! i am so glad to here that the police are involved and that the union is now helping you.. unions can be wonderful supports!! tell us how it all works out ok..

tsuriyel - you are a wonderful person who needs to give herself a break thank you for your kind words - i'm glad i have the opportunity to help others even in my dark times.

maycontainnuts - don't bother contacting the person it will only leave you feeling worse and you may not even get an answer - i'm sorry you are feeling hurt

Soulwings - hope you're doing ok? Just remember we are all here and that God is with you always

Lily - i pray for peace for you that your memories will not haunt your precious mind.

To everyone who posts here i pray that God blesses your lives, i pray that he gives you the true peace that passes all understanding, i pray that you feel his arms hoding you in the dark places and that you will soon soar like eagles...

Rs xxx

 

[Eponine]

*Wanders in yawning* I wish all this swimming were doing me more good...

 

[Judy02]

sigh, feel terrible today

Got final exams coming upnext month and an individual presentation on tues, and feel i cant cope anymore! my degree really rests on these final exams, and im starting to get stressed again, and its making me really depressed. anyone else in this position? i hate life, wish god would let me die, i really do, but he wont. cant see any hope in the future

 

[Restoredsoul]

sigh, feel terrible today

Got final exams coming upnext month and an individual presentation on tues, and feel i cant cope anymore! my degree really rests on these final exams, and im starting to get stressed again, and its making me really depressed. anyone else in this position? i hate life, wish god would let me die, i really do, but he wont. cant see any hope in the future

Hey hun,
Sorry you are feeling low
I remember how i felt trying to do my dissertation and it seemed that i would never get through - i remember the stress i felt.

I'm sure you will do fine - you have got this far and you can go all the way

I konw what's it's like to feel you just want it all to end but you have so much to look forward to. You will get the work done and you will shine - there is always hope our hope is in Jesus - he died that we may have life. I know right yours feels too tough but you can do this - i beleive in you and i know that God does too

Rs xxx