Depression Support

[Soulwings]

/me peeks back in

It's been awhile since I've been here!

 

[Restoredsoul]

/me peeks back in

It's been awhile since I've been here!

Hey how's you??
Rs xx

 

[Judy02]

Hey hun,
Trust me you wouldn't want everyone to like you because then you would not have time to develop real lasting friendships - i have a small circle of friends and it means i can spend the time developing my friendships with them.

There will be people who dislike us for no reason and it can be very hurtful but you have to remember that the best people will want ot know you and like you and the more you relax and are who you are the more people will be drawn to you - there is something really appealing about vulnerable honesty in people.

Hugs
Rs xxx

Very well said!

 

[notallwhowanderarelost]

Thanks for opening a thread for people to, well I guess just be open about what's going on in their lives. I hope I can be open, I find it hard. I guess there are things I've just bottled up inside for so long thinking no-one would understand, or would just judge me if they knew. Sometimes I don't know why I have this depression when I've not been through so much that other's have, yet here I am feeling insecure and small, scared to be who I am incase I'm just rejected.

I just somehow have lost hope in my life, I'm trying to get to the bottom of it all, and a book I've been reading has helped me realise that I really just don't like who I am. I'm trying to change this, but just find it hard.

 

[Julianne]

I've been reading this book that my neighbour left me called "Taming the black dog" it's done in simple little cartoons.. it gives postive reinforcement. I found it very helpful in understanding my depression. I would highly recommend reading it.

 

[Abstract Devotion]

when i get back tonight ill post my story.....can you all pray that i make it through tonight and not chicken out in the middle and come home? Pls? thankyou....

 

[Judy02]

when i get back tonight ill post my story.....can you all pray that i make it through tonight and not chicken out in the middle and come home? Pls? thankyou....

Praying for you hun! xx

 

[Judy02]

Thanks for opening a thread for people to, well I guess just be open about what's going on in their lives. I hope I can be open, I find it hard. I guess there are things I've just bottled up inside for so long thinking no-one would understand, or would just judge me if they knew. Sometimes I don't know why I have this depression when I've not been through so much that other's have, yet here I am feeling insecure and small, scared to be who I am incase I'm just rejected.

I just somehow have lost hope in my life, I'm trying to get to the bottom of it all, and a book I've been reading has helped me realise that I really just don't like who I am. I'm trying to change this, but just find it hard.

Aww, my sympathies are with u huni! I think compared to some people, I've not had much trauma in my life, and I feel weak coz I've had such awful depression, even to the point where I used to be suicidal.What was the book u were reading? Never ever dislike who u are though, and never let anyone let you feel that way hun. I used to dislike myself, but we're all on the same journey with quite a way to go. God loves u, and the bible has loads of positive things to say about his people. We're all just a work in progress if u like, but ur a very special person. Don't hate who you are. PM me if u wana talk more or post on here, we're all here for you xx

 

[Judy02]

I've been reading this book that my neighbour left me called "Taming the black dog" it's done in simple little cartoons.. it gives postive reinforcement. I found it very helpful in understanding my depression. I would highly recommend reading it.

Hey there. Sounds quite interesting, might check it out! xx

 

[paperdaisy]

Thanks for opening a thread for people to, well I guess just be open about what's going on in their lives. I hope I can be open, I find it hard. I guess there are things I've just bottled up inside for so long thinking no-one would understand, or would just judge me if they knew. Sometimes I don't know why I have this depression when I've not been through so much that other's have, yet here I am feeling insecure and small, scared to be who I am incase I'm just rejected.

I just somehow have lost hope in my life, I'm trying to get to the bottom of it all, and a book I've been reading has helped me realise that I really just don't like who I am. I'm trying to change this, but just find it hard.

I really get this. I feel that way and I have tried everything (which is why I'm here to ask for prayers, perhaps prayers are the difference?) to change my outlook but its so dark and so hard to be strong when you can't share this with anyone else. That feeling of lonliness and smallness that starts on the inside and has the potential to become your reality if youre not very careful is so draining and consumes all your energy. Its awful.

I hope you have success and much better days ahead, and not just what everyone else sees.

 

[Restoredsoul]

Hey guys

Everyone has been a little quiet on here recently so i'm checking in to see if you're all ok?

Thinking of you
Rs xxx

 

[Eponine]

*Shrugs* I'm managing somehow. I finally got fed up enough to have it out with my brother about moving in with Tara and, for the most part, ignoring our family. I started a temporary full-time job working in the computer lab at my school getting the computers ready for next year, which has been going pretty well. And yesterday's swim meet went surprisingly well despite my injury issues, though not as well as I might have hoped. Still, I wish Trevor had been there to see it. He's in Hawaii, however, with his girlfriend even though it was Father's Day yesterday. Just thinking about that makes me so angry and depressed... he just went to Hawaii 2 months ago! Someone needs to teach that kid a lesson but he won't listen to anyone now that he's an adult. Except his girlfriend, that is, but she's not going to tell him to spend more time with his family. Funny how spending time with hers is never a problem for him... I swear, he may as well not be my brother anymore.

 

[Judy02]

Hey! I'm quite good at the mo thanx RS!

Just very busy trying to search for jobs, now that I'm no longer a student haha. I just found one I like a 2 hour train ride from me but they only want 11.5 hours a week, so it might be doable. I've got my heart set on one kinda field now, heh, dunno if im being a lil inflexible or not.

Hows everything with you? Married life and everything else treating you well?

How has everyone else here been lately? xxx

Hope you're all ok

 

[Restoredsoul]

Hey Laurelin - sorry to hear about your bro - must ne tough feeling left out of his life like that? I'm not sure what the answer is... eventually he will realise he needs his family but that doesn't make it any easier for you.

Hey Judy - married life is treating me very well - i adore it! Things at work are improving and i'm enjoying my life - relaxing and enjoying each day rather than looking forward all the time - just living in the present moment.

Hope the job hunting goes well - if you know what you want to do then stick with it - just remember a long journey will make you extra tired

Hugs
RS xxx

 

[Abstract Devotion]

Praying for you hun! xx

Thanks! It actually went really good that night... I stayed out despite my *fears* or whatever you wanna call it and in the end actually learned something about the people around me.... so it was a good night... ill be back....

 

[Eponine]

Hey Laurelin - sorry to hear about your bro - must ne tough feeling left out of his life like that? I'm not sure what the answer is... eventually he will realise he needs his family but that doesn't make it any easier for you.

Hey Judy - married life is treating me very well - i adore it! Things at work are improving and i'm enjoying my life - relaxing and enjoying each day rather than looking forward all the time - just living in the present moment.

Hope the job hunting goes well - if you know what you want to do then stick with it - just remember a long journey will make you extra tired

Hugs
RS xxx

Tough? Is it ever, especially 'cause he's the only brother I've got left. I don't know what the answer is either... I do realize that it's time for him to go off and start his own family and all that, I just wish there was a way we could somehow do both.

 

[lmarie23]

Hi I'm Lynne, nice to meet all of you. I'm 23 and I was diagnosed a few years ago as bipolar/ borderline personality disorder, but mostly I have the depression side of the bipolar disorder. I've posted a little on the bipolar and borderline boards but I thought I would check this board out too, if that's ok.

I'm a college student, a senior majoring in children's book illustration. I have a few part-time summer jobs but still a lot of time on my hands this summer, which seems to mean I spend a lot of time alone, lost in thought, and keep falling into depression. I'm a kind of person who needs to keep busy, and when I spend too much time alone with my thoughts I just get more and more depressed.

I'm seeing a Christian counselor, who is helping me work out some of my issues, like the problem I have with love and stuff. He's really been a blessing to my life. I also currently have been struggling with a fear of driving, not of basic driving but of driving in unfamiliar places, and in busy areas. Which is a problem because one of my part-time jobs is in a city an hour away. I always kind of panic when I have to go there to work, though I know it's kind of silly. Especially since I've done it so many times now without incident.

My counselor told me once that depression has been defined as "anger turned inward." If that's true, then I'm definitely depressed. I'm a person who never gets angry with other people - I love people, and I just simply never get upset with them, but I'm always so hard on myself, always so angry with myself about things. I really beat myself up about things. I know this isn't healthy, but somehow it seems better than getting angry with other people.

I also have other symptoms of depression - I sleep all the time, I lack motivation to do things, I'm withdrawn. But i'm working on being more social and keeping busier. It's a process . Anyways, there you are. Just thought I would share my situation a little.

Lynne

 

[Restoredsoul]

Hey Lynne,
Thanks for sharing
It's good that you are seeing a counselor an finding it helpful - sounds as though you are getting to grips with things - but it's tough sometimes hey?

Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Restoredsoul]

Tough? Is it ever, especially 'cause he's the only brother I've got left. I don't know what the answer is either... I do realize that it's time for him to go off and start his own family and all that, I just wish there was a way we could somehow do both.

Does he live near you when he's not away? How do you get on with his gf? Is it worth trying to strike up a relationship with her so that you can see more of your brother?

Rs xxx

 

[Eponine]

Does he live near you when he's not away? How do you get on with his gf? Is it worth trying to strike up a relationship with her so that you can see more of your brother?

Rs xxx

Yes; they live about half an hour away from me. I get along alright with her, or I did before they started going out. She's been one of the assistant swim coaches for the past two years, so I knew her when they started going out. Not that I had even the slightest involvement in getting them together; I was flabbergasted when I found out. She didn't seem like the sort of person he'd like. I guess I could try that but I wouldn't know how to start now that the swim season is over... especially since I wasn't exactly nice to her this past season; I consider her to blame, in part, for the whole mess with Trevor.