depression- self harm

[lisawc]

I feel for you.....very much......and know all too well, what it's like, that you're goin' thru...
I have bipolar disorder....and during panic attacks, I would cut myself......altho, I wasn't always "aware" of what I was doin'....during such episodes.....but, afterwards....I'd see the damage I had done to myself.....I have an AWESOME Christian therapist....an he explained to me...my reactions to such attacks.....were a way to focus the pain elsewhere.....I can't recall it 'feeling good'....but it all made sense to me....I feel tremendously blessed.......for the Lord had led me to Christian people in the medical field, emergency field....an so on....ev'ry time "something" happened....there were Christians present.....dr's, police officers, fire fighters, an so on.....it's so hard.....I know.....to talk to people....esp in person.....I know....believe me, do I ever know.....but you've made a start....you opened up here......an that's a beginning.....and I can see you're trying......but in all that you do.....don't condemn yourself......an esp don't set yourself as an outcast [not saying you are.....but I know I did...an did so, for such a long time.....took me 31 yrs to seek help]......

I hope, in the least bit, that I've helped some.....realize tho.....it's a medical condition.....an not a condition of faith [if that makes sense]

with love an understanding,
lisawc

 

[daughter of the king]

thanks everyone for replying, and thanks for your encoragement and advice. i haven't done anything (as in getting help) Yet. but I have got to the point now that I know I have to do something.
I am going away on friday for at least 10 days maybe more so maybe i wil do something about it once I get back.
thanks a lot sorry for being a nusance
love ya all
Lizzie

 

[Jenna]

Don't worry babe, no one here thinks that you or the problems that you are dealing with are a nusance.

I hope that your trip can be a healing time for you.

 

[daughter of the king]

i don't know that i want to go on this trip, but hey!!
i am doing OK today. Thanks jenna but i feel like a nusance!!

 

[westwitch]

Originally posted by daughter of the king
hey
i haven't posted much about myself for a while.
but am getting worse, i am findding myself wanting to harm myself more and more.
I don't cut (yet) i have tryed but the stupid knife wasn't sharp enough. i snap hair ties a heak of a lot. i was talking to my friend who made me take the hair tie off and don't touch it for the rest of the day. which is proving to be very hard!! Just not to do it for a few hours.
another friends trying to get me to talk to this lady but i don't know. i am freaking out.
well g2g i just was wondering if you guys could pray and give me any advice or help you might have.
thanks
sorry
bye
Lizzie

 

i've been a self injurer since i was nine years old. and i have the scars to prove it...as well as a few hospitalizations under my belt. have you started cutting yourself? if not, please don't because the addiction to it forms easily and very quickly. if you need to talk, please pm. i would also suggest reading "cutting" by stephen levenkron and "bright red scream" by another author whose name slips my mind. and snapping rubber bands on your wrist does help. so does not injuring agression like pillow fights. if you need a release go to your car and scream, or go for a run, whatever. if you need to talk let me know, i'm not all that bad. and good luck, whatever happens.

 

[daughter of the king]

Originally posted by westwitch
 

i've been a self injurer since i was nine years old. and i have the scars to prove it...as well as a few hospitalizations under my belt. have you started cutting yourself? if not, please don't because the addiction to it forms easily and very quickly. if you need to talk, please pm. i would also suggest reading "cutting" by stephen levenkron and "bright red scream" by another author whose name slips my mind. and snapping rubber bands on your wrist does help. so does not injuring agression like pillow fights. if you need a release go to your car and scream, or go for a run, whatever. if you need to talk let me know, i'm not all that bad. and good luck, whatever happens.

wow you started SIing at nine!! thats scary!!
No i haven't started cutting myself, but i do other things but nothing real sever.
i don't have a car!! but theres a park just by my house so i go sit there, kick sand, or write in it when i am mad sometimes. i'll do anything to get out of the house sometimes.

 

[blerg1234]

I know exactly what it's like to feel worthless, like you have absolutely nothing... In fact I've been going through that situation for several years and still am. The only hope I have left is that soon I'll be able to start teaching drums professionally and that the girl I like feels the same way about me... I've felt this way because I've never really had the opportunity to spend time with any of my friends, and the worst part is just about all my friends live 20+ minutes away (driving) so that makes it even harder.

I've never tried to hurt myself or anything, but when I was younger I tried to kill myself a couple of times (when I say younger, I mean under the age of 10... no jokes there) but since then I've realised that it's not worth the pain you would cause other people, and that God has a future for me that I don't have the right to interrupt.

So just look out for yourself... Spend time with other people as much as you can and your mind will relax, and you'll help yourself to not think about these things too much.

 

[daughter of the king]

Well after tonight I am going away for ten days so if i don't post or reply etc I am still fine just I am going away with my family, should be interesting!!!!! So yeah if ya still cam pray for me that would be great.
Love ya all heaps
Lizzie

 

[daughter of the king]

well i have just sent someone an eamil saying i need to talk my friend made me now i am freaking!!

 

[seebs]

Don't worry. People are looking out for you. You'll be fine. No one will hate you, no one will hurt you. See if you can get someone to make you some hot chocolate.

 

[blerg1234]

chocolate is always good

except you stress out when you've got none left stupid non-existant endless-packs of chocolate

 

[NathanStinson]

Ill keep ya in my prayers

 

[daughter of the king]

ta

 

[seebs]

Originally posted by daughter of the king
Well after tonight I am going away for ten days so if i don't post or reply etc I am still fine just I am going away with my family, should be interesting!!!!! So yeah if ya still cam pray for me that would be great.

Will do. Be sure to post and let us know how you're doing when you get back.

 

[carmen]

Have a good Holiday,
Will be praying for you Lizzie.

 

[risen_sweet_angel]

Hi! I can so relate to you. I'm recovering from a couple of forms of self injury right now. I've been clean for a bit over a year now I supose it is. But it's a hard battle and I still occasionally struggle with it. I've done similar things to what you're doing with the hair tie now. If you EVER want to talk about it further with me, please feel free and feel NO shame. I am not here to judge you. I am here to be a friend if you care to use me for such. *hugs* I promise it will get easier. First you have to continue working on dealing with the emotions surrounding it though. You've admitted the problem already. That's one of the BIGGEST steps. I had a lot of trouble even admitting I had a problem. I thought everyone was sad all the time just like me. I learned otherwise. Again, if you wish to talk to me further about this, feel free. *hugs* We all care!!

 

[daughter of the king]

hello everyone!!
I am back. Yah its good to be home! the holiday was good! the first 5 days were really good after that i was ready to go home. the beach was so nice!!! and it was soooo nice and sunny, but now I am sun burnt!!
I have been pretty good!! thanks for your prayers!! keep them up!! thanks you guys are the best.
well g2g i will try and post tomorrow
love ya all
Lizzie

 

[GodOwnsMe]

welcome back Lizzie !! glad you had a cool time

 

[daughter of the king]

i did something really stupid.................i cut myself...............not badly just enought to make me bleed, but it still scared me.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

*big squeezy hug*