Hi Brian,
I've never actually read one of your posts before so obviously dont know your full situation, except what Jenna has told me, if im correct as well as all this there has been a recent court case, hows that going, or is it over now? Do you just suffer depression or have you also got physical disabilities, sorry to ask its just easier to pray for you. You sound very desperate at the moment, and i know even with your MH issues, this gets worse when the DHSS start messing you around, kind of been there, done it, and got the tee-shirt as we all say in England, but i do support these people daily, have you got a key worker, or a social worker or a number for Assertive Outreach in your area, they work 24/7, if not PM me and I'll send you the No in your area.
Secondly I know that the way you feel at the moment makes you feel like giving up and your not even sure wether you believe in God etc etc, but however you feel God is still at your side, and will not let you go. You'll come out of this depression Love, and you'll see and feel stronger in the battle your fighting now. You really need to start back on your antidepressents and let yourself rest at present, as far as food etc is concerned over the weekend I do have no that can help in your area.
Lord Jesus,
You hear every cry from Brians heart, you know him inside out, and you never put us through anything we cant cope with even though it seems we cant, I ask Lord that you'll help and guide Brian through this time, show him something unexpexted, something that shows you are present in his life. And by faith may he no you are with him. Amen
Im-revived
i'm so sick of my life i wish it would end the sooner the better i'm in so much pain its constant now i can't go out much as i have panic attacks so i don't go 2 church my money hasn't come in i was suposew 2 have it by 5 pm uk time 2 day but they lied 2 me again so i have no food for the weekend now i'm so sick if not beng able 21 do thing like have a shave do the washing up keep my flat tidy on only mandge to have bath one in a while my strenght is going my will 2 live is low i'm just exsting i can't eat or sleep proplery i'm down 2 1 meal a day if that i stood on a bridge on tuesday looking down @ the road below just thinking bout jumping but in the end i walked away i can't be bothered 2 take my anti-depressent tablets any more either i don't know if i still beleive in God @ time i just
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sorry to rant but i'm tired of living