Deeper and deeper

[Sorrowful Soul]

Lately, I have been cutting myself more and more. I am going deeper and deeper. I don't know what to do. I see a counselor, but he does not care. He has even said that to me. I don't have anyone to talk to about cutting. I have a hard time talking about it. I want to tell somoene, but they will tell my parents. I don't know what to do. I am getting more and more depressed. I am also cutting more. I am expected to be perfect by my parents and I am always getting yelled out. I am so stressed out. I feel so hopeless. Can someone offer me some advice? Thank you.

 

[luv4godremains]

I am always here if ya wanna PM me hunni, try to hang in there, know that God loves you and has plans for you. I'm always here for ya to chat to, I'm afraid I don't have any advise, but, try to put some music on, anything by delirious or Matt Redmann works well for me, do something to distract yourself, it may help at least a little!

God bless
xXx

 

[b*unique]

I have talked to you already,just came to give you more support and hugs.
I can't be your personal help,but I am her for you,in the virtual world.
You are loved and important (((SS)))

 

[sparrow]

Your counsellor does not care, and he told you that?

Hmm.. Do you find him helpful? Or is he just one of those counsellors who keeps a considerable amount of professional distance?

If you need someone to talk to about your SI, your feelings, whatever, then I'm always here. I'd love to support you. Feel free to PM me and I have MSN too so add me if you want to chat (my addy is in my profile I think).

SI is a hard secret to keep... It makes it so difficult to bear. Do you have a caring youth leader or anything who you could talk to? But make it clear that you do not want your parents involved?

*hugs and hugs*

 

[Sorrowful Soul]

Your counsellor does not care, and he told you that?

Hmm.. Do you find him helpful? Or is he just one of those counsellors who keeps a considerable amount of professional distance?

If you need someone to talk to about your SI, your feelings, whatever, then I'm always here. I'd love to support you. Feel free to PM me and I have MSN too so add me if you want to chat (my addy is in my profile I think).

SI is a hard secret to keep... It makes it so difficult to bear. Do you have a caring youth leader or anything who you could talk to? But make it clear that you do not want your parents involved?

*hugs and hugs*

My counselor told me that he does not care. I really don't find him that helpful. Sometimes, by talking to him, I feel worse. The youth leader at our church. Our old youth leader is nice, but I am afraid that he will tell my parents. Some people tell me that it makes me less of a christian and that people who injure themselves are going to hell. I just need to find someone to talk to who will not tell my parents. Cutting is my onlt way of releasing stress. Thanks for the support from everyone!

 

[Sorrowful Soul]

I went back to church tonight. I was touched by the spirit. The Lord moved on me. I no longer have the desire to hurt myself. I have peace in my heart. And I have my savior to thank for that. I just wanted to update you guys. Also, I just wanted to thank everyone who offered me words of encouragement. Thank you so much! God bless you!

 

[BlackRain]

no where in God's word does it say if you cut yourself you're going to hell, so please, get that out of your head!!! it's not true. the truth is that God loves you, girl and he loves his children despite what we do.
pray that God will provide you with someone to talk with. your counselor seems unhelpful, so drop him and save yourself some money. maybe, you could talk to your youth minister about your depression and not so much about your self injure problem.
yes, it seems like the only way to release stress, but don't deceive yourself so easily. the Lord waits with open arms ready to calm you down. he really loves you...ALOT! just, tell him what's going on. tell him why you're stressed out and upset. write it out, tell a friend. if nothing else, tell us. you need an exit from your depression somehow and maybe it could start on here, if you're not comfortable talking with someone in person. i'm always willing to talk if you need someone.

 

[b*unique]

My counselor told me that he does not care. I really don't find him that helpful. Sometimes, by talking to him, I feel worse. The youth leader at our church. Our old youth leader is nice, but I am afraid that he will tell my parents. Some people tell me that it makes me less of a christian and that people who injure themselves are going to hell. I just need to find someone to talk to who will not tell my parents. Cutting is my onlt way of releasing stress. Thanks for the support from everyone!

Who can tell you such a thing?
Who dares judging you as a Christian,should remove the huge log out of their eye first.
You are only 15,so all the people must tell your parents,if your parents do ask.
You have wonderful goals,dreams ideas,put your heart into those.
And do not despair if you cut yoursef again,healing takes time,some people
cut themself,some argue,some bully..all the people deal with stress differently.
As you learn to focus your energy on things you enjoy,aand are creative,
you will heal.

There is one more thing.Look at what you eat.Discard all the junk food,
all of it.Sugar,sweeteners,artificial colours and preservatives,stimulants like tein and cofein,hydrogenated fats,over cooked,fried,dead food and drinks,get rid of them.
Eat fresh fruit and vegetables,with virgin oil and lemon dressings,
oily fish,dark chocolate and nuts.seeds,make your own bars made of whole grains,seeds,nuts and dark chocolate,they are rich in nutritions and will lift your mood.
Drink fresh water ,herbal teas with honey .
Spend loads of time outdoors,be active.Get loads of sleep,don't stay up late,rather get up early.
It work wonders for your body and mood.
Read when you're depressed,dream and fly away for a while...
You're a good person,there is nothing wrong with you

 

[doglover]

hey! Maybe you could try talking to someone at the hopeline. It's a wonderful Christian organization that help teens (and adults) with SI, suicide thoughts, family problems, etc., etc., etc. The number is: 1-800-394-HOPE (4673) or you can talk online to someone (everyone there is trained to help ppl with these problems) at www.teenhopeline.com. Just click on "live person". These ppl really care, and will direct you back to God and the Bible. Please give it a try! I hope this helps, and you are in my prayers.

 

[Sorrowful Soul]

hey! Maybe you could try talking to someone at the hopeline. It's a wonderful Christian organization that help teens (and adults) with SI, suicide thoughts, family problems, etc., etc., etc. The number is: 1-800-394-HOPE (4673) or you can talk online to someone (everyone there is trained to help ppl with these problems) at www.teenhopeline.com. Just click on "live person". These ppl really care, and will direct you back to God and the Bible. Please give it a try! I hope this helps, and you are in my prayers.

Thank you!!! I will try this! God Bless.

 

[Captain_Tripp]

gd job!i like 2 cut myself cause it relives the pain but i hate the feeling when u go in & it shocks u 4 a second.yet i still do it.i get depersed enough once enough & cut myself just bout once a month.so sad,........

 

[bassdrum1]

i can't even imagine what u r going through. what i can tell you though is my life story. i was a minsters kid so of course a lot of pressure is put on you. we had a really big blow out though at our church and thats when i started cutting.i felt hopeless also and didn't tell anyone.{well i might have kinda told someone but i'm not sure if she ever thought i was doing it} do u have an adult u really trust that u could tell in confindence. maybe like your youth pastor or pastor. even though my friend didn't know i was doing it she helped me a lot. i'll deffintly be praying for u. if anything tell God how u feel. Even if it doesn't seem like it he does love you and wants to help you. it really helped me to know and find that out when i was doing it myself. if u need to talk to me though, just pm me. i'll be here.

 

[Sorrowful Soul]

I am such a failure. I cut myself again today. I cut 23 times. I don't know what to do. I tried to talk to my parents and all they did was yell at me. I wish that I could find someone to talk to. I can't talk to my youth pastor because the youth pastor is also the pastor of the church. I want to stop, but I cannot do it alone. I don't have anyone to talk to. I feel so alone. I don't want this to get too far out of hand. I just wish that I could quit, but I think I have been doing it too long to stop with out help. I don't know if any of this makes sense as I am crying while writing this. I just had to get this out. What should I do?

 

[Hidden face_Hurting heart]

I'm soooooooooo sorry your parents yelled at you. You need support, not condemnation, especially from your family. I'm kind of in the same situation you are right now, so I don't really know what to tell you. I just wish I could be there for you to give you a big hug and encourage you. I love you, and I'm praying for you!

 

[Mr.Cheese]

Aww.
None of you are failures because you self-injure.
No matter what you do, how often, or how badly, you are daughters of God, and that makes you my lovely sisters.
I think that's pretty cool.

 

[thenewageriseth]

Sorrowful Soul...I'm sorry that this is happening to you. I myself am not a cutter, since the subject fairly new to me (I learned about it from watching an episode of DeGrassi) but that's awful that the counselor said that. Counselors are supposed to help not hinder...
and about parents, they should'nt yell like that...I'm in the same situation, too, where I did something and I couldn't tell mine about it in fears of being scorned or something...parents need to understand that no one is perfect, that we make mistakes and we fail, but we get back up again...even the mistakes like these...they need to understand that.

 

[katiegirl]

Hey man!
If your couselor doesn't care, find someone who does. It's hard when you feel numb or sad or out of control (..atleast that's why I cut) and people around you don't understand your hurt. But think about this: surrround yourself with people who care. If you have no one to save you from yourself, then how are you supposed to get better. If you truly hate this action then they can help you get better.

Drop me a note sometime if you want some help.

 

[Sorrowful Soul]

Thanks for the support everyone. I am going to try to get up enough courage to talk to someone. I am unsure if it will be someone at church or if it will be just someone that I know. I just need to get this "off my chest". I feel so weak. I get mad at myself because I have to cut myself just to deal with things. I just don't want anyone to tell my parents. I don't want to be put in the hospital again for this. I just wish that I could stop, but I can't. I feel so alone.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

Aww. You're anything but alone. You would probably be amazed at how many girls you know injure themselves as well.

 

[Sorrowful Soul]

I know many who SI, but it seems like there is never any relief for me. The only thing that I can do to feel better is cut. I am so weak. I tried talking to my family and they just yelled and said they did not have the time. I don't know what to do.