Over my life span I've noticed that I seem to have an unusually high level of pheromones and it seems to create utter chaos for me in my daily life. Im an average guy a little overweight but working to change that, currently it seems that no matter how hard I push myself I'm not losing my belly whiles't at the same time my muscles get bigger and bigger, aside from that.
When I worked at summer camps before I was the typical nerd, none of the women would really talk to me, my parents had gotten me into using Byrocream to style my hair little did I know it left my hair smelly and very greasy, none of the female staff would really talk to me, to put it into perspective I was 16 new staff and the rest were in their late 20s and early 30s it was the end of an era in 5 years the old members would slowly move on to be replaced by new members, at the time I was 380 pounds wearing thick glasses didnt shower much and would rather be on my pc all day.. still I was tourmented by every female camper from 18 and younger I had to run for my life to get away from hugs kisses and pinches I swear I lost 30 pounds in the 7 years I remained a staff member, I never worked directly with the kids, having no social skills or wordly skills I was put on maintenance or networking computers, only seeing campers on the rare occasion, but as soon as the females saw me they would chase me, I even had one occasion where a 17 year old leapt at me wrapped her legs around my waist and I hit the floor on my back with a major crash, luckily another male staff member was nearby and pulled he off me quickly.
Ive had multiple instances where women act like drug addicts due to my presence especially when Ive just worked out. I pray about it constantly and the only avenue I can see in this is to continue working out exercising 3-5 hours a day until I have a toned body.. as I see that this will cause me to be better receipted by women because as I can see it the slightly chubby look seems to put them off.
I moved to Australia and I've seen things come to the point where some women avoid me, these being ones that acted slightly like an addict around me, twirling their hair trying to stand rather close, later on they seem to feel that I violated their personal space somehow, it seems like it wears off and their either embarrassed or angry, so currently I do have a lot of friends I'm happy with that but after 3 years I see the patterns some of my closer friends will only spend limited amounts of time in my presence their all too happy to see me but it seems to strain them, new females that I meet usually immediately brighten up, act flirtatious, try to spend a lot of time around me act aggressively and usually end up very uncomfortable around me later, while even fewer seem to have come to terms with the awkward feelings it creates.
I cant say that I know how to deal with this, its happened over and over for my entire life, and I can always identify the stages and pretty much narrow it down to a time when they will become uncomfortable around me, get angry or avoid me.
Honestly if they had some surgery or chemical that I could take to tone it down I would jump on the chance, living this way has its strains and I often ask God why, and why cant he take it away from me, it seems to be a family curse, women react the same around my dad as if they've lost all common sense flirtatious touchy, its taken a lot of therapy for my mother to accept it and caused a lot of fights.
Being a christian, and wanting to be a man of God, wanting to wait for marriage and only wanting to be with one girl in my lifetime, how does someone deal with this? other than my failed attempts to avoid women at all costs and always surround myself with guy friends.
When I worked at summer camps before I was the typical nerd, none of the women would really talk to me, my parents had gotten me into using Byrocream to style my hair little did I know it left my hair smelly and very greasy, none of the female staff would really talk to me, to put it into perspective I was 16 new staff and the rest were in their late 20s and early 30s it was the end of an era in 5 years the old members would slowly move on to be replaced by new members, at the time I was 380 pounds wearing thick glasses didnt shower much and would rather be on my pc all day.. still I was tourmented by every female camper from 18 and younger I had to run for my life to get away from hugs kisses and pinches I swear I lost 30 pounds in the 7 years I remained a staff member, I never worked directly with the kids, having no social skills or wordly skills I was put on maintenance or networking computers, only seeing campers on the rare occasion, but as soon as the females saw me they would chase me, I even had one occasion where a 17 year old leapt at me wrapped her legs around my waist and I hit the floor on my back with a major crash, luckily another male staff member was nearby and pulled he off me quickly.
Ive had multiple instances where women act like drug addicts due to my presence especially when Ive just worked out. I pray about it constantly and the only avenue I can see in this is to continue working out exercising 3-5 hours a day until I have a toned body.. as I see that this will cause me to be better receipted by women because as I can see it the slightly chubby look seems to put them off.
I moved to Australia and I've seen things come to the point where some women avoid me, these being ones that acted slightly like an addict around me, twirling their hair trying to stand rather close, later on they seem to feel that I violated their personal space somehow, it seems like it wears off and their either embarrassed or angry, so currently I do have a lot of friends I'm happy with that but after 3 years I see the patterns some of my closer friends will only spend limited amounts of time in my presence their all too happy to see me but it seems to strain them, new females that I meet usually immediately brighten up, act flirtatious, try to spend a lot of time around me act aggressively and usually end up very uncomfortable around me later, while even fewer seem to have come to terms with the awkward feelings it creates.
I cant say that I know how to deal with this, its happened over and over for my entire life, and I can always identify the stages and pretty much narrow it down to a time when they will become uncomfortable around me, get angry or avoid me.
Honestly if they had some surgery or chemical that I could take to tone it down I would jump on the chance, living this way has its strains and I often ask God why, and why cant he take it away from me, it seems to be a family curse, women react the same around my dad as if they've lost all common sense flirtatious touchy, its taken a lot of therapy for my mother to accept it and caused a lot of fights.
Being a christian, and wanting to be a man of God, wanting to wait for marriage and only wanting to be with one girl in my lifetime, how does someone deal with this? other than my failed attempts to avoid women at all costs and always surround myself with guy friends.
