Dont worry man, I get really happy when it rains. Ha, not too long ago, when I first started to think of God, I started heading down the road to Him, trying to become closer, and I guess Satan was just putting thoughts into my head, but yeah, im not proud of this, but I will admit this, for awhile all I thought about was murder, and what it would feel like. I guess I didnt even realize this was Satan putting thoughts into my head, but it makes sense now. Im fine now, but I can definatly relate to you, thats problem one of the hardest things for me, I cant make any Christian friends...because, well, they arent like me, everything is different, I dont like the same music as people, they cant even comprehend.. I dono man. I got long messy hair, tight pants, and I skateboard, people are too judgemental though, like, they have some pre-conceived image of what a Christian should look like, and then they assume that all skateboarders wear Jyncos and smoke marijuana. I wouldnt know how to explain it, im just not like most christians I meet, in fact, I havent met a Christian I could seriously be friends with, I dont think, but who knows. Also, I have really obscure thoughts, I cant even dwell into what I think about, they arent evil though, just REALLY strange, in fact, if I told most people, they'd probably die of laughter. I bet God has a good time laughing at the **** that I think about half the time. But I feel blessed that I am born this way, I dont get all "holier-than-thou", but I wouldnt want to be any other way. I just get nervous sometimes that I will never meet a christian girl I could ever like, have a serious relationship with, the only thing I can do is place trust in God to find me someone...it just seems....impossible? Not impossible I guess, I just dont know sometimes. I know God can do it, I just hope its soon..or something. But I digress, its easy for me to say stop thinking of these things, but if you feel that they interfere or even offend God, then ask Him, and if He says yes, then pray that He takes these thoughts out of your head. Im fasting right now, so if you want me to pray for you I will, just tell me.