Daily Support and Sharing

[Illuminated]

Yesterday I came to these realizations:

ONE) I've been trading God for food

TWO) Ignoring and underestimating God's power
- I need to regain His reality in my life. I can go to a bathroom and pray when it gets hard.. if I'm in a public place.

THREE) This life is for God, in God, with God, through God. And there's no other way. All else is death.

FOUR) All creation knows. It knows God. And His name.

 

[IreneAdler]

I'm feeling a bit better, but then I've lost some weight so generally they go hand in hand. Hope everyone else is feeling well.

 

[Criada]

Glad you're feeling better, sweetie

 

[blessedmomof5]

Having some bad body issues the last few days seeing things that cannot possibly be there. I want to lose some weight, but that is going against what God has been doing in my life....
So confused.

 

[jay2010]

hey how is everyone. i hope u are all seeing the light in the darkness and knowing the the light is always brighter than any darkness we feel. im so so tired of everything right now. it feels at time that i cannot cope without using my ed. my husband and i argueing sets it off and i can't cope with him as well as the ed and i been binging and purging all day today and tomorrow i start work at a new job - i don't know how i am going to get thru it! i am in no way settled and feel i am not ready for this type of work in times like this, but i am tryin to step out in faith to do things to help myself. bulimic episodes always come for me at the wrong time. ive drank rehydration drink and lots of fluid and will go to bed...hopefully will sleep god bless u all

 

[blessedmomof5]

Sorry to hear you are having a rough time right now, but what i have learned or at least over many yrs of this ana,, is that you have control of your actions,in response to how we are treated.Everything starts with forgiveness.

hey how is everyone. i hope u are all seeing the light in the darkness and knowing the the light is always brighter than any darkness we feel. im so so tired of everything right now. it feels at time that i cannot cope without using my ed. my husband and i argueing sets it off and i can't cope with him as well as the ed and i been binging and purging all day today and tomorrow i start work at a new job - i don't know how i am going to get thru it! i am in no way settled and feel i am not ready for this type of work in times like this, but i am tryin to step out in faith to do things to help myself. bulimic episodes always come for me at the wrong time. ive drank rehydration drink and lots of fluid and will go to bed...hopefully will sleep god bless u all

 

[blessedmomof5]

Got back on the dumb scale today, why? because i like to torture myself i suppose.
so where did all this weigh come from? Did i have an outer body experience?
what am i now suppose to do with this information? how to deal?
i can't go to the gym because of the yrs of overexercising have now ruined my hips so i have constant pain....... If i could just lose so many lbs i would be ok. or would i?

 

[jay2010]

hey
maybe you should try to think of yourself as having value based on your personality and who you mean to God and those around you rather than the scale....easier said than done i know but when all is said and done...there will be no weights and scales and sizes in heaven and we can't take our bodies from this life to the next.
i realise i have responisbility over my actions and responses but i am finding it so so hard because i get angry and then can't focus or think straight and the ed is all i feel like i can do to deal with all the negative feelings to numb them out. i dunno this is just so so hard. i feel like i just wanna be on my own to bp and can't and it makes me more angry cos i can't release my feelings the way that i need to. but i know i need to release them in other healthy ways and i am learning these ways, but somehow, when the feelings are just so stressful and intense it just seems impossible.

 

[blessedmomof5]

i hear what your saying about yourself, but being in and out of ED clinics i do know that they b/p can wreck havok on your electrolites. do u go to the dr and have them checked?
i know bc of ana, my pottassium was so low i almost gave myself a heart attack, but they did the angiogram which PTL showed that i had no blocked arties and i did not have a HA because of my cardiac enzyemes.

BTW you do know that karen carpenter died over a tiolet bowl, HA bc of electrolites..... not meaning to scare you just giving you the facts. which i pray will make you somehow realize what that does to your body. not that i am anybetter then you bc i am SO not. i just worry about others. and i do not want anything to happen to you

hey
maybe you should try to think of yourself as having value based on your personality and who you mean to God and those around you rather than the scale....easier said than done i know but when all is said and done...there will be no weights and scales and sizes in heaven and we can't take our bodies from this life to the next.
i realise i have responisbility over my actions and responses but i am finding it so so hard because i get angry and then can't focus or think straight and the ed is all i feel like i can do to deal with all the negative feelings to numb them out. i dunno this is just so so hard. i feel like i just wanna be on my own to bp and can't and it makes me more angry cos i can't release my feelings the way that i need to. but i know i need to release them in other healthy ways and i am learning these ways, but somehow, when the feelings are just so stressful and intense it just seems impossible.