Crying Fit today after doing okay for a while

[Angeleyes7715]

I forced down some chamomile tablets to calm down before work. I have obsessively been working on a new business venture and haven't made a single sale and then I went into a panic again about being underemployed and stuck as a wage slave forever in a job I can't stand and blah blah blah.

I've wasted almost two hours doing nothing but crying.

Im about to head out in the rainy day for an hour bus and train ride to my job to deal with impatient customers and understaffing for a few hours. I just don't have the drive for this but
It's either this job which barely and might not even cut it or homelessness cause not sure how else the rents getting paid next month. And new job that pays more is hilarious.

Mostly what I see in Arizona is jobs that pay $16 or under an hour. Unless you are a Dr. Or lawyer here fat chance infact saw legal aid job they were trying to pay $14/hr and taco Bell pays $12 in my state smh lol.

Sorry for the negativity it just seems really hopeless. I don't want to go to my job cause I know I'm gonna be in a bad mood.

 

[Lost4words]

Take a deep breath. Focus on the crucifix. Offer up your struggles to God.

 

[dysert]

I'm sorry, Angeleyes. I know it can seem hopeless at times. I just prayed for you. I hope you'll feel better tomorrow.

 

[RaymondG]

Sometimes a good cry can be helpful. I try to get a good 1 or 2 in every year, but being a man....it isnt always that easy......

 

[Sam91]

It is ok for you to have felt the way that you did and do not see it as being back at square one, or falling back.

I do not know your story and what your dealing with but I do know that sometimes when people are recovering or have recovered from depression that for a while there lows can feel very despairing when they do have them. I know that over time these lows get not so low and it helps if the person isn't worried about that aspect. But it can take a while, even a year or so in the example I am thinking of, however these lows were also more spread out too with a good level of contentment in between.

I hope it is relevent of of some comfort to you. But if it isn't maybe it might be one day.

God bless you. ♡

 

[Jeshu]

Rarely does depression let us easily of the hook. You had some good days which is great to hear for it are those good days that you need to utilise to build your new good life with.

For as you know depression comes with negative feelings and bad news and tries to grill you with those things. However when we build our life view with those negative feelings then we create a more depressive heart. That is why battling the negativity with God's promises works really well to help against that.

When we feel less depressed then the negative feelings are replaced with positive feelings. Now i found that when we prayerfully bring those positive times to the Lord, and build our lives on them with Him, then we grow stronger fighting our depression and can find good life even when bad life is compelling.

It is about looking at God's promises though not at this fallen world with all its misery because that is indeed very depressing.

Praying you will soon feel a bit better again.