just want to say this forum been such an inspiration to me and one particular member who I talk to has inspired me to help others and if I could
ever be 1/4 the leader he is as far as commitment and help to others I would consider myself a complete success.
I was misdiagnosed for 2 years and suffered with severe depression so they put me on Zoloft and kept upping the dose for like 4 months and my conditioned just kept getting worse. and it turns out I had adult ADD so I started focalin and literally within 2 days I was 100% better
My life was so bad if you offered me a pill to take so I could fall asleep and never wake up I would have swallowed it as soon as I got it.
I am a stock trader and would literally have thousands of dollars on the line everyday and I would be up all night watching stock futures and waiting for things like China's CPI to come out { consumer price index} to see what impact it would have on stock futures. No wonder I suffered from anxiety !!
I would pride myself on destroying the completion being better than everyone else not to mention stepping on whoever got in my way.
I am also a competitive bodybuilder who thinks genetically I am gifted and just plain better than the anyone else.
My old company called me the other day and offered me my old job back... within the last 2 weeks my life went from wanting to die to complete love for life and actual joy. I used to be one of those type A personality 100% all or nothing and step on anyone that got in my way . Honestly after the pain and suffering I have been through I would much prefer to be a servant and help others than be a leader and crush everyone to get where I want to be...I am so happy to be going back to my old job but at the same time I have reservations of returning to the life that probably contributed to my self destruction. ..
This forum is a major part of my recovery and every painful post I read my heart just breaks and I want to reach out and just help any way I can.
Now I am faced with do I want to go back to the life I used to lead which by all measures was pretty dam good but was superficial or would I rather suffer and find the true meaning of life...I I pray to god I make the right choice...
My ADD has been such a curse but at the same time at times I find it to be a blessing..Strange
ever be 1/4 the leader he is as far as commitment and help to others I would consider myself a complete success.
I was misdiagnosed for 2 years and suffered with severe depression so they put me on Zoloft and kept upping the dose for like 4 months and my conditioned just kept getting worse. and it turns out I had adult ADD so I started focalin and literally within 2 days I was 100% better
My life was so bad if you offered me a pill to take so I could fall asleep and never wake up I would have swallowed it as soon as I got it.
I am a stock trader and would literally have thousands of dollars on the line everyday and I would be up all night watching stock futures and waiting for things like China's CPI to come out { consumer price index} to see what impact it would have on stock futures. No wonder I suffered from anxiety !!
I would pride myself on destroying the completion being better than everyone else not to mention stepping on whoever got in my way.
I am also a competitive bodybuilder who thinks genetically I am gifted and just plain better than the anyone else.
My old company called me the other day and offered me my old job back... within the last 2 weeks my life went from wanting to die to complete love for life and actual joy. I used to be one of those type A personality 100% all or nothing and step on anyone that got in my way . Honestly after the pain and suffering I have been through I would much prefer to be a servant and help others than be a leader and crush everyone to get where I want to be...I am so happy to be going back to my old job but at the same time I have reservations of returning to the life that probably contributed to my self destruction. ..
This forum is a major part of my recovery and every painful post I read my heart just breaks and I want to reach out and just help any way I can.
Now I am faced with do I want to go back to the life I used to lead which by all measures was pretty dam good but was superficial or would I rather suffer and find the true meaning of life...I I pray to god I make the right choice...
My ADD has been such a curse but at the same time at times I find it to be a blessing..Strange
