I can't seem to stop creating. I am a very creative person. Ideas pour out of me like water. And they are not part of my job. I spend a lot of time on my job creating instead of doing the work I've been assigned. I can't stand not creating. And I know this is theft. It is a sin. What do I do? The things I create could be valuable to millions of people. I have created major breakthroughs in my field. And yet I do not get to use most of these on my job (I do get to use a few). I just keep creating.
Should I look for a new job? If I do, I have Asperger's and I have done this many times and have never found a job that uses my creativity, so I keep stealing no matter what job I get. I could brain damage myself and stop creating, but that wouldn't do anyone any good. I think God created me to create and yet I don't see a way to do it without stealing. What do I do? What should I even pray for?
It's not clear how you think being creative is stealing from your job. Do you mean that you're sitting at your desk drawing/having ideas/designing instead of doing what you are supposed to be doing?
Presumably your work gets done somehow, otherwise your boss wouldn't be happy and you'd be out of a job.
Do you mean that whatever work you're given, you find a new way of doing it, or a different approach? If so, this may not be a bad thing and may even benefit the company.
Or do you mean that you actually steal money/equipment to take home and use for your creations? If so, this IS stealing, and if your boss knew, you would have to look for another job, because you'd probably be sacked.
I don't know much about Asperger's', but could you contact a helpline or Asperger's charity, explain the problem and ask for help, ideas or for them to contact your employer and explain the situation? Could you get a job with an Asperger's charity, or designing things for disabled people to improve the quality of their lives?
Have you given any of your "world changing ideas" to manufacturers? If they thought there was a chance of making money, I'm sure they'd be on it like a shot.
God is our Creator and we are made in his image - so it's not surprising that we create. There's nothing wrong with creating, but if it takes over your work and you find you'd rather be doing that than working, that is not good. Maybe it is an indication that you are in the wrong job.