Hello everyone!
I have a history of ocd /really bad scrupulosity and because of that have felt much condemnation. Especially for pre-conversion sins. Some of them should be "corrected" /require restitution. Because of ocd, I attempted to do that, but for all the wrong reasons (fear mostly). It was horrible...
For the past 2 or 3 years God has taught me to trust him and love him. Ocd has become less and less evident ever since.
Around 2 days ago I felt the urge to correct one of those sins now. But in comparison to the feelings of condemnation, I feel at peace. I was not sure and prayed to God for clarity and to lead me since he did not give us the spirit of fear and confusion, but of a sound mind. All the queasy feelings disappeared and I am all calm now. It's more of a gentle push this time. Without fear and with the intention to bring glory to God, follow his will and because doing so would be to love my neighbor as myself. No fear involved at all. BTW, the sin I am talking about was a lie. So, restitution would be to tell the person involved what I did and tell the truth instead.
I know that feelings and emotions can deceive us and are not always the best guide. But since this is so much different from the condemnation and it would be a biblical thing to do, I am positive it's the gentle conviction of the holy spirit.
But I would like ask for advice since I am still prone to ocd I guess.
What do you think about this? Could this be real conviction or does this sound like ocd to you?
I will pray some more about it too.
I'd really appreciate your input!
God bless and have a great day!
I have a history of ocd /really bad scrupulosity and because of that have felt much condemnation. Especially for pre-conversion sins. Some of them should be "corrected" /require restitution. Because of ocd, I attempted to do that, but for all the wrong reasons (fear mostly). It was horrible...
For the past 2 or 3 years God has taught me to trust him and love him. Ocd has become less and less evident ever since.
Around 2 days ago I felt the urge to correct one of those sins now. But in comparison to the feelings of condemnation, I feel at peace. I was not sure and prayed to God for clarity and to lead me since he did not give us the spirit of fear and confusion, but of a sound mind. All the queasy feelings disappeared and I am all calm now. It's more of a gentle push this time. Without fear and with the intention to bring glory to God, follow his will and because doing so would be to love my neighbor as myself. No fear involved at all. BTW, the sin I am talking about was a lie. So, restitution would be to tell the person involved what I did and tell the truth instead.
I know that feelings and emotions can deceive us and are not always the best guide. But since this is so much different from the condemnation and it would be a biblical thing to do, I am positive it's the gentle conviction of the holy spirit.
But I would like ask for advice since I am still prone to ocd I guess.
What do you think about this? Could this be real conviction or does this sound like ocd to you?
I will pray some more about it too.
I'd really appreciate your input!
God bless and have a great day!