Achimandrite Ephrem from his Review of the Orthodox Study Bible said:
...the converts tend to bring with them far too much of the baggage of their previous allegiances... We converts to Orthodoxy must be ready to leave all things and follow where our Fathers have led. We Orthodox must be prepared to say Come and see. But we must strenuously resist every temptation to add, And dont worry, well try to make it palatable for you. ... There is a profound sense in which it is true to say that Orthodoxy takes centuries to acquire.
Julio quoted this exact excerpt in a thread regarding the Orthodox Study Bible. I had actually read it earlier, but it also stood out to me and summed up a lot of what I have been thinking regarding my own journey into orthodody just within the last few months.
Orthodoxy is not a hat you put on and say "Look, I'm Orthodox!"... it is unending process by which you
become Orthodox day by day. I think many of us converts fail to truly recognize this (Im not accusing or even thinking of anyone in particular at TAW... but I know a lot of converts in real life, as do all of us, and I know that many are like me). Now, I didn't know that I thought of Orthodoxy in this way, but looking back, I did see it like this to a great extent.
I came to the Orthodox Church with my cowboy mentality: I recognized the fact that "this is the true Church, but it is not perfect" (very true) but I made the mistake of going further than this and adding "Let's see how I can help make it better." So, I would notice the "problems" in the Orthodox Church. "Too much Greek here", "people come late to Church", "What? you don't even know the book of the OT!" etc... Some of my almighty criticisms may have even been justified from time to time (although I am finding less and less of them to be so as time goes on), but I have come to realize that this is beside the point. I see now that I have nothing to offer the Orthodox Church except my obedience, appreciation and love. How can I possibly, "make it better"? Why would I try to reform anything, even those things which may need refomation. I'll leave that to a holier man than I. For now, I can't go wrong just learning from her, imperfections and all. Is it good for imperfections to be fixed? Sure, but I doubt I am the person to even properly recognize where those imperfections lie. I have become so much better than I used to be at just not worrying about something that doesn't sit right with me.
I have had heard it said that converts should not speak for a year, but only listen. While taking this literally isn't practical, the spirit behind it is so true. How much furthere I would be if I would have just ignored my arrogancy and shut up. The more I am Orthodox, the more I see my past baggage as just that, baggage that I need to let go of if I ever expect to fully immerse myself in the Church.
By the way, I'm not really referring (personally) to doctrinal issues (which i never had a problem fully accepting, even when it didnt make sense) but rather to pieties and customs... small t traditions. A monk I met in Monachos (who is now with our Lord) used to say that these traditions (small t), (all of those little things, even the stuff that seems silly or doesnt make sense to us) are the mortar which holds the bricks our faith together.
This is why, for me, it is so wonderful to go to a parish with a lot of cradle orthodox. Maybe they don't have that "convert zeal" (but I have found that my "zeal" has gotten me into trouble more than not and has only created further obstacles in truly understanding the mindset of the Church and
becoming Orthodox) but they can give me that mortar if I only learn to watch and listen and get the reformer mentality as far away from me as possible.

(John now steps off of his soapbox)
This post was more like a journal than anything else. It was not meant to criticise anyone but myslef in the past. I'll be interested to hear what anyone else thinks about Archimandrite Ephrem's quote above (that's really the OP here... I'm jsut commenting on it).
God bless,
John