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Hello, it's me again... Just humbly beg of you to keep praying for me. Tomorrow is monday after the big holloday. Pray that I can go and find a good job tomorrow. I will be looking, pray that I find the motivation to look everywhere I must look to find a job.
Things seem grim right now. I do not know if my room mate and I will get enough "christmas money" to keep us afloat another month. I had a back up plan to move to pendleton because a friend of mine said there were good jobs there and cheap living. But Pendleton just suffered a 600 job lay off and it's a very small town so now that's not really an option he says there was nothing available there now.
I simply must find a job soon. I'm willing to work, I'm willing to sacrifice and work anything at the most miserable job ever as long as it's work I can do, please let this not be sales. Telemarketing is maybe the only thing I might find right now, but it's so hard to always have your sales hanging over your head and most of the companies I've worked for just hurass people and misslead them, I can not imagine that's what God wants me to do.
Anyhow Please continue to pray for me, especially that I can find something tomorrow. Please also pray that these suicidle thoughts leave me. I hate to sound so pathetic. It's truely embarressing, but I feel so lost and useless. All I can think about lately is drinking anti freeze or paroxide. I would like to have more faith than to just give up.
Thanks again,
BENJAMIN JEANOTTE
Things seem grim right now. I do not know if my room mate and I will get enough "christmas money" to keep us afloat another month. I had a back up plan to move to pendleton because a friend of mine said there were good jobs there and cheap living. But Pendleton just suffered a 600 job lay off and it's a very small town so now that's not really an option he says there was nothing available there now.
I simply must find a job soon. I'm willing to work, I'm willing to sacrifice and work anything at the most miserable job ever as long as it's work I can do, please let this not be sales. Telemarketing is maybe the only thing I might find right now, but it's so hard to always have your sales hanging over your head and most of the companies I've worked for just hurass people and misslead them, I can not imagine that's what God wants me to do.
Anyhow Please continue to pray for me, especially that I can find something tomorrow. Please also pray that these suicidle thoughts leave me. I hate to sound so pathetic. It's truely embarressing, but I feel so lost and useless. All I can think about lately is drinking anti freeze or paroxide. I would like to have more faith than to just give up.
Thanks again,
BENJAMIN JEANOTTE