Hi,
I've been on this forum posting probably way too many times about my relationship struggles and my OCD regarding my boyfriend's and my relationship.
I think we're getting closer to getting married; he said he's still not ready but we've been together over a year so we're sort of close.
And my mind has been running amok with things that I think he would hate about me. And so I feel this need to confess stuff to him. I want to marry him, but my mind keeps telling me that he wouldn't like me if he knew this or that. I feel like I'm making issues too big in my head; my issue i posted about yesterday that I've been holding onto for over a year, he wasn't concerned about. And so my brain has jumped to the next thing. I feel like I have this list of stuff that I need to get off my chest with him.
Everything is so huge in my head it's hard to know if it's actually worth bringing up or if I should just pray and give it to God and let everything go. I'm scared to get married without sitting down and hashing out the things I'm obsessing over, because if I don't then I feel like I'm a fraud and he's not getting a clear picture of the woman he wants to marry.
I've been on this forum posting probably way too many times about my relationship struggles and my OCD regarding my boyfriend's and my relationship.
I think we're getting closer to getting married; he said he's still not ready but we've been together over a year so we're sort of close.
And my mind has been running amok with things that I think he would hate about me. And so I feel this need to confess stuff to him. I want to marry him, but my mind keeps telling me that he wouldn't like me if he knew this or that. I feel like I'm making issues too big in my head; my issue i posted about yesterday that I've been holding onto for over a year, he wasn't concerned about. And so my brain has jumped to the next thing. I feel like I have this list of stuff that I need to get off my chest with him.
Everything is so huge in my head it's hard to know if it's actually worth bringing up or if I should just pray and give it to God and let everything go. I'm scared to get married without sitting down and hashing out the things I'm obsessing over, because if I don't then I feel like I'm a fraud and he's not getting a clear picture of the woman he wants to marry.