Confusion

[trippe]

I am so very confused about everything. I want to believe in the existence of God and Jesus but everytime i try the unbelief gets worse. I tell my wife that im not saved and someone like me never can be because of the unbelief. I hate myself. It seems like all i ever do is commit lust and adultery because of my wrong thoughts and the desires of my flesh. Then I feel compelled to tell my wife everything. Im not sure if i feel bad that i have sinned or i feel bad because i dont feel bad and i know that i should. I dont want to be like this anymore. I live in constant fear because everyime i say im just going to wait on God i feel like im just putting my salvation off and if i died then i would go to hell. I still get up in the mornings and pray and read a devotional from Charles Stanley, then read and pray before i go to bed, i also pray numerous times through the day yet i never grow in faith or belief and i have been doing it for three years. I have seen pastors and other christians and i have asked about a million questions but i never get any firm answers. I have read the case for faith and the case for the real Jesus but it only seems to help for a moment and then im worse then before. Im so tired i just feel like throwing my hands up and saying whatever. I dont know if ill ever get through any of this. I feel like i already have inside. I dont know if i ever truly believed in my heart. I dont know what to do. Is there anyone the same way. Has anyone ever felt like God just didnt want anything to do with them and they were destined for hell. I just want to be a child of God, I just want to love my wife and my little unborn girl, I just want to care. Im going to get anti anxiety medicine today. I hope it helps. Please be praying for me.
Thanks everyone

 

[joey_downunder]

Hi Trippe, I have struggled with this in the past. I was convinced I had done too much and backslidden too many times. I was believing my feelings far more than in God's forgiveness.

You need to prayerfully ask yourself these questions: Who do you believe more: yourself or God? Have you ever been wrong or mistaken? When has God ever been imperfect or not completely truthful with you ? Do you trust what is written in the Bible?

The Bible is completely open about who will receive forgiveness. There are no hidden clauses or exceptions e.g. people who worry too much will not be saved because of unbelief. That means we are not left out then.

Romans 10: 9That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved.

For a great webpage on doubting google this: net burst "help when doubt knocks" (Net burst is the name of the christian website).

God bless from a fellow believer who doubts at times!

 

[Chibah]

Lust and adultry can easily be bondage to even a born again Christian if they do not know how to overcome it with the power God gave them.

Faith comes from hearing His Word. What you need to do is ask God to give you the ability to believe in Him. To know Christ is real is a revelation from God.

When Jesus asked the apostles "who do you think I am" it was Peter I believe who said "you are the Christ" Jesus said this was revealed by the Father in Heaven.

Ask God to reveal the truth to you, and seek him with all of your heart. Take this leap of Faith in your life. Jesus said "repent and believe in the gospel"

Read His word daily and get to know Him, and experiance Him for yourself in daily living. If you do search for Him with all your heart, I promise you will find Him.

Doubts and suggestions are going to arise, it will happen and most will struggle as they grow into maturity, dont badger yourself for it. But you need to understand that if you are willing to accept Him as you Lord and Saviour, you will begin to go through doubts and many lies told from the devil.

Get yourself grounded in His Word, ask the Lord to lead you to a good church that teaches and disciples the body of Christ.

And trust in Him and the Holy Spirit will lead you