hello Everyone,
This is sort of a request for prayer and advice. The last few weeks of my life have been quite intense. Its been a time of powerful communion and fellowship with the Lord, but also a time of strugle, confusion and depression for me. I has swung between these extremes. it really comes down to three situations:
1. The Lord is calling me to minister to my own town. Its a mission of praying for the town, and also evanglizing. what I strugle with is the evanglizing, I have a fear of evangelizing to people, I have a fear of connecting to strangers. I know part of this is spirtual attack. The Lord has shown me quite bit during this time, but i also strugle with doubt about all this, I sometimes feel I'm being foolish, I feel alone in all this. Still I feel the strong pull by the Holy Spirit to go out and walk and pray( which i have been doing most days).
2. During all this me and my wife have struggle with bad finacial problems, we can see the light at the end of the tunnel. But it has been very tough it has strained our relationship at times. this has all just added to my confusion , concerning #1.
3. Also I'm back to work, my job can be quite intense and draining ( i work with special needs children) which by itself is quite managable, add with the 2 above add to the presure.
In a nutshell I just feel overwhelmed by it all. My moods has swung from be accepting and joyfull, to being depressed and angry and feeling sorry for myself. I have prayed much on this. in some ways I have post on all this before, but in a scatered sort of way, it only been over the last few days i have seen these thread come together.
Anyway I would be grateful for your prayer and any guidance or advice you could give.
This is sort of a request for prayer and advice. The last few weeks of my life have been quite intense. Its been a time of powerful communion and fellowship with the Lord, but also a time of strugle, confusion and depression for me. I has swung between these extremes. it really comes down to three situations:
1. The Lord is calling me to minister to my own town. Its a mission of praying for the town, and also evanglizing. what I strugle with is the evanglizing, I have a fear of evangelizing to people, I have a fear of connecting to strangers. I know part of this is spirtual attack. The Lord has shown me quite bit during this time, but i also strugle with doubt about all this, I sometimes feel I'm being foolish, I feel alone in all this. Still I feel the strong pull by the Holy Spirit to go out and walk and pray( which i have been doing most days).
2. During all this me and my wife have struggle with bad finacial problems, we can see the light at the end of the tunnel. But it has been very tough it has strained our relationship at times. this has all just added to my confusion , concerning #1.
3. Also I'm back to work, my job can be quite intense and draining ( i work with special needs children) which by itself is quite managable, add with the 2 above add to the presure.
In a nutshell I just feel overwhelmed by it all. My moods has swung from be accepting and joyfull, to being depressed and angry and feeling sorry for myself. I have prayed much on this. in some ways I have post on all this before, but in a scatered sort of way, it only been over the last few days i have seen these thread come together.
Anyway I would be grateful for your prayer and any guidance or advice you could give.